Wisdom

One is like an overflowing cup - full of opinions and
expectations.
To be wise, one must empty the cup.

ZERO DAYS

ZERO DAYS

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muahahaha. don't we just love zero days?


finally. ok maybe not, there s still 10 days to go.

but today, (minus the papers) was good. just felt fantabulous. 2012 was BOOMZ. maybe because i was drowning in the sea of papers for the past weeks and i just realised that drowning in sea water or even lava is much more interesting. drama and action, lacking from the mundane exams. haha. maybe there ll be drama come the results day. i can make a movie 2010. everyone will fall into a gigantic crack that cuts right through the hall. ok maybe shallnt be that evil, just the result slips burning in the magma. there will be WORLD PEACE.

hmm i m sounding a bit crazy.

but honestly, after watching the movie, it really got me thinking, what if i were in that position? having to run like mad, drive the car across fault lines and falling buildings, flying a plane through thick ash on low fuel? ah forget it, i ll just save the trouble and bungee jump into the volcano.

spot the underlying issue. everything s gonna be destroyed. and what are we doing now? or rather what are we NOT doing now? what s the opportunity cost of doing all the lame things we are doing now?


Moral of the Story: Do the necessary now. Die with no regrets.





Just the time for a toast, some enjoyment and a smiley, hearty laugh.

Auditions

9 DAYS.






always begin with the end in mind so...

33 DAYS to freedom!





had the auditions, didnt go well. should have gone with unwell.

come what may.





press on 1 more week!

MAYDAY

my 200th post.
rafa's 200th match.
you'll never walk alone. we can do it Reds!



ETA: 16 DAYS




enemy detected.

profile:
orthomyxovirus
single stranded RNA genome
haemagglutinin-neuraminidase spike camouflage




mayday. mayday. i'm going down.

again.

Farewell Assembly

i guess i ll blog.

but i forgot what to blog about.

23 DAYS.




ok. Thursday.

i went to school for farewell assembly. we watched the graduation videos, clapped for prize winners and had a final chapel and civics. then there was reception at the hall, for photos and snacks. oh and i finally settled the Grad Nite thing. thankful that the class was cooperative and i had a smooth job. Grizzly didnt do his job though, his (ape) godson deputised. wait, he s a bear now. anyway, Gab s holding to the tics and vouchers, (this is to remind myself i didnt lose it).

and after becoming $1120 poorer, we went for the supposed last class outing to Sentosa. it was ok as far as i know. had picnic which was shocking, because they wiped out everything after i went for a training session with the bag of ice. if only the ferocious appetite was brought to the bbq sessions previously. yep so i only had time for some beach soccer against s20 which posed some sort of challenge. not the people, the sand. haha. nah kidding, they were not bad, but i missed their 'secret weapon' eh.

and i rushed home to get ready for cousin's wedding, quite reluctantly. the ship was sailing to Europe and i had to alight at Africa. dang. Intercontinental Hotel, solemnization followed by dinner. the only highlight was that i got to play around with his pro Canon "tim's type of" camera, and went around snapping like crazy. the lens wasnt that great but i like the shutter speed. just shoot and run.

oh and the food wasnt that great either. yup and that was it. Thursday ended.

glad that the class had fun, despite the incident i heard.


and it s back to mugging. these 3 weeks gonna be tough. mentally and emotionally.
keep going guys!






the race is never over until you cross the finishing line.

30 days

30 DAYS

but, think positively, it s

44 DAYS

to FREEDOM

54 DAYS

to COMPLETE FREEDOM


gotta take into account the ''crunching'' of bio mcqs.





haha ok this has nothing to do with our numbered days. 500 Days of Summer. it was free. (that s the main thing). but good too. hmm i watched another film without action, guns, punching or mystery. evolution s happening. wait, an individual can't evolve, population is the smallest unit for evolution. so i guess, it s mutation. hahaha. ok, it s always a good week when there s something to look forward to. glad Granny s recovering well. hope my trilingual time in Dec will be in time to put more one-toothed smiles on her face. not just during mahjong sessions.







for you i bleed myself dry.

37 days.

i m here to scare myself.

