Mixed Feelings

I'm so proud of myself when i look at the state of my room now. 3 fat files with dividers, another 3 smaller files due to the teachers' requirements. And i got lists of topics for every subject, which will soon turn into formula lists. Sorted out everything till 3 am plus. But still managed to roll out of bed to do some work in school at 7.

I figured out i should complete all my homework first instead of mugging wholesale now.



>>>Dun get it wrong, this i not an advertisement for Nike.

Basically spent the morning doing GP at level 3 toilet block. It s one of the most conducive places to study, one of my favs. The toilet s there, water cooler, and natural air con. And there s occasional piano music coming from the 'starbuck like cafe'. Apart from some stares from cleaners and some people having lessons going to the toilet, and a Timothy walking past without saying hi, it was a peaceful morning. Benches are good because you can lie down and take a power nap or do some sit ups to chase away a stomachache. Supposed to run, but the heavens opened.

Overall it was a day of mixed feelings. Timo messaged me that we got through to the next round of FPSP, top 5 in Singapore. That means we are going to Australia! The paper says 17 October is the competition date, and that will clash with PW sessions and Chinese intensive lessons.



>>> I found this in my phone.

Honestly i'm shocked that we got through. I guess credit has to go to Wei Li, for his step 6. My only contribution was the drawings for that step which was quite rushed but at least i practised for it ok. Just awaiting the evaluation done by the judges.

I know what it meant, but do you really want me to say it? I can, if you want. I was thinking of the sentence the whole day and it sure wiped out a number of brain cells looking out for hidden meanings, just like an extended GP comprehension. In the end i think i got it, but it s difficult to response. It's understood.

I guess the next time i mug, i should really bring my charger along. Battery almost went flat in a few hours. With the songs playing, the only button i pressed was the one with the vertical equal sign. Never the one with the square.

Quote of the day

"Priority. 4 weeks. Gimme that."

Thinking never halts. Stress accompanies it. Solution= sleep.

September Holidays

I m distracted.

I wonder if songs are keeping me focussed or making me drift. Maybe i think too much. Should just forget about everything and concentrate on the content in the book. But these songs just keep playing in my head especially certain parts:

Blind- Lifehouse
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But i couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That i loved you more that you'll ever know

Like A Knife - Secondhand Serenade
Stay with me
Or watch me bleed
I need you just to breathe

What About Now - Chris Daughtry
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that i was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late.
What about now?

Now that we're here
Now that we've come this far
Just hold on
There is nothing to fear
For i am right beside you
For all my life
I am yours


Sing to the tune!

The weather is really screwed. Raining non-stop in September? That s depriving me of my long runs. And making me freeze in the early morning. But strangely, i feel warm just being reminded of that frag... smell.

Lessons yesterday, barely survived through. PWed till late at Macs. Finished my dinner at home at 1am. PERSONAL BEST. Snoozed and had a hard time getting out of bed for econs. Took train instead to paya lebar coz i know i ll definitely be late if i took 8. And cabbed to sch from there. It was sheer enlightenment when i flagged down a Merc cab and a smiling journey because the cabbie was so friendly and injected bursts of genuine laughter. He introduced a new short cut route to me from paya lebar to school that made me seem like total noob in the area. Haha but it was a pleasant journey and i didnt feel a pinch at all spending 7 dollars with this fella. In the end i managed to reach the classroom in time for lesson.

Quote of these 2 days:

'I'm afraid of falling into a deep dungeon when i'm on the other end of
your mesmerizing gaze.'

I'm just testing out how small these fonts can go.
But i realise it's not that minute afterall.
Smile. :D

Tag replies

Haha, ok here comes the routine tag replies to my loyal fans.

HUI HUI - er, ok makes sense too since i see you peeps about half a day every weekday. I should stare at the ball for the other half of the day. yea, i m definitely sleeping more now, really need it.

YING - haha yea, sorta miss the olumpigs now. and i remember our pact that was suppose to be fulfilled last year. i dun mind pushing to 4 years time! thanks for concern, feeling never better now. there are other things for me to ponder about.

CASSIE - wont die la. no one i know who sat for a piano exam failed. dun worry you wont be the first even if it s 9/11 or 11/9 or 1/19, just keep practising!

LOIS - yea, you said reduced. it still cant be solved. whoa, if some PAP member sees this, you d better hide in Potong Pasir forever! haha. better stop bridging for the time being. it s too hazardous.

JOLENA - ... ... that rhymes too.

JING YAN - Welcome to my fan club!

SAM - if i reply to your tag, and you reply to this tag, by the end of the year, we ll still be talking about my sweat.

JEREMY- me dun get what you talking. CJ s good, SA s too.

Bored

I m bored.

There s really nothing to do at home. It s either the computer, the tv, or the radio for entertainment. Nothing to do online, nothing to watch on tv, same old songs to listen on the radio or the amplifier.

At least i m starting on some work. (Emphasizing 'some')

Haha, and i did something stupid. Maybe it was inevitable but it was clumsy of me considering the fact that i m usually cautious. Nevermind that, it s the truth anyway.

Oh how trapped i am at home that i ran out of things to blog about. Soccer? Liverpool playing Aston Villa in a few minutes, hope i ll be able to catch it on livefooty.

There s this thing buzzing around me the whole day, is it an insect or just imaginary, or am i going bonkers? Hmm no, I m just making it sound stupid i m not gonna chase after some small insect everywhere. Yep, that s it. :D

EXHAUSTED

i m typing this with my eyes half opened, as it has always been for the past week. Simply exhausted. Include a burnt out after soccer today.

Shall quickly give a summary of the week.

Mon, erm. what happened?

Tue, oh service learning. Lessons after lessons. Macs breakfast was something new.

Wed, early dismissal. ocip. ran 2.4km. lousy timing.

Thur, wet day. long tiring day. math remedial. touch rugby, plaza sing.

Fri, teachers day, concert, sji, ccab, serene centre.

That s about it. just add the word FATIGUE to every day this week and it completes the equation. Mind saying yes, body saying no, pimples saying hello. My brain says endure, my body dying. Made a final push to end term 3. But disappointingly.

Started the term strongly, completing work, knowing my stuff, finally getting some positive results. But it all died down when the term wore on. Fatigue kicked in.

Having a mixture of feelings now. I m pretty neutral about SA s teachers day. Went to school late and had a bad stomach just as what i told wei li i should have to miss the aces day dance. But it turned out to be fun as what the others said. Concert was quite ok at first but got boring as it dragged on. Passed the gifts to the teachers. I know how happy they are to receive such things. Especially in front of the other teachers. It shows many things.

Went back to SJI. Just met up with the 435 gang, and migrated to CCAB for soccer. A bit of drama unfolded when the ball was pierced by the plant. But overall it went well. I played well. But could have done better. Defended and attacked. One man defence and managed to keep out several comfirmed goal chances, stood my ground and halted Nabhan too many times for his liking. Did some dribbling but lost out in the end. Wasted another glorious chance to score from Christ free kick. Really honoured to play along his side and have him on my team. Such a good player.

