class

past 2 weeks, or rather weekends have been good. the weekdays were tiring. it s so difficult to be the one organizing everyone when the egoes are so high. everyone s a leader in their own way, that s the reason why they are there. it s tough, but i managed to pull through my term and i think i did reasonably well. it was tiring and stressful at times but that s part and parcel of the 9 months i guess.

last weekend was unexpectedly fun. i expected it to be kinda mundane and considering i just had a long tiring week.. but somehow the company was good. it s really important to have the balance in a group. just like a football team. you must have different types of players to make the team tick. there must be a willing goalkeeper, a hardcore centreback, a destroyer midfielder, a creative attacking spark, a touchline hugging winger, an out and out striker. and of course a captain, a leader to make them work altogether.

back to the topic, the reason why cliques can stay together is because either everyone in the group is goddamn similar, or everyone have totally different personalities. someone has to be the crazy one to suggest ideas, someone has to be there to take the lead and enforce it usually by joining in first, and someone has to be the joker to make retarded but hilarious comments and actions. however, someone has to be the coolheaded one and make sure things go smoothly, steering the group clear of potential danger and take care of them when situations do finally arise.

it s amazing how everything falls into place nicely without the members noticing, until you sit back and analyze why things happen the way it is. and i m glad i m in such a group.

there s another group i have which i know is there, it still exists, just that i ve been neglecting for so long. everyone s really so damn busy, i cant do much now. but i do have plans. everything will be just the way it was.

this weekend, a movie and class gathering. the movie was brilliant, not the inception brilliant, but good enough after resident evil. class gathering, felt bad to arrive so late. missed out on the interaction part. it was not bad actually, the food was about right, attendance was more than expected and the host IS someone i have utmost respect and fondness of. one of the best in his line around, and a very good man. sometimes you wonder, why is he still single??

haha i guess i have a lot to rant today. it s a day of opinion, a day of words (perhaps after a week of words since i had to talk so much, there s this momentum kept going).

next week will be the week of truth. the test. dirty, smelly, uncomfortable, minimal rest, minimal food, stressed out, exhausted, pushed beyond limits, heat rash, mosquitoes, sandflies, scorching heat, freezing storms, interrogation after interrogation ... everything you can think of. all packaged into a nice parcel to be opened by us next week. i will push till my mind blanks out, till my eyes see nothing but pitch black, till my limbs cramp up, my knees scream for mercy. that s the extent i ll go, just to get pass next week, and EARN the bar come january.

falling once was painful enough, i cant afford to fall once more. pray that i do survive to tell you about the experience.

it s all in the mind.





like a fool.