37 DAYS.

every second is ticking by.




nevertheless, tim suggested a class outing after farewell assembly. it s kinda fitting right.

couldnt sleep yesterday. was thinking about the long journey we had. how everything started. how the ''Welfare Department'' was set up. my job scope was to be the fella to carry the stuff while hui hui shopped for birthday presents, as what Ms Ye said. but ironically i managed to fulfil that duty only once.

i just couldnt bear to see a fragmented class especially when it s my job to prevent that from happening. but sometimes, things are beyond control.

there were several significant events.

the FIRST outing, was a movie, haha i cant even remember the title, 10 000 BC? it was at cathay, some ponned. then fish and co., it was nice.

there was also the PICNIC at Chomp Chomp. we went after helping as a class for the SC campaigns for the 3 hopefuls. that one was really a success. everyone enjoyed it.

only 2 of the 3 made it to the commendation. and that marked some real activity. celebrated July birthday at Kopitiam! and went for pool at paradiz.

ah, the Rugby Finals. that one was one of the best too. i think it was before July. the dare thingy on video at PS LJ and Raffles BK. hahaha we had our own scrum!

and there were still some here and there after that, but i cant really remember. hmm and i think the last for the year was the class chalet and BBQ. really wanna relive that period man.

there were failures though. sports day 08 was a screamer, but everyone dispersed after that due to poor discipline by me, ok wait, it s us. count in yong pin. but there were mini outings separately that i think helped with some bonding too. but the ultimate failure was still the class OCIP to Cambodia. "IT NEVER TOOK OFF." spent a lot of time on it but sadly, couldnt realize it, it would have been BOOMZ man. and there was suppose to be a countdown for 2009, but everyone Must Study Already (MSA).

ya, and so there were hardly any this year. maybe the only significant thing was the class BBQ at Woei Xin's mansion.

hui hui just sent a message regarding birthday celeb for september and october. she s just brilliant at birthdays. she s behind almost all the celebs for each month. full of initiative and simply a wonderful fellow welfare rep. if not for her sense of urgency, we probably couldnt get the Teacher s Day prezzies on time. yea, and that was the only time i got to do my ''carrying stuff duties'', roaming up and down Suntec and Marina. but it was fun shopping.

Somehow chasing and collecting the deposit for Grad Nite is a plot for the last act. Hope we end off well on 7th Dec.

but, before that, 15th Oct, we end at 9am, so..

mug??


now.

SICK

It s back to normal time table, with the special one coming up.

We got back some papers, chem was disastrous. Not that i didnt see it coming, but i thought i could at least scrape an S or something. Have to really practise more chem man. I m happy with Math, if not for all the careless mistakes, could have gotten somewhere closer to C or B. The crazy Stats holidays paid off. but the old man aint satisfied. GP is just a big sigh. I m stunned the pathetic essay got me 27, i thought the compre should be the one helping me instead, but apparently i misunderstood practically the entire passage 2. oh well, Gp is like the stock market.
Bio, hope to secure the few marks to jump.

And so, the week was horribly unproductive.

TUESDAY

had doctor s appointment and aunt gave a treat yet again. I lost the pictures though, cut and pasted somewhere but they vanished. Anyway, it was some seafood restaurant at Shaw Lido area, the office building. Great service and the best beef i tasted so far in my short life. It REALLY melted in my mouth. The testure was just right, the juice came oozing out, perfecto. The abalone was just as good, but maybe because i hardly see the brown thing on the dinner table often, and that upped the value. LDMU eh. Sharks fin, it s just some tastless cartilage but it costs a bomb, maybe a rocket. The taste came from solely the soup!

Ok, i m talking like some professional critic or maybe just some irritating rich kid. But nope, i m neither a critic nor a rich kid, just some lucky bloke who s always riding on other's fortunes. and i sent probably a record 100 messages in that one day. That hasnt happened for quite some time.

WEDNESDAY

Ha, the gp lecture. I was bushed. and that day kicked start some serious AB = AO + OB.

THURSDAY

Watched The Final Destination in 3D. The specs was agonizingly redundant. The supposed 3D effect made the movie look like a cartoon. Everything seemed so fake. Plus the HD, and the zooming effects blah blah. Everyone who died look like dolls being mutilated. The way they get crushed is hilarious, not at all scary or gory. Seemed like i watched another comedy.

FRIDAY

Lol. it was November Freedom day. xuan yi came up with it. Every time a group comes up with a name, it might sound really horrible or funny, but as time passes by, everyone gets used to it. Just like Slayers, it seemed like a joke at first, but after printing on out jerseys, we become like ... Gunners. ok maybe not. Anyway it s just another amateur group of lame teenagers coming together to do something healthy, we can call anything we like.