Ying lun told me something that made me quite sad. I could really feel my heart sink. But i know it was always a possibility and it didnt matter to me that much. All i can say is that they really made a huge loss. Not that i m saying i m a gem, but i m confident of what i am able to do and make a difference. If the emphasis is on something else, which i believe is equally important, then it comprimises what s truly the objective of it. I have no answer to such rash decisions, in fact i m clueless. But if that is what s wanted, then i accept it. Ultimately, it has been merely a bonus all along and i didnt expect much. This is where my pessimistic thoughts come in handy. They cushioned the impact. The expectations were low. The impact was just as low. I just wish to say good luck. And sorry to those who had high expectations for me. I ve let you down.

On a happier note, Macs at serene centre was pretty fun. It just took away all my negative thoughts and enjoyed myself building bridges and the company of the good ol' buddies. Just wanna thank you guys for bring so much joy and laughter to my life.

And wanna add that the interaction s good. Brought to a new level. I m truly happy. It s pretty clear i guess. I have been picking out what s been dropped. It isnt easy you know! I guess it s never easy for anyone.

Keep going!

Mugging week ahead! Getting into the mood!

Tag replies

Tag replies:

TIM- my life revolves around a ball, what else can you expect? OCIP is progressing silently, let s be encouraged by that. you are doing great, thanks for all the overtime work. remember 11 september. and remember to rest, dun die!

JOLENA - so? so? that means i m too HAWT!

YING - MUG MUG MUG!

LOIS - MUG MUG MUG! the only acceptable bridge is bridging lectures.

SHAWN - good but beatable.

CASSIE - buy more! then we can have more 12.34 countdowns!

SAM - you should be honoured! heh.

Heavy

Photo vomitting time, i just realised i still have some pics from the soccer match 2 weeks ago in my phone.






I think i ll get a Predator.

Last Sat, went to Suntec City coz mum wanted to catch the French Spiderman scaling the building. So i actually stood there for more than an hour watching the joker climb up tile after tile. The video i took was so boring that i think you ll fall asleep before he even reach the 2nd storey.

The emcee of the event was trying his best to entertain the crowd with his constant rumbling about the kids on the stage pulling his belt, taking off his pants blah blah blah. But at least it he did his job to entertain the crowd. The initial winner of the lucky draw was dumb enough to disappear from the venue and he lost the car. Some other woman won it after a redraw. Went for dinner at Ichiban, enjoying the laser works and songs at the same time while eating. Just feels so good to be in touch with the world once again.

Sunday, mug day.

Monday, Monday blues.

Tuesday, Chinese test. For the first time i got a 72 and hit the top. Miracles do happen. I thought i ll just fill up all the slots for the bottom for every subject. I should have remained as a mugger at CJ, answering every question the teacher ask, doing all tutorials, sitting up STRAIGHT and listening attentively and do notes during lectures. Being branded as a nerd isnt that bad afterall. Coming to SA broke my momentum. SIGH.

GP MSA in the afternoon. ok this time i ll just fail. Summary was bad, AQ was worse. Did some work at Tau Huey's after that.

Wednesday, service learning preparation. The class ( cassie, jocelyn, jing yan, jolena) did the booklet. Felt quite bad not doing anything apart for some pathetic cutting. But i realised i couldnt do much coz i wasnt there for the part 1 session when most of the class went. I could only comment on the performance by the kiddos which i witnessed. Anyways, enjoyed every moment at Tau Huey's after that with timo, cassie and lois. Even though it was mostly criticising and making a joke out of the optical illusion pyjamas.

Thursday, GP debate. Screwed up pretty badly. I wasnt prepared. Cooked up several last minute points and obviously there was no flow. I think i ll have to redo another presentation. PE was tag rugby. Quite fun, but i still find it kinda retarded. Had self training after school at first with Gabs, just ran 6 rounds starting from lane 1 to 6. Kept a constant pace for Gabs. Had some soccer with Shawn and Benjamin. Wasted a glorious chance with a header. Brilliant cross from Ben but i let him down when the ball came into contact with the wrong part of my head. Wasted.

Ying Lun came and had track self training together with Xiao Ping. 300m sprints in 55 sec. Pretty fun in fact. Rain came and had to stop, so did stationary exercises instead.

Friday, PE, Ho didnt come. Had basketball. Sorry to the girls who had to bring home some of my precious sweat. Did quite a lot of running so inevitably will sweat. Sprinted after that.

Chem SPA was ok. Vomitted almost everything from the notes.
Econs was draggy. Just glad that i had food. Honey waffle and cookies. heh.
Math remedial was average. But revision for MD and MI was really important.

Today, met up with Ying Lun at Tau Huey's for some mugging in the morning. It wasnt very good but cleared some doubts and had immediate answers to questions, so it was quite effective in a way. Macs for lunch (bad for health and wallet) then went to school for the National Song Writing Competition. Quite a waste time. The turnup rate was quite pathetic too. Yep and the SCGS girl is the only one who deserves to win.




>>> The event ended off with a cannot-be-anymore-cornier-and-disgusting bye bye song. To think it s a national schools event and with the Lee composer brothers present.

Ying Lun s quote of the day: "My class is like global warming, the problem cannot be solved."

Continued with some mugging at Tau Huey's before going to Broadway for dinner and some Olumpigs treat. Another long trip home got me thinking. I'm thinking.

Currently, i m feeling sore. Inside out. Everything s so heavy. I literally cant breathe. My mind is filled with one thought for the whole day. I think i fell. Real hard.

Mind in a whirl, heart in a stir.

Make it obvious or keep it as oblivious?

They rhyme... just like with my life.

Ups and Downs

Yesterday was a day that ended on a high for me. Track and SC vs Teachers, full pitch match. Started as CB, cleared my lines, did my passing well - long and short, throw ins, made some runs and even attacked. Neutralised the teachers pretty well. At least speed was of some use for the match. Ended the match as a CM, did plenty of running up and down up and down up and down. CM is fun, but tiring. Loved to alternate between attack and defence. Launched several counters, had wing play, pulled the strings, box offence, clearance header. In short, it was one of the better performances ever. Made no mistakes. heh.

But my studs are gonna spoil soon. i think it might be the last time i wear this pair of boots. Coz the next time i play would most likely be after promos, that is after 7 weeks. By then i know i ll be so happy then i ll go buy another pair. This is called 'giving in to temptation and a moment of HIGHness'.

Anyway, i m happy with my performance yesterday, even though i know others who didnt enjoy it not to mention the word happy.

Today, school was pretty slack. Fridays are the best day of the week. Assembly, math, PE, break, bio, break, pw, chem. Compared to MONDAYS. argg. But it just feels empty and weird today. Probably due to the absentees. or maybe i m just tired. Softball, average. The only highlight was when i caught Fly Ball which i didnt realise till seconds the next batter changed. Nah still cant bat for nuts. And we gonna have interclass.. s17 s good.

