EXHAUSTED

i m typing this with my eyes half opened, as it has always been for the past week. Simply exhausted. Include a burnt out after soccer today.

Shall quickly give a summary of the week.

Mon, erm. what happened?

Tue, oh service learning. Lessons after lessons. Macs breakfast was something new.

Wed, early dismissal. ocip. ran 2.4km. lousy timing.

Thur, wet day. long tiring day. math remedial. touch rugby, plaza sing.

Fri, teachers day, concert, sji, ccab, serene centre.

That s about it. just add the word FATIGUE to every day this week and it completes the equation. Mind saying yes, body saying no, pimples saying hello. My brain says endure, my body dying. Made a final push to end term 3. But disappointingly.

Started the term strongly, completing work, knowing my stuff, finally getting some positive results. But it all died down when the term wore on. Fatigue kicked in.

Having a mixture of feelings now. I m pretty neutral about SA s teachers day. Went to school late and had a bad stomach just as what i told wei li i should have to miss the aces day dance. But it turned out to be fun as what the others said. Concert was quite ok at first but got boring as it dragged on. Passed the gifts to the teachers. I know how happy they are to receive such things. Especially in front of the other teachers. It shows many things.

Went back to SJI. Just met up with the 435 gang, and migrated to CCAB for soccer. A bit of drama unfolded when the ball was pierced by the plant. But overall it went well. I played well. But could have done better. Defended and attacked. One man defence and managed to keep out several comfirmed goal chances, stood my ground and halted Nabhan too many times for his liking. Did some dribbling but lost out in the end. Wasted another glorious chance to score from Christ free kick. Really honoured to play along his side and have him on my team. Such a good player.

Ying lun told me something that made me quite sad. I could really feel my heart sink. But i know it was always a possibility and it didnt matter to me that much. All i can say is that they really made a huge loss. Not that i m saying i m a gem, but i m confident of what i am able to do and make a difference. If the emphasis is on something else, which i believe is equally important, then it comprimises what s truly the objective of it. I have no answer to such rash decisions, in fact i m clueless. But if that is what s wanted, then i accept it. Ultimately, it has been merely a bonus all along and i didnt expect much. This is where my pessimistic thoughts come in handy. They cushioned the impact. The expectations were low. The impact was just as low. I just wish to say good luck. And sorry to those who had high expectations for me. I ve let you down.

On a happier note, Macs at serene centre was pretty fun. It just took away all my negative thoughts and enjoyed myself building bridges and the company of the good ol' buddies. Just wanna thank you guys for bring so much joy and laughter to my life.

And wanna add that the interaction s good. Brought to a new level. I m truly happy. It s pretty clear i guess. I have been picking out what s been dropped. It isnt easy you know! I guess it s never easy for anyone.

Keep going!

Mugging week ahead! Getting into the mood!