i'm pretty drained this week. it's the type of week when you wake up every single day tired all over again. even with an attempted 10 hour sleep, it wasnt enough for compensation.
sometimes i wonder, why are we so hyped up about what others think of you. what would they judge when you do certain things. why should we bother? i have a simple stand on this. just do anything to the best of you ability, do it your way, do it with style or do it with no nonsense. they can think what they want, but i still live my life. there's no point trying to change their minds when they don't see how things are presenting themselves. they have their opinion, so be it. everyone's entitled to one, don't bother.
the other day, we were all called up for a 'feedback' session. when asked for honest feedback, those who complained day in day out just kept their mouths shut. none had the balls to say it. instead, they came up with lame distractors that just caused more story telling and rebuttal. i had no complains, because i know what i am here for. i know life's never fair, some do more, some do less but we get the same rewards. i know we are doing jobs that it is impossible to find willing and capable people to do, but someone has to do the job, for now. it isnt that long, so just grind your teeth and bite your tongue or swallow it if need be, suck it up and just do it.
on a happier note, i had a timely reminder from that feedback session. short term goals. they do wonders. had a great time on thursday, and spent time with family on friday. it is ok to let loose and be a retard once in a while, because sometimes, life's just worth it. however, i think this shouldnt be a norm and regular pastime. we should find alternatives, and perhaps, healthier ones. afterall, someone will always be left out and that's inequity.
hardly a soul out there knows my one and only fear. yet, i almost encountered it that day. however, that same day, i learnt how strong the mind is. it breaks your physical limits. i knew i had to hold out and hell i held on. i did everything i had to do before i know it's safe to let go. call it kiasi or scaredy cat, but it's more of responsibility. when you know you are the pillar, or when you know you have a duty to fulfill, you cant just let go. hahah i guess i'll make a pretty good lingering spirit always having unfulfilled tasks.
watched kungfu panda 2 with mum and sis. it wasnt good in my opinion, but $30 was worth it to exchange for some good laughters from my dear mum. i went for a run the other day and realised my stamina was back to ground zero after just 1 week of no exercise. it's demoralising.
today, i went in the direction of a SOS flare and wasted my whole saturday. sji sports fiesta or carnival wasnt that good. at least for me. lack of playing time, played badly, horrifying mud pitch, untimely downpour, team disqualified and more importantly, the whole day gone. went for a quick lunch at mos and reached home at 5 only to spend almost 2 hours washing my mud filled clothes. 10 minutes on the pitch, 2 hours in the toilet.
ok i shall end here, gotta study and SLEEP. when i can.
sometimes i wonder, why are we so hyped up about what others think of you. what would they judge when you do certain things. why should we bother? i have a simple stand on this. just do anything to the best of you ability, do it your way, do it with style or do it with no nonsense. they can think what they want, but i still live my life. there's no point trying to change their minds when they don't see how things are presenting themselves. they have their opinion, so be it. everyone's entitled to one, don't bother.
the other day, we were all called up for a 'feedback' session. when asked for honest feedback, those who complained day in day out just kept their mouths shut. none had the balls to say it. instead, they came up with lame distractors that just caused more story telling and rebuttal. i had no complains, because i know what i am here for. i know life's never fair, some do more, some do less but we get the same rewards. i know we are doing jobs that it is impossible to find willing and capable people to do, but someone has to do the job, for now. it isnt that long, so just grind your teeth and bite your tongue or swallow it if need be, suck it up and just do it.
on a happier note, i had a timely reminder from that feedback session. short term goals. they do wonders. had a great time on thursday, and spent time with family on friday. it is ok to let loose and be a retard once in a while, because sometimes, life's just worth it. however, i think this shouldnt be a norm and regular pastime. we should find alternatives, and perhaps, healthier ones. afterall, someone will always be left out and that's inequity.
hardly a soul out there knows my one and only fear. yet, i almost encountered it that day. however, that same day, i learnt how strong the mind is. it breaks your physical limits. i knew i had to hold out and hell i held on. i did everything i had to do before i know it's safe to let go. call it kiasi or scaredy cat, but it's more of responsibility. when you know you are the pillar, or when you know you have a duty to fulfill, you cant just let go. hahah i guess i'll make a pretty good lingering spirit always having unfulfilled tasks.
watched kungfu panda 2 with mum and sis. it wasnt good in my opinion, but $30 was worth it to exchange for some good laughters from my dear mum. i went for a run the other day and realised my stamina was back to ground zero after just 1 week of no exercise. it's demoralising.
today, i went in the direction of a SOS flare and wasted my whole saturday. sji sports fiesta or carnival wasnt that good. at least for me. lack of playing time, played badly, horrifying mud pitch, untimely downpour, team disqualified and more importantly, the whole day gone. went for a quick lunch at mos and reached home at 5 only to spend almost 2 hours washing my mud filled clothes. 10 minutes on the pitch, 2 hours in the toilet.
ok i shall end here, gotta study and SLEEP. when i can.
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