Math remedial was pretty productive, actually sat and did work with all the noises and distractions. The breeze was good. Loved it totally. Felt in comfort but empty.

ok i m tired. time to sleep. nitez.

Moments

Ying Lun is right, damn the Olympics. I just wasted my whole day watching sport after sport, havent even started doing any work. SIGH.

Ok i m gonna get the Secondhand Serenade album, the songs are good, hope it doesnt cost a bomb.

Got this stinging backache since the start of the week and it got worse after the match. It could have been the collision with Brandon or Ruddy for the header. Now my hamstring and groin aches as well, didnt stretch and warm up but still played for 90 minutes. Hope it recovers by Thursday, match against the teachers! Really gotta win this if not i will never get into the mood to study for promos. Thought hard about the match yesterday.

Arg and my wisdom tooth is irritating. Guess i m getting wiser by the day as it pushes out more. Consult me for problems! I ll give you a wise answer.

Missing those moments, can't wait for more...

Tags replies:

Hui hui - Yea i think i prefer sunsets to sun rises, it marks the start of a vibrant night. I m as nocturnal as Wei Li. ok not so. You just have to say "No trump" to Cassie to make her happy.

Jolena - SO doesnt sound nice.. i prefer RE. MI and DO are pretty good too. Add them to your posts!

Lois - No retarded hui hui pic in my phone. It was deleted. Haha i didnt seduce wei li, he auto come one.

Cassie - Haha quite true, it s the only phone that is 'turnable'. The others are mostly 'slidable' or 'flippable'. Hahaha now i m so fascinated with the word turnable (if it is a word at all!)

Match against CJC

Match against CJC soccer team today.

Lost 2-1.

Here's some pics.



>>> Jeremy before the match stealing my water. Like this shot i took.



>>> All depressed



>>> Ying, the solo shot you always wanted.



>>> And the team shot that we always wanted. But never complete. And it s still not complete. From front left to right: Shawn, Ting Soon, Ming, Me, Christ, Jeremy, Ying Lun, Zi Xiang, Bo Yang, Jun Jie. Missing: Lucas, Andy, Benedict, Wei ian, Reuben, Jethro, Ryan.

Hmm i m quite sad about what happened today. Even though i played quite well, we lost, and Bo Yang's leaving the team.

The defence today was strong. I loved the way how we complemented one another, maybe Afiq was quite the odd one out coz he never played with us before, but it was still good. I did plenty of running, touched the ball quite often, missed only one header. Maybe the throw in killed my game. Really SORRY ming for throwing to you at that height, i miss calculated the expected bounce as well. The ball was suppose to bounce once, and at most to knee level for easy control. But the ground was hard and dry, no grass, so it bounced to Ming's head and Brandon robbed him. Sigh.

I m glad though that i m becoming a lot better. From a paranoid noob with no technical skills at all, to someone who can at least hold, pass, pump, and do some essential tricks. I feel more natural and comfortable at right back, the position i ve played so far ever since i started. There s hardly any competition for that position because only 2 right backs in the world score goals regualarly, and they are Daniel Alves and Sergio Ramos. Even they dun score many actually. People just want to score goals, want to attack. They never see the art of defending, to do the dirty job.

I ve grown to be more brave, because i know my body is stronger, pain is no obstacle. Clearing headers and last ditch blocks are painful to most, but if you dun do it, i dun do it, then who's gonna do it? Just a moment of pain won't kill, but a moment of cowardly thought is fatal.

Went up against Ruddy today. He was arguably the best player in SJI, adjectives include unstoppable. I managed to halt him several times, out pace, out jump and out smart him. He s still human afterall. All i needed was just composure. I know experience counts too. i need more games under my belt, to be exposed to more situations, to learn to cope with them.

Jeremy wanted me to support the RM more, but how was i suppose to support? With Bo Yang going up so often, Ming was stranded at the back alone so many times. And i dun have that boundless energy to run up and down the flank every time, sometimes for nothing, or just to serve as a distraction to pull away one defender.

Going against Arnold was challenging, coz he was always cutting in and when ever he advances, the full back runs up. So i have to decide whether to stick to him or follow the overlapping run. But i think i made the right decisions mostly and pressured him and committed myself, managed to win a couple of tackles.

Ok anyway i m feeling really tired now. Soccer aint easy. It s not all about physical strength and technical skills, but the brains to think and of course the name of the game is to pass.

Happy Week

Ok, whatever pictures that are found in my phone are up here.




>>> Even Wei Li cant resist my gay attraction

Tue was Chem Lecture test, by now i ve known the result which is 15.5 out of 25. To be honest, for the mistakes i made, it s quite a good result. Didnt think of a better way to do qn 2 and forgot totally about bolzman. (hahaha, i dun even know if it s spelt like that)

Wed, 2 more lecture tests. Bio and econs. Fell asleep the night before, hardly even covered anything. Just had to make do with what i revised on Sunday. Hardly even touched econs, only galnced through last minute. Anw dun think will do well. These tests are really important, since i screwed up CTs, so i cant afford any slip ups, OR.. i ll be roasted

OCIP moving pretty well, just need to call up one person, proposal s pretty good so far, but still room for improvement.

Thursday, PE was some scolding session. Dunno what s his problem. Anw captain s ball s fun because i ve got a more advanced role. Thanks Darren for doing the dirty job this time. In fact i was playing in my best position, the DM, so it s FUN, no more monkeying.

After bio pract, had some discussion for ocip and also the national day costume thingy. Badminton was fun. hahah yep Tim, sji guys are naughty! Left school in the rain, tau hueyed, built bridges and went home.







Today, National Day celeb! It was mainly just 2 hours plus in the hall trying to fix the costume and listening to saints idols singing. Yea just a slack day. Went to kitchen after that to celebrate August kiddos, Diana and Yong Pin. It was pretty simple, it s difficult to organise something sophisicated when there s so many things happening at the same time. Busy busy busy.

Had some fun in the kitchen, then left for Broadway (not the one in America, the one in PP) for lunch with Yong Pin, Zheng Da, Darren, Tim, Cassie, Jolena, Lois and Wei Li. Dunno why felt so tired and managed to sleep when the place s so hot and had a mixture of all kinds of food plus oil smell. Ate Lois' leftovers coz i couldnt decide what to eat, was too lazy to go buy and could save money at the same time. Survivors were Tim, Cassie, Jo, Lois and Wei Li.

Tim and Jo went to mug at Esplanade (ask them for details if you are curious). heh. While the rest of us went to Queenstown to meet Gabs after his A star interview at Buona Vista. Bussed to Queensway, looked around, shoes, jerseys, batons.

Moved to ikea, gabs and wei li ate hot dog and ice cream, i saved money. I m really proud of myself, i survived on only $5 for 2 days!!!! Usually it s at least $7 for 2 normal school days but i managed to scrimp and save (unconciously) even when i went out for 2 consecutive days. ok gotta thank cassie for setting an example and influencing to save money.

Had more fun time at the ikea cafe and left after some happenings. Trained home after that. It was a good day.







>>> My phone is really that fascinating.








>>> It was just a nice sunset again on the bus home. That s a kite btw.