So, i m just part of a plan to audition to play for grad night. There s another band that s way better in terms of technical skills and experience. But they play songs that might not appeal to the majority, too hardcore. In my opinioin, they are really really really good, the rhythmic and lead have been playing together since sec 2, while me and guan just started with zero musical background, perhaps just some chemistry to get us going and try to beat them to the spot.

Oh and i had Espresso Frappucino FINALLY in more than a year! so it was a pretty good day.

Then the ugly truth surfaced, i was falling SICK. Some kind soul shared the love and passed the bug. And i had to sleep the weekend away. Rest which equates to doing zero work and watch 20 cars go round and round the circuit for 2 hours. Ok it wasnt that bad, it was quite exciting in fact. Very unpredictable, felt sorry for Rosberg.

So. i ll be missing tomorrow, with a valid excuse mind ya!



Being sick really sucks.

Post prelims

POST PRELIMS.

seems like prelims aint good.

anyway it s a short break from mugging. went to watch The Ugly Truth after bio with almost half the class. it was hilarious but kinda expected. and i continued watching dvd movies at home over the weekend, since tv had hardly anything good to offer. Ratatouile, Stardust, Van Helsing. Movies are the greatest inventions after light bulbs, air con and soccer.

oh youtube too. was watching 400m, 800m, and 5000m races. inspired to put on those spikes again. will run if the weather permits. the knee s feeling abit better after all the mugging.

went to xp s house on fri to jam. it wasnt productive yet again. just 5 songs? everyone making their individual noises. SIGH.

life s really boring now, wait, there s no life at all. shall do some work later. keep going peeps!

september hols

I m here to exclaim Stats Sucks!!!


SATURDAY

cycled over mountains and swam across seas.

MONDAY

it was as if exam s over. bruised shin, scraped knees, aching legs and a sore back. but it was all worth it! cage was good, anything s good other than mugging. about half of them are soccer boys, so it was somewhat upping the challenge. lunch with 435 + chris or can say slayers + tongs at ps after that.

and i went to chop off tresses which i amazingly managed to survive with it since june? lol. saved almost 4 months of hair money. and i m gonna save another 4 months probably. the lady just want her customers to look like army boys, great. and she still asked me to fill up a feedback form. oh well, it was 10 bucks that should have been spent nong nong ago and many many times in those 4 months.


the other days were spent staring at STATS. that s life man.







it's really hard in your absence.

PRELIMS PART 1

Hmm.. the feeling during this period s kinda nice actually. Exam period s good because we get to go home early to mug and mug and mug and mug and mug... which is a positive externality. there s this sense of achievement when i manage to cover the topics, or when i manage to get the answers for maths. i m glad that i finally fully understand repiration, neurones and photosynthesis. it has been bugging me for sometime. never found the time to sit down, read and summarise the 3 topics. and progressing in vectors!

Prelims so far aint good. Subtracting large amounts of marks sucks, when i cant finish or simply cant do. but it s a good gauge, i still have a lot more work to do, i need more practice. i still have statistics to conquer!!! and i never bothered to memorise inorganic chem. and peh will be sad i ve neglected econs this time round. looks like i wont be able to hit the ambitious 70 rank points kevin ho set for me. that s just all Cs. and i wont even be able to hit 60, that s all Ds. the only realistic target now is 50. which i havent gotten in my entire 2 years, how sad can that be??

as we go higher, really we start accepting failure and mistakes as part of our lives. IT S JUST 70 MARKS to get an A! 60 to a B! and when 50 plus sounds disgusting for the past 17 years, it s now acceptable! yet so difficult to obtain.


anyways, 'CIP' today was kinda fun. have to admit i was sort of mesmerized by a girl. sorted out books at Stamford Primary and did some tuition for the kids. Grace Shen Jing Wen made me a hell lot younger. lol. when we are all talking about the boring stuff day in day out, just talking to a primary school girl (talkative yet a good listener) was really a breath of fresh air. the air was pure, no pollutants, yet some sense of maturity present. it s amazing how these primary 4 kids managed to get me thinking of something more 'human-ly'. a scratch card, a hidden pack of Hichew in the pencil box and the slow, concise and large handwriting. it s like WOW. and the best thing, they listen. no arguments, no aggression, just plain kids with bouts of energy, never afraid to express themselves.

WE, on the other hand, are overworked retards, brain drained, possessing fatigued bodies and a corrupted mind.



