emotions

I'm obliged to type something here.

I don't know why, but as of late, I've been sensing lots of 'feelings', not within myself, but within people around me. Be it positive or negative, I have this weird intuition that seems to be telling me to read into things. Or maybe it's just a conjuncture of many happenings.

I've been having a relatively neutral to fairly upbeat mood. Been the ever happy-go-lucky dude. So things have been pretty mundane. I was just doing the routine.

But it seems that some of my friends have not been having a good time. Some dealing with insecurities, parting, perpetual race against time, fatigue and even accidents. There again, there were joys of celebrations, parties, nights out, surprises, and the winning feeling.

Not only friends, the family shows signs of animosity, or probably should be down played appropriately to petty dislike or disagreement, to sense of longing, unspoken disgruntledness, boredom, loneliness, sympathy and 'oppression'.

There are too many things happening at the same time. It's like conducting a wedding and a funeral simultaneously. Sometimes I get confused whether to feel happy or sad as a result of these happenings.

And there are 2 things I really need to get done. It's been quite intriguing but I'm doing it nothing more than to ascertain everything's in order. The other, just to get it off my chest because someone's really really deviating from normal human behaviour, it's beyond insanity.

Come to think of it, I do have a depot of trains carrying thoughts at the moment. Just that I do not own the liberty to publish, nor bandwidth to document everything. However I must mention that I just rewatched Slumdog Millionaire and Up on tv and still find both as fascinating as ever. Both very well produced and scripted. But more importantly, both movies tingle with something humanly called emotions.

Overall, it has been a fascinating past 2 weeks. To cap it off, Liverpool won the league cup and I was literally shouting together with the uncles at the coffeeshop. No orchestra conductor could ever, ever better direct the harmony of voices that come together when the ball crosses the goal line. It's natural. It's a ... GOAL!!!