K match tml, gotta go sleep early! Fell alsp while watching the Olympics opening ceromony, just couldnt keep my eyes open.

Test on Tue! Mug mug mug!

Unwell

Just the song for me now.



Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like
Im headed for a breakdown
And I dont know why

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

Im talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know theyve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow Ive lost my mind

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of meIm not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Ive been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon theyll come to get me
Yeah, theyre taking me away

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to beYeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, Im just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
Im just a little unwell

Tag replies

First and foremost, i would like to brag about a feat that i ve achieved. and that is ... *drumroll*

THE VIRUS YOU PEOPLE ARE GETTING WAS FROM ME!!!!

HaHaHaHaHAHAHhahahah! i m sadistic.

Thank you for being such kind customers and recieve whatever i give. 'it is in giving that we receive'!

Ok cut the crap, many sorries to all the unlucky folks who kena-ed the coughing, fluing, fevering. I should have quarantined myself at the Sahara Desert. SA is now a sick bay!

Anyways, i got my retribution and am BURNT once again. feeling damn hot now, and i need to sleep. So, i ll just quickly reply you loyal folks' tags now!


Sam - Hey! You again! Haha, soft ball is the no-brainer substitute for captain s ball. Please dun play soft ball for PE again, i rather play capt ball!

Mann - Yea i hope to get well soon, the cough is killing me! At least more people are suffering with me now! hahaha.

Hui Hui - Why you always like to say 'okay okay or k' har?

Reuben - HEY GAY PARTNER! You better come for match on National Day!

Ying - Yea, farewell was good. We split the job quite well and it all turned out pretty nice just a little awkward to sit around in the cafe saying nothing. As for the interview, i ll just say Come What May.

Lois - Aiya now not cool ald, there are still smarter people out there who are called 'inventors'. Dun worry la, i wont think till explode, still gotta go sleep and dream of more PW ideas. People tear up the pic you still fix it back, aiyo. Anw i m just hoping that those 2 people dun chance upon this blog.

Not Dinnering at Home Week

I was thinking what should i title this post. And after some thinking, i came up with 'Not Dinnering at Home Week'. Yep this is the week that i spent tons on food and all the miscellaneous stuff.

Monday, LTA Learning Journey. Lessons ended at 12, journey started at 3. Left school for Land Transport Authority at Little India. It was a pretty refreshing experience, havent had this type of 'excursions' for a long time. Flew back to school for training after that. Long run half an hour. It was one of the worst runs, phlegm choking, couldnt breathe, but i endured through it.




>>> The sunset was exceptionally beautiful that day after training.


Tuesday, Kueh Chang Day! Went to Kim Choo at East Coast Road for some Peranakan session, but it was merely just a mini class outing. Not the whole class but it was still pretty fun, just eating and slacking. Flew down to the PS to find a card for Weng's farewell and met ying lun there. Had dinner at Food Court and migrated to the Cathay.



>>> Trade mark B & J shot

Had the Adidas 20% voucher from sundown marathon, and the condition is to only buy things from the adidas shop there so after approval from shawn, we got a soccer ball. A clean one.

Wednesday, half the class missing due to leadership thingy.



>>>Mann's masterpiece on my Math lecture book

>>> Lois's masterpiece on a table in the ME class

Did some open house stuff after school and realised i had to go home to get the Rapture ticket and flew home late. Took a bath, changed and chionged out. Only realised that i didnt bring the ticket afterall when i reached the MRT. SO i had to fly all the way back to get it and finally meeting the rest at City Hall. Samantha, Vanessa, Lois, Gabriel.

Rapture was pretty good. Can tell the amount of effort they put in. Great job dancers. [the guys are really overused]

>>> Ok, i found this in my phone.

Thursday, training and Weng s farewell.





>>> RETARDS!

Had a little surprise for weng, eluded him to my locker where his gift is.



>>> GAYS!



Farewell was pretty successful. Food, drinks, gift, card, 'performance', taupok, mash, hugs and surprises. Hoped he appreciated what we did. This sets a higher standard for the J2 farewell...


Friday, Parent teacher meeting. It wasnt that bad. Anw i didnt expect it to be bad.

Saturday, OPEN HOUSE.

Went to school at 7 plus and studied a little but slept a whole lot till 9.30. The breeze was really soothing and comfortable at the 3rd level. I was just shagged anw, rushed some track stuff at night and the whole week s lack of sleep. I think the tests this week were pretty ok for me, i could do most of it. Had exco interview today. Really got me pondering.

Since everyone s emoing, i should add an emo pic too.

Haha! Not emo enough right. Sunsets fascinate me. The long dark shadows, orange and red, just so warm and cosy.

Gotta study! 3 tests coming up, but I m still pondering..

Tags replies.

Ok i shall mass reply tags here, coz i realise it s quite difficult and inappropriate to reply on your tagboards.

Jolena - Yep i did indicate my presence! Go check all your comments! Gaying is my speciality, sorry i cant stop that!

Hui Hui - Yep i do update when i feel like and have something to say. Thx for the concern for my illness. Regarding what happened, i know you ll understand.

Lois - Nah, Cedar is. They are bonded as a school. St. Margs is bonded by cliques. and yep, i m on the road to recovery.

Ds - One day, one fine day, and i hope that day when we see the sunset together, we ll be on that Cambodian beach you were talking about. I hope you are managing well on your own recently for OCIP, these are some things i cant help you if Ms Ye demands that you do it.

Mann - HELLO! you really do like giving nicknames to people huh!

WL - Downhill is more thrilling! Like on a slide. But if you go down too quickly, your butt will hurt, so i think we shld climb up instead!

Jocelyn - Haha yea. I m feeling better. Thanks!

Cassie - Nah, you did well, what matters is that you ve tried your best. Same goes for today.

Ying - It aint stupid answers, it s da truth! Haha yea and i admit your PW is worse off.

Sam - Yep, i m sure it ll be resolved. Thx for encouragement!

Weekends

The week s been pretty emo.

I just wanna recover from this illness, finish everything that i need to and just sleep. Had a long sleep last night but was one of fragments. Fatigue s taking it s toll. Still tired. I m sort of looking forward to this coming week. EVERY DAY s something new.

Monday - LTA learning journey
Tuesday- Kueh Chang Chinese Cultural
Wednesday - Rapture
Thursday - Weng s farewell
Friday- THE MOST EXCITING - Parent Teacher Meeting

The most happening week ever, every day gonna be back home late. And the following week is test after test. Oh how screwed can i be.


Anyway back to the usual "WHAT I DID THIS WEEK LISTING"

Wednesday, hui hui s birthday. Sort of celebrated with a small cake lois bought and gave the present. It was just a mini celeb in a classroom.

Thursday, PE was soccer, played pretty well just that i scored an own goal. Deflected the ball past Tim when i misjudged and miskicked i think Gabriel s shot. Otherwise, i would say i did what i could to save my team defended and created chances. Linked quite well with some other class guy, Brandon. he s pretty good, nice late run to score from my corner. At least i m proud to say i passed to every team mate before but almost gave Jolena a concussion. haha. Sorry about that! Didnt see you coming.