When i was mugging for the past few days, i just kept thinking of those times. Got into PES B, gonna receive combat pay! And i thought about NCC. FALL IN! YANG TINGGI KENAN ...! PURPLE LIGHT!! those days were great. And sec 4 mugging with Ming, Ying, Shawn and especially Reuben was productive. Now it s Gab, Pin, Lois, Gay, Pam or just alone. MUGGING the LONER SPORT. SOCCER!! match after match. cant wait for MONDAY! QUEENSWAY! the hours we spent just walking up and down the hexical building, throw in IKEA to complete the package. and JAMMING cant break thru with guan and gang. lol must go jam soon. oh and TRACK, i miss pushing like a madman running amok an 800m race. 2 rounds are fantabulous, especially 2 at Bukit Gombak Stadium. Trainings! i had so much discipline to train hard, now i cant even run. spoilt knee. i ll swim tml!

And every single precious moment. I miss the people, person, and everything that was simply magical.


but like what my P5 teacher said,"Work and play makes Daryl a happy boy." hahaha.
that's ORA et LABORA.

Mixed

To bring joy to others is a joy to oneself. Night at ION was great. Met PM Lee there as well. Even ministers go shopping with his bodyguards.

Didnt mug, went for a dip. Now i m tired.

And PES B! can i?







Never be afraid to make mistakes, because that's all we do.

really.

reflect

Each time you feel angry, just think of the one more day removed from your life.
Each time you feel sad, just think of the happy time that you missed out.
Each time you feel tired, just think of those who are exhausted.
Each time you feel grumpy, think of those on the receiving end.

Each time you feel lonely, reflect.




Think not of what you don't have, but be glad of what you have.

LAISSEZ-FAIRE

I was looking in the archives. August 2007. I was in No.1 and still marching up and down, playing a fool with Ming. August 2008. I was in studs kicking ball, playing the last match in 1 year. August 2009. Scaring the poop out of myself with the amount of neurons, NADPH, antigens needed to be stuffed in my brain, tearing my hair off over math problems (understanding X BAR), trying to remember if methylbenzene is friends with how many weird compounds, wondering is carboxylic acid’s marriage more stable than acid chloride’s, figuring out how on Earth I am going to link an egg to tariffs and GDP and finally how to blast away the reader of my essay with bombastic words.

Mr Ang told me not to fry my brain because of A levels. Haha I doubt that will happen. It aint exothermic enough, probably not spontaneous? The journey home was interesting. It got me stoning. Well, I stone all the time anyway. But it was refreshing, it’s true, I’ll never be able to experience firsthand, but I treat it as a blessing. I’ve never been someone with opinion. People force opinions out. Equilibrium. Leave trouble alone, trouble leaves you alone. Though GP’s a great tool to stimulate critical thinking, I just don’t understand why must we keep arguing and arguing. The whole essay is about Argument then Counter Argument and a rebuttal. There’s so much aggression involved. Just fighting to put what you think across, what if I don’t have an opinion? There’s good, there’s bad, I don’t want to decide, I don’t want to fight. Perhaps that’s the reason why I’m always on the losing side.

My dad says, whatever you blog can be used against you when your employer sees this. Honestly speaking, so be it. This is the real me, not someone who wears a mask every day, or being a hypocrite like practically everyone out there (this is kinda harsh). If my dear employer likes me kind of employee, bingo! If you are looking for someone who hides his real character and personality, being ever unpredictable and complex, then don’t bother looking at blogs, because you can find nothing real.

Politics just ain’t my cup of tea or milo, I’m learning it because I have to.







LAISSEZ-FAIRE

i m y

i m in sane status, you oblivious, unaware.

There's always a reason to smile

It was a happy day.

Because:

Liverpool's in town. (but i wont have the chance to get out and see them. that means the TV's mine on Sunday 7pm.)

I had Swedish Meatballs for dinner at IKEA.

I drove the car. (more specifically turned the wheel and changed the gear)

I smiled to myself for apparenly no reason.










Perhaps,
there's always a reason to smile.

Fatigue

so we fear solitude and loneliness.

so i'm self-centred since i m updating this space.


drained. the lethargy is taking over. when all the entertainment is taken away, the only route of escapism s lost. yet i cant think of nothing. the mind never shuts down, even when it should. maybe that s why i m drained.

island creamery was great. the run there was better.









Fashionably sensitive but too cool to care.

BT2

I m always tempted to blame, to feel disgusted with myself. The results are horrible looking figures.

