i sound like a retard

i've been kinda carefree and exceptionally easy going for the past 2 weeks. just letting the free spirited side of me overtake my sanity. i've learnt to take it easy, easier than normal. perhaps it's true, the flame is dying. burnout. music's been influential of my mood.

ok cut the crap. i wouldnt be here if i havent had anything to say. yes, i played a match last week, and we lost. there were some issues raised. and it seems to be in the forward direction. even though it relies heavily on me again to make things happen, i'm taking a step back and let others contribute more. haha maybe it's the trend of stepping down to distribute the power and rights to the next generation, and only step in when needed. it's kinda weird, coz everyone's a leader, but a leader in different fields. but it's good everyone knows when to step up when needed.

i just read an interesting post, and it finally fed me with the reason and explanation for the sudden change in behaviour. it might not be sudden, but drastic enough for me to notice. i was thinking of it for a period of time, but i couldnt deduce and conclude i was spot on. i totally understand the feeling, but i can't do anything to help, only to make myself sound stupid and pretend i didnt know.

ok i think that's enough, it's movie time.