>>> This is what i find in my phone when it s left to some one else s care.

Training after school was quite slack. Did exercises, lunges, squats, hamstring, crunches, core, and a bit of running. Training hard! Discussed about the farewell stuff till late.

Friday, even more slack. PE captains ball. Fun class time. Although i must say i m quite sick of always being the one jumping up and down. It s the most difficult job on the court. It s even more difficult than being a goalkeeper. Decisions have to be made within split seconds, whether to jump or not to jump whether to move or not to move whether to charge or not to charge. And the main thing is whether to go for it or not to go for it. There are shots that are impossible to save unless you get physical and really snatch the ball out of the captains hands. But you must risk injuring your self or the captain, that is the biggest decision to make, to concede or risk injury. There are so many times i just let my opponent score and feel bad about it but come to think of it, that s the right choice to make.

Anyway, i dun wanna be defender again!!

Had math remedial after sch at the canteen. It was a good session actually, good weather, good revision.

Left for Dhobby Ghaut after that. Went to zap up the last 2 best tics for The Dark Knight at the Cathay 8.30pm. Then walked around, had a light but expensive dinner. A hot dog that cost $5.80 and a Taiwan snack that cost $3.50. DAMN SCARY. Almost 10 bucks gone like that.
Migrated to Ben and Jerry s to do some Math before Ying Lun came and spent some 6 bucks on Waffle and ice cream. Saw Ian Chai there, changed a lot. Haha and i met Jason and Ms Tan too. I think some church outing and they watched the same movie as us.



>>> The Grand Cathay. Really gigantic.

The Dark Knight was good. It was just abit long, but other wise i find it really thrilling. It s a lot different from the first movie, this one s more realistic i would say. I think it s the setting. The first one was more of the Studio production. This one, they really acted out on real streets and there was more action. Joker was fantastic. Batman s voice was manipulated for sure. Harvey Dan is the most merciless one. And they shouldnt have changed Rachel to Princess Lea. Please, she doesnt suit this movie.

Saturday, CCAB. Not a good turn up rate. Only Wesley, Ryan, Ying, JJ, Ming, Me, Shawn, Jon Chen. But it was still pretty fun. Ball ramming was great. I felt so liberal for once in many months. Played average. But i m happy that i m calmer with the ball now and making lesser mistakes. Yay. Headers are getting better but still need to work on accuracy.

But i m disappointed. Why? Because i actually put sun block (FIRST TIME) before the session and i still got BURNT! argg. nvm, at least this time, everyone was burnt! haha!
Left the place for Holland V lunch with JJ, Ming and Ying.



>>> See, when my phone is left to the care of others, this is what i find in my Image Gallery. JJ and Ming, fun dudes.

Holland V Food Junction. Ate some black pepper beef rice that cost $5.30!!! plus drink $1.50. and more drinks at CCAB, omg i m really spending like mad. No good, i have to control the spending. Anw bridge session with the 3 was fun. Ming rocks to the core. Bussed to Dhobby Ghaut with him playing Worms on my phone. Fun time. Supposed to have PW but i didnt even know a thing. No time, no meeting place. Only about 3 plus then i realise it s national library and reached there about 5 plus. Whatever it is, it wasnt a good session. Back to work!

PW problem

Sometimes, the best solution to a problem is to just do nothing.

When emotions are running high, when millions of thoughts are racing through the brain, when the heart is feeling so sore, when the eyes are filled with misery and perhaps anger, when the tongue lost it s ability to wag, when the ear distorts everything it receives...

THE BEST SOLUTION TO A PROBLEM IS TO JUST DO NOTHING.

Nothing. Simply nothing. Additional words could be the fuel to the fire. Attempts to resolve could escalate the problem. Whatever efforts would be just redundant. and i have to emphasize that this is at the spur of the moment.

It doesnt solve the problem totally, but it s the best alternative for the time being. It allows parties to cool down, think rationally, remove as much anger and resentment as possible, and a logical and practical solution will come eventually.

It may seem that i dun care, but what you see is not what you get. But dun worry something has to be done, i wont let this be a hindrance to our goal. It was a badly organised session, with no exact time and no precise objectives, we were just a headless chicken. Honestly, more need to be done individually before meeting, it is impossible to have 32 fingers and 8 thumbs on 1 keyboard. Better planning is needed considering time is an essence now.

No point playing the blame game now, but we all know who s the culprit. Roar! 'pridefully'

Troubled

Feeling troubled lately. Maybe it s the virus? Coughing like mad, throat burning, head spinning, always tired. Missed sch on mon because of that. as i m typing, i m coughing..

I forgot the feeling of being sick since i havent fell ill since er.. early last year? still human afterall. no matter how much care you take, these things just strike.

and i hate the feeling of being sick, cant do anything properly, miss out on so much etc. must recover fast! sat CCAB!! finally, after so long.

i think the biggest thing bugging me now is track. till now i m not sure exactly what s the problem. whether i make it to exco? whether the people in the exco deserve it? whether track will improve with our batch? whether i should join Sprints instead and abandon Distance?

so many problems, and no answers.

i m sort of glad FPSP is taking the back seat for the time being. even though it s fun doing and i dun mind going for another competition. can we qualify?

PW, WR isnt that good, thousands of appendix. so what if we have 60 over pages, the real report aint much of substance, must really put in effort to think and type. Just rushed through the first draft. Still have so much to do, brochure, poster, video, transcipt, post survey, website.

OCIP, i m confident it ll go through with our back up plan. just the parents. coz with the back up, cost isnt a worry anymore. and please Thai troops, just get the hell out of there.

Bio field trip, i think i m not going definitely. with so many things going on at the same time, and the research thingy dun really appeal to me.

Work shadowing aka stalking, Gabs bugging me to submit the form with him, but with such disgusting CT results, i doubt they ll even look at the form. And it might clash with OCIP. no good.

Last but never least, academics. Bad, i m not on track.

Is my life really going downhill? that s another question to be answered.

Tagged

Just remember Jolena tagged me to do this. See, i m so sporting! (right...)

1)how old did you wish you were?
> 0 years old, free and easy with no worries!

2) where were you when 911 happened?
> At home watching some drama and my mum just switched to CNA and i had no choice but to watch the second plane crash into the other building.

3) what do you do when vending machine steals your money?
> LOL. Laugh it off. Really. Last monday, when i threw in 1.40 into the vending machine outside SA's Chapel at the CC, wanting to buy 100 plus, some other lemon drink fell out even when i didnt select any drink. I guess i must really pray harder next time before buying a drink at the chapel.

4) do you count yourself kind?
> hmm, i try not to kill, not to steal, not to swear but i dun think i m very kind to the environment with my green house gases.

5) if you had to get a tatoo, where would it be?
> Er, on my hair? So that if i m not happy with it, i can just cut it off.

6) if you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
>French. and maybe German, so i can find out if Lyrad is really a German girl's name.