People are all filled with greed. Having something is never enough, it must be something better, something more appealing to the eyes. The objective of the assessment was just to seek improvement and if surprises arise, it s a bonus. But it s easier said than done. It s more demoralizing than boosting, who likes to fail? Sometimes after working, you realised the returns aren’t justified, but all you can do is shut up, listen to others discuss how bad you are and feel totally crappy. What help are others rendering when they ignore or simply fail to realise the importance of getting the morale up again, the confidence booster, the belief in the potential that s evident in the long journey we’ve come thus far? Why dun they recognise the fact that people hate to fail, and trust them to get back on track by themselves? Why must they constantly target certain people, when in fact these people just need sometime on their own? Why must they always THREATEN and scare us with numbers and parents. AND why are parents so intimidating??!!

Lecture time is just to fill up the notes that are punctuated with blanks. What s the point? Just to keep us awake? People still sleep anyway. We waste hours filling up blanks when it can be used more productively. Honestly, i learn so much more academic stuff from youtube than trying to fill up blanks, copying chunks of information labelled as bonus points when they could all have been included in the notes in the first place. Many concepts need time to understand, and that is done by staring at proper notes.

Why dun they understand that productivity is dwindled as the day drags on? Having tons of lessons from 7.45am to 6.30pm just aint gonna help. 3 hour lectures are practically useless. At least 3 hour naps refreshes the mind. Feedback? Sure.

2 DAY WORK WEEK, i like that idea.


At the end of the day, we still have to accept it. JUST HEAVE A HUMONGOUS SIGH and move on.

But i m glad and blessed with wonderful people around me. Be it friends, be it teachers. Ms Yeo is ever supportive and encouraging, still believing in us when the results are atrocious, giving us the regular 'jia you' s through emails and even a custom made notebook. Mr Tan is the best math teacher and math friend ever, always fully booked for consultations and patient with us regardless of anything. Mr Peh brightens up the day with his lameness and sacarsm, and his explanations are always top drawer stuff. Friends just make the torture less significant.

OLD PALS reuben and ming s birthday recently, 6 years now, 60 more years to come. Just the right time to catch up when i missed the bbq and soccer sessions locked up mugging. The simple stuff like playing cards, teasing, cracking lamer and lamer jokes, and LAN really keeps life meaningful. Left 4 Dead! Without these people, there really isn’t much motivation to move on.

Haha i sound kinda suicidal eh. There IS still many things to accomplish and do and to simply enjoy life. So many more wonderful non-academic stuff to look forward to. There is also one important task that i ll regret if i m unable to complete this year. And that s driving me on.


Courage is being afraid, but going on anyhow. And that s what i have to do.










Enjoy when you can,
Endure when you must.

BT2

Ok, Beeties too.

havent been what i hoped to be. but i dun expect much, i m not overly ambitious to jump the gun and get As now, i just want an improvement. at least see 50 percents once again. it has been quite some time. after spending the bulk of term 2 running and sleeping, i was left chasing after the train.

honestly, even if i fail to make the mark. i m still proud of myself for scaling the mountain without anyone s help.

was studying ioinic equilibrium and i realised it s still blank! and feel bad that i was carried away doing math and left very little time for bio. everything was last minute for bio and i didnt cover a number of topics, forgot everything about genetics and eukaryotic genome. gotta confess though i rediscovered the fun in solving math problems. sadly didnt have fun doing paper 1.

oh well, the objective of beeties too: not be labelled as AT RISK student and try to see >50 all over again. who cares what others think, i just have to believe that i m not dumb. thanks Leroy!








live without regrets.

Two Boys Are Crying

Two Boys Are Crying

Across the world
Two boys are crying,
Both wanting more
And tired of trying.

The first boy wants a mountain bike
And blames his mum for being mean;
Had enough of the daily hike,
He's desperate to be part of the scene.
All day long
The wanting burns strong.
All the night
The wanting burns bright.
So little to ask,
Bikes are everywhere;
Oh, why is life so unfair?

The second boy wants something to eat
But he is too weak to place the blame,
His mother weeps, helpless, dead-beat,
While his father hangs his head in shame.
All day long
The hunger burns strong.
All the night
The hunger burns bright.
So little to ask,
Food is everywhere;
Oh, why is life so unfair?

Across the world
Two boys are crying,
One's full of life,
The other dying.

-Ray Mather

Regretting the absence.