Tired

Today has been a tired day for me. I slept at about 2am yesterday and woke up about 7 to go to school. Did homework and then went to play soccer at CCAB. The sun wasnt too kind today. I m damn red now, esp face. I dunno how the sun works, but it seems like it is able to suck energy from me. It s a weird feeling.

Now i think my ears are just as red. When i touch it, i can feel the heat is produce. i think i sucked today. i must admit my shooting is quite on form today. maybe it s the confidence. this thing called confidence really does make a big difference. Before we entered the field, i had loads of confidence i can play better on the field and make good crosses. My feet did what my mind wanted me to do for the first few crosses. but then, it started to drizzle and rain. this caused the field to be wet and slippery. and when i ran up to the ball to cross, i slipped and fell. This caused my confidence to fall drastically and made my every step more careful, not wanting to fall as i wasnt wearing studs. in the end, my over conciousness made me think more of myself than the quality of the delivery. in the end the crosses were all off target and even turned out to be a wing lob shot. must really train my crosses. ming was waiting and waiting and i didnt deliver a good one in. feel disappointed with myself.

anyway, i also need to train headers. I dare to head, is just that my timing and direction is not there. sometimes i stay to my position is beacause i m scared if i move to a more advance position, then i will miss the ball as i already read the flight of the ball and where it was going to land. if i move maybe to the side a bit, or jump, i may miss the ball totally and that will eb worse. so i need to train to get my timing right, and also the direction so that i wont head back to the strikers in a match.

ying lun said i play better as a striker. i beg to differ. i m the most comfortable at right back. but sometimes right midfield is good for me. at right back, i can make overlapping runs, but in slayers, i dun find the freedom as we emphasize on defence and afraid to be caught out of position. i myself do not want to get caught out of position as i experienced in previous matches. like when i move up for throws. ah.. that reminds me i have to improve throw ins. foul throws are as embarrasing as miskicks.

but now, i think if our midfield aint enough people, i think i can play on the left flank or as a DM. i think maybe i should exploit my shot power. by playing on the left, i think my left foot is able to make some decent short crosses or low cross. but should be more effective cutting in like jeremy. as DM, i will not be the usual DM who protects the defence and sit back. but will ram like siao esp from long range. i like to use my momentum to power my shot but really have to speed up the time for me to take the shot. i should not waste so much time to put in so much effort in making a quality shot (except free kicks) but just ram as soon as i get the space. that should be what ying lun mean.

damn, i still fear for my cramps. i wont be able to last a full match. that s for sure. even though my stamina is good, my legs cant take it, or rather my blood aint up to standard. pity shawn that he 'sprained' his ankle. to be honest, i think shawn is the most versatile player in our team.

he is
-fast
-able to dribble
-can shoot
-can cross
-quite clinical
-shot power ever there
-stamina levels high
-good vision
-posses good positional play
-good reader of game
-fast reaction
-determined

i think there s more qualities but he need to improve on heading like me. other wise he s a really good player. he s speed and crossing abilities can land him on the flanks. His dribbling and vision can land him in the centre. Being clinical and having shot power is good enough for a striker. and being a good reader can place him as full back. one thing i like about him is that he persevere and never say die. that s inspirational. let s say even though he s not a defender, he will track back and even sprint to attempt a last ditch tackle if the opposing striker is clean on goal. being a goalie in his team is really encouraging as at least you know your defender tried his best to help you.

shawn can play DM and is a better candidate than me. however, i think the best man to be there is still ying lun. we need a tackler there to break down opposition's play. but he may just stay up field and tackle the opposing defenders instead. jk la. everyone wanna score goals but i think i prefer to prevent a goal than to score one. i rather make a goal line clearance than a close range header. that s why i think i m more suitable as defender. the mentality is different.

today at ccab, shawn kept asking zi xiang to stay back and be last man. but then he said 'crazy'. see the difference in mentalities? a striker will always wanna stay upfield as far up as possible to score as many goals as possible. but for me, i rather stay back and be content to do the dirty work and will be very satisfied to be presented a rare chance to pop in a goal or two. think Jamie Carragher... my inspirational leader.