7) do you know your neighbours?
>Not really, but i know the one next door is a Japanese woman and Malaysian man, while the one at the lobby is a chain smoker.

8) what do you consider a vacation?
>Going overseas without any work. Just play play play.

9) do you follow your horoscope?
> Nah cant be bothered. Even if i bother to read, i ll just freak out and forget it because it s so horrifying.

10) would you move for the person you love?
> Move? Move house?

11) are you touchy feely?
> Yea i ve got a sense of touch.

12) do you believe that opposites attract?
> If not what, i m not gay ok, eh maybe with ying lun and timo only. hmm maybe gabs too, er yong pin a bit? oh ya, reuben! All the while..

13) dream job?
> Proffesional football player.

14) favorite channels?
> Media corp only provide those few pathetic channels, what answers can i provide? Suria? Vasantham? Or TV 1?

15) favorite place to go on weekends?
> the seaside.

16) showers or baths?
> baths. what s the point of going in dirty and coming out still dirty.

17) do you paint your nails?
>when accidents happen during art projects.

18) do you trust people easily?
>if they trust me.

19) what are your phobias?
>so far none.

20) do you want kids?
>yep, i wanna show my dad how to be the ideal father.

21) do you keep a handwritten journal?
>used to, nong nong ago.

22) where would you rather be right now?
>enjoying the sunset with that someone.

23) who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
> my pillow.

24) heavy or light sleeper?
> one that weighs A TON.

25) are you paranoid?
> nah.

26) are you impatient?
> nah.

27) who can you relate to?
> nah. ooops. can t use the same answer. dang. gabs? ying lun?

28) how do you feel about interracial couples?
>that would mean the Singapore Government is overdoing it s job on the promoting multiracial project.

29) have you been burned by love?
> if you consider the Sun as my lover. It has burnt me over and over again, next time dun bother asking why i m so red.

30) what's your favorite pick-up line?
> " Oooh, you smell good!" hahaha i think we ve got a winner.

31) what's your main ringtone on your mobile?
> mostly vibration noises but it s the Boston piano part on the weekends.

32) what were you doing at midnight last night?
> Getting ready to oink.

33) what did the last text on your cellphone say?
> Mum Hp: 'Toa Payoh NTUC.'

34) whose bed did you sleep in last night?
> Steven Gerrard's. Dumb question, obviously mine la.

35) what color shirt are you wearing?
> White.

36) most recent movie you watched?
> Hitman. shh dun tell anyone i downloaded it.

37) name three things you have on you at all times.
> 2 eye balls, 1 brain, and a skull. crap, that s 4 things. ok take away one eye ball.

38) what color are your bedsheets?
> blue blue blue.

39) how much cash do you have on you right now?
>Kosong.

40) what is your favorite part of the chicken?
> lol. the ovary? it makes eggs you know!

41) what's your favorite town/city?
> Probably Queensland. it s so carefree as far as i know. Maybe New Zealand.

42) i cant wait till...?
> I learn to drive! So i can stop taking buses and MRT.

43) what did you have for dinner last night?
> A typical home cooked meal. Rice, veg, meat, egg, soup.

44) do you own a gun?
> Cheeky question. Depends on what gun you refering to. xD Yea i have a toy gun under my bed.

45) what do you prefer to drink in the morning?
> Hot tea.

46) where do you think you'll be in 10 years time?
> Didnt i answer this before? I think i ll still be in Singapore, slogging it out, trying to earn more $$$

47) last thing you ate?
> Donut factory's oreo donut.

48) what songs do you sing in the toilet?
> Majulah Singapura (rock version) and the Pledge (rap version featuring Timbaland)

49) last thing that made you laugh?
> LOL. My own lame sense of humour. hahahaha.

50) worst injury you've ever had?
> Right ankle TRIPLE sprain.

51) does someone have a crush on you?
> Yea about 30 people. Those bleddy sec 2s taupoked me. Crushing my rib cage.

52) what's your favorite candy?
> Hmm, it has to be Hichew Grape.

53) what song do you want played at your funeral?
> Our Lives - The Calling or maybe something sadder so more will cry for me, ah.. Canon in D - Johann Pachelbel

54) four random people to do this:
> Do this if you are random enough. :D

Week 4

ok it s my 100th post! It isnt that fascinating since i started this blog at the end of sec 3.

Last post on 6th July, and i forgot everything from then till 13th. All i know is that lessons started again and i got back my pathetic results. BUDUDE! Isnt it just brilliant?

Ok, i remember 12th is FPSP practice at Paya Lebar Singpost Macs. Fried my brain for neurotech, what an irony. After about 5 hours, we finally left the place in Ms Ye s car to Bedok Botak Jones. Had fish and chips which i think i tried before, just couldnt remember. It was pretty good.

13th, PW meeting at 2pm.



Where else but national library? Did work from 2 plus to 6. what an achievement! Just sat at the level 5 lobby, plug in the powerpoint and had a productive session with some food. It was FIFA after that even after being chased away from the area. Went to Hans to continue and ate some fries Hui hui bought. And we went back again when the battery went flat. Fifa is plain fun and addictive, because i scored with a keeper again!! woohoo. What an achievement huh!

Monday, nothing much, can only remember training. Trained core and did 10X 50m lunges. Ached for the next 3 days, if you noticed, i ve been walking in a strange manner and having problems standing and sitting down. I guess i m having a preview of old age.

Tuesday, many people absent, Ms Ye too. So, no PW consultation. Cant remember what i did after that. Memory s really failing me. : (

Wednesday, National Track and Field Finals! Went to CCK stadium to have a taste of real competition. Really exciting. Had discussion for J2 farewell with ying lun and shawn while guan ming was starving badly. He simply cant take any hardships. Had Macs at Lim bang to fill my stomach slightly and had a long trip home again from CCK.

C div girls 4 x 100m.









>>> SJI! Won B div 4 x 100m! Great job.





>>> Cedar, probably the most bonded girls school

Thursday, Chinese A level listening compre. Was quite ok, probably got 1 qn wrong. Continued discussion for the track tee followed by training. Ok, honestly i felt a strong sense of achivement to complete 21 TWENTY-ONE rounds in 45 FOURTY-FIVE minutes. it was actually 20 rounds in 41 min, coz walked the extra round to cool down. Thanks monique, if not i would have given up long ago. great run. finished up core, discussed with lois about the class outing and went home dead beat.

Friday, highlight of the week. Commendation at St. Andrew s Cathedral. Yong Pin and Wei Li officially became councillors. Flew off to Dhobby Ghaut to prepare for July kiddos birthday celeb. Ran up and down plaza sing just to buy cake, get the paper plates, spoons, lighter and avoid the suspicion of the rest of the class. Thanks cassie and lois for helping out during the mad rush. Shouldnt buy ice cream cake next time!

Celebrated at Kopitiam, 3 candles, one for Vanessa, one for Hui Hui and one for Samantha. a bit lame huh. had lunch there and changed and went off to the Cathay to gather everyone again before setting off for paradiz. Pooled for 3 hours, inclusive of some bridging. Some started leaving and in the end only a few survivors went to plaza sing to have dinner and continued some bridging. Yong Pin wanted to do some shopping and only Gabs, Lois and me remained. Didnt buy anything in the end.

Saturday, FPSP Qualifying Round. Father dropped me at RGS and i went to Orchard to meet Tim and Wei Li. Waited for Yong Pin the latecomer as always at Yakun Kaya Toast Far East. Then left for RGS to meet Ms Ye, had a briefing and started at 11.

We started out pretty well, but took too much time for the challenges and had to complete 5 steps in 1 hour. Rushed for solutions and criteria. At least i completed my part but felt bad that i couldnt help yong pin with the criteria. i wasnt sure how to complete the sudoko. damn. should have at least read and know how to do. took a big risk. nevertheless, i completed the drawings though didnt label everything. overall, pretty acceptable outcome for a timed run.

Ms Ye treated us to lunch at Kallang Leisure Park (thanks again), the 99cents a plate sushi restauarant. Met some one there, had a quick lunch and rushed off to MJ with tim. Cabbed to pasir ris to catch the rockclimbing competition cassie was taking part in.

In the end it started late, and it poured, so we wasted our money cabbing. Waited about 3 hours before cassie climbed. Entertained myself with hp games, cards and a soccer match. I m amused by the way they played, despite the soaked pitched, they played passing calmly and had superb movement. There was always someone available to pass to. They never had to clear desperately. We must really learn to play like that.

>>> MJ s artifiicial pitch

After waiting for so long, the chairwoman finally climbed. (left)



Phone blacked out for no reason for the first climb, managed to only take a pic.

Videoed the second climb. (right)

It was a pretty good climb even though i know nothing much about rockclimbing. xD Yep anyway she got through to the last 16. Congratualations! Bowen slipped and couldnt get through. Nevermind, there s still a chance to be a sport in SA. Took a 39 to Tampines which was about an hour ride for 1 mrt stop. Amazing. The rest went to eat while i went home sweet home.

Chem class test coming up, tons of work to do, and i still wanna slack!!

FUN

How about something new, by starting with a retarded picture.






Grandma was hospitalised in the June hols and happen to sport this in the ward. They think old people's engrish no good lah!

Ok, i ll just bombard whatever pics there are in my phone here.





>>> Gabs mugging chem, just before the paper.





>>>While Tim was busy 'zi lian'ing. SHOT 1!






>>> How about this angle? SHOT 2!







>>>Maybe this angle is the best? SHOT 3!

4th July 2008, SAJC COLLEGE DAY!

One of the best days so far this year!

Ass nineteeners were selling SaintsWay Sandwiches, went early to help out abit, set up stall, then went on a mini campaign to help Gabriel with his SaintsIdol compt. Lois sneaked a bouquet of flowers to Ying Lun and passed to me so safeguard to avoid Gabs suspiscion. The campaign started with the bo liao guys of S19 walking around like fools with a sandwich! haha. Cassie was dressed up as a 'mascot' to advertise for Saintsway. My duty was to hold GABRIEL up right till my hand ran out of blood supply. (GABRIEL the placard) Ok cut the crap.. so we just cheered for him while Cassie ran on stage after his How to Save a Life and gave him the flowers, at the same time snatch the mic and advertise for Saintsway. FULL marks for Bravery!

The sandwiches were sold at a pretty good rate, did my job to pull as many friends as possible. Yea, eventually ran out of friends to pull. Was walking past some some muffin selling stall and suddenly heard some one call my name. Realised it s some girl from the stall but i didnt know who was she! So i asked her whether i know her and she started saying some story which i couldnt hear clearly but i figured out something like PS, KC, and buy muffins. Could it be YPS? Katong Convent? And buy their muffins? (obviously) I was so confused and was in a rush to do something so i just said ok ok, buy later. Whoa since when i have a friend from YPS in SAJC?? Better ask clearly next time!

Friends patronise my class stall, of course must return the favour rite, went around to present my consumerism skills and ran errands for busy classmates. Frequent the dunking machine a few times (they made a loss! subnormal profit) and Ying Lun called me to go play Xbox. FIFA 08!!!! Yea, played against Wei Shin, hockey guy from SJI and his friend. 2 vs 2. Didnt know how to use the controls and wasnt used to it and conceded a stupid goal in the first few minutes when Ying Lun and I clashed. After that, equalised 1-1, and led 2-1. Till 80 plus minutes, conceded another stupid goal. 2-2 extra time. Our team chemistry payed off, plus Barca vs Man u, compensated with so many one on one misses, and scored the decisive goal to win 3-2 after extra time. Really thrilling, Ying, we rock!!

Went back to stall and realised it s closing shop ald, Saints Idol over, Anthony Lee won, the one Yong Pin hates to the core. Gabs got some award, and some of us went back to play Xbox since we had some spare cash. Cassie, Yong Pin, and Gabs played Xbox Halo 3 while me, Tim, Jolena and Lois played Wii boxing. Quite fun but retarded. Xbox was more worth the money.

Played cards with Woei Xin, Gabs and Lois at the gallery after that while cassie and timo went to climb (again), yong pin and jolena had cca. Bridge wasnt good for me that day. The number cards loved me especially the DEEs, should really have played Dai Dee instead. Started out well but was on a losing streak towards the end. Went to Physio after that at SAS to settle my shin splint problem. Pain s still there but she said i can go back to run soon ald. Yay!

Went out with family to have dinner at Ngee Ann Alumni Club, pretty good food! Cheap and good, like some country club, but it s just a part of a polytechnic. Went to Sunset Way for Cold Storage and also some ice cream, (forgot the name ald). Suppose to be good, but i find it just average. Cookie Dough still da BEST!

5 July 2008, ANNUAL PARADE!

Met up for FPSP at Paya Lebar Sing Post with Ms Ye and gang. Had some brain exercises for 3 hours plus and left for SJI AP with Yong Pin and Tim.



>>> Brilliant sun set similar to every year. Some F16s flew by as well, of course for NDP rehearsal and not for us.


MARCH PAST!!!




Standard dropped from last year, but still the normal parts did well, only the new and unfamiliar ones were not good.




>>> Flag lowering and bye bye current CSMs

Went to Parade Square for the traditional crazy post AP session. Yup and my camera got lousier and lousier as the sun disappears.














>>> Matthew being taupoked and raped by Part As 07! And while i was laughing at him, taking this pic, it s my turn...

And they piled, piled, piled and PILED. Almost died! Couldnt breathe and the weight was killing me, rib cage gonna crash, chicken wings gonna come out from every where possible. TAUPOKs are dangerous!






>>> Matthew the gay and me. Post taupok.



>>> Tim s band had some ritual thing. in short, it s YAM SENG!

Left SJI at 8 plus and went to Paradiz for pool with Ying Lun, Zi Xiang, Jasper, Sebby and Heng
Khit.



>>> Playing against slut the pro.




>>> Ying Lun in his glorious moments.

This is what happens when you leave your phone unattended to bored friends.



It isnt that bad after all, as long as they take appropriate pics.

And videos...

>>> Ying in his not so glorious moments, stealing my hobby of stoning.



Left soon after about 10 plus and had a long journey home. Splendid day! and now, back to homework which i havent touched for a month.

Mood to Blog

Suddenly had the mood to blog. Maybe coz like what Tim blogged, today s really just leisure. But it started out not too well. Had a NIGHTMARE, bad dream.

Ok the scene was the CC, and Ms Wong was releasing the Econs results, and then there was this funny way of releasing the results, she ll read out those failures' names and they had to stay back right after to take a RETEST!!! lol. So, everyone was so tensed up causing a commotion and then she said there s only 20 plus failures in the whole cohort. So she read the names out one by one and they had to sit a side to be prepared for a retest immediately.

What can i say about this? It s just surreal, and SO REAL. Everything was like 3D and there was even echos, haha! So she read out the names one by one until the last one, there was a pause, and obviously you should be able to guess, it s ME, (if not i blog for what). Yea, and i was so stunned and shocked, but reluctantly walked to join the other 20 plus people and get ready for the retest. I was thinking omg, 3 Us, i m so screwed. Luckily i woke up and my misery ended. Really relieved.

But it was back to reality, and had to read up on Neurotech for FPSP. Stared at the screen at 5plus am isnt easy, stoned there for a few times, reading the same line over and over again. Went to sch, bio lect, and we all went to the kitchen, to cook pasta and also help out for jolena s group and college day. Yep, it was fun and relaxing. Was suppose to have FPSP but i think Ms Ye just threw it aside and decided to do some class bonding.

Ok, what did i do ...? Wash dishes, outline the big board, the poster, help out with the EV club flowers, cut cut cut, tie tie tie, pricked pricked pricked by thorns. haha left a drop of blood stain on a ribbon on a bouquet, you ll be so blessed to buy that one! helped out slightly with the sandwich costume as well, it s gonna be cool. Lectures were boring, GP just trying to copy whatever is there as fast as possible. PW was just stoning. College day tml! Gabs gonna sing, we gonna sell, it s gonna be fun!

Post common test

Finally brought myself to blogger.com

The past weeks were quite a disaster actually. Supposedly intense mugging but i was quite easily distracted with the TV on and the com just within reach. Honestly all i managed to do during the hols was to do some Chinese, read some chapters of bio textbook, revised Chem and Math.

I didnt know what to do for GP, how to prepare for it, or what homework is there. Missed the email that was sent. Only realised it the day before the paper. The paper was ok.. but i m not confident about it at all. Essay, wrote about whether youths today are more fortunate than youths in the past. The points were pretty easy and hardly used any 'bombastic' words. Just a simple essay. Paper 2 was quite confusing, wasted a lot of time on the first passage, trying to understand everything, and also wasted A LOT of time trying to think of alternative words to use, coz they say USE YOUR OWN WORDS. hate those 4 words.

Chinese, all i did was teng ye xian sheng the practices, still have a mountain of homework to complete. Overall chinese was quite ok for me, it s one of the only hopes for me.

Econs, mugged hard for Demand Supply Price, Elasticity. COP and PC read through and understood everything once but couldnt revise one last time before the exam. But luckily nothing came out for PC and COP only 1 6m qn. Managed to scribble some stuff, the rest were pretty good, but elasticity couldnt finish the essay, only managed to talk about PED, spent too much time on the definitions and stuff.

Chem, just a torture. I read through everything and mugged for topics from the start till chem bonding and then energetics and kinetics. It seems like i understood everything and memorised all the formulae and points one week before but i forgot EVERYTHING before the exam. I had to last minute pia the topics from scratch and try to remember the day before but nothing really went in, especially chem bonding. It was really a torture just to sit through the paper. I had hardly anything to write about in the structured questions segment. Coz all the info i had was in bits and pieces. As for the MCQs, i just have to blame myself for not practising chem much. No time to complete.

Math, was almost late for the paper. Honestly, i did not prepare much for math. All i did was to go through the lecture notes, memorise relavant stuff. And the best thing happened, i just went to sleep and slept for 12 hours till 10 am that morning and i realised i forgot everything AGAIN. All the formula and stuff, had to scramble to try remember and when i look through again, i found some questions i forgot how to do and attempted till no time and didnt finish looking through again, like modulus and graphs. dang. Anyway, i deserve to fail coz i didnt practise at all. Let Mr Tan down.

Bio, 8.30pm to 4.30am straight mugging. Miraculously i managed to cover everything except enzymes. And managed to REMEMBER. oh my. i really pushed my self for that. hopefully it ll yield some good results to compensate chem and math.

After the bio paper, went to kick ball at Potong Pasir Street soccer court. yong pin, wei li, zheng da, timothy, nicholas, jolena, samantha, while hui hui and pamela watched. Didnt play too well, expected, just finished exams, quite rusty. Then went to PS to eat BK, sat there chat, napped then left for training. Hardly did a thing, felt injury coming back.

Went home, Tim came, had dinner, did OCIP transcribing the interview. He stayed over, watched Euro 08 spain vs russia. 3-0. Went back to sleep for a few hours, had breakfast, left for AMK hub. Took cab coz will be too late if take train. Met the rest there and we went to some HDB flats to collect dictionaries, old textbooks and children s storybooks. Was sort of inspired by Cassie s enthusiasm considering that i was the zombie of the day, Tim was quite bad too! and went to every door, knocked, asked politely, and inject some energy into my speech despite having little for myself to last the day. So we collected and sorted out, while i stoned or went to La La land, waiting for the lorry to come. Loaded the stuff and off to Marymount Good Shepard. Lorry ride was fun. Reminds me of rollercoasters.

Unloaded the stuff, and left with Vanessa, Jocelyn and Jing yan since they had to go SMSS while i had to go to Borders to get a book for sis. Miss Orchard! The place i visited almost everyday after school for 4 years, now hardly. Argg.. feel like watching movie..

Saturday, met up with hui hui and yong pin supposedly to do hw but obviously failed. Jing yan suddenly showed up at Nat lib just when we were talking about her. Left the place to make it home for LOTR on TV. One of my movie favs. Gonna catch the last one this coming sat, ooops, recorded this time..

Sunday, cant remember what i did, but it s just slacking till Euro 08 final. Caught the 2nd half. Good match, Torres a gem. As usual zombie the next day, lecture time table, managed to stay awake though. Chionged OCIP stuff till 2am.

Today, settled some new PW stuff and going through phase 1 of ocip. advancing pretty well. PE was quite a failure, but still had some fun with the guys and woei xin the bb pro and the up and coming star pam. I know i suck at BB, but at least there s some improvement. Econs lect was just survey doing and hang man solving. Cassandra was too bored. and i stinked up the CC, all da way till chem. papers returned, screwed up big time. maths was worse but still, Ultramen are my friends for now. Soon they ll take off, soon.. i hope. oh and i hope they take away my burnt skin too. UV rays are cruel! ouch.