1 more week to the day i've been training for for 9 months.
however, i'm extremely worried. i have been on the verge of falling ill since wednesday. the feeling and the symptoms. the bad throat and the occasional sneeze hint at something. if i do fall, and miss the rehearsals, that's it. there goes the event i've been looking forward to for 9 months. and so, i've been popping actifed, panadol, danzen and downing expectorant ever since. i'm not sure how these medications work, but i'm hoping that they will somehow disrupt the replication process and prevent the virus from infecting my dear cells. i have to recover by tomorrow!!!
please please please.
despite feeling shitty, i still went for my first acca lesson during the friday nights out. it was a mad rush and i only managed to attend half of it, but i think it's worth it. i learnt a lot in the hour plus. but the most crucial lesson learnt is: there is a hell lot of things out there i don't know. and that reminded me i'm no where, nobody. i have to work hard.
the next day i received news that i might not be staring at stores or vehicles afterall. instead, i'll be in charge of almost 30 men. it's kinda weird. but i guess, this is what we are trained for ultimately right. to lead, to excel, to overcome. it's time to take charge, make the decisions, instruct, do the right thing. i've learnt to take care of myself, and now, it's time to take care of others. the bar gives authority i've never dreamt of. but with great power, comes great responsibility.
had driving straight after a saturday bookout and it was good. getting used to the controls pretty well. it was my younger sister's birthday and we went to tung lok at east coast for dinner. it was extremely fulfilling since it was an ala carte buffet. the food was good and so was the environment.
everyone's growing old. i found it hard to believe that she's 17 already. and me, i'm gonna be 20. TWO ZERO. not a teen anymore. it's like, wow. 2 decades just passed like that. i'd better get things done, instead of always waiting and waiting and waiting. sometimes, certain things can't wait. and once you miss it, you can never get it back.
youth is one, no doubt.
Sunday, January 09, 2011
Friday, December 31, 2010
2010 annual report
Hi all! To whoever still bothers to read this pathetic space that only update once a week.
It’s the last day of the year and so, here’s an annual end of the year ‘reflection’ again! Ok, it’s more of a summary of what happened this year, as usual. I had the idea of uploading photos to mark certain significant events, but I’m too lazy to do so and I’m kinda in a rush to get out of the house. So, here it goes, a quick one I hope.
I kick started the year with an outrageous trip to Bintan, aka the Scam Island. The nasi goreng was ultimate hilarious. I really enjoyed the trip. Just a bunch of guys, childish, yet matured enough to take care of themselves, and their brothers in arms. Somehow, i hope i can go on another trip with them. We might have changed a significant lot by the end of this year, but i think the core, the character of the person will never change. If he is funny, he is funny. If he is a leader, he will always be one. And 4 of those who went are deemed leaders of this country. These are the people i can trust my life with.
And after enough fooling around in scam island, i resided in another island for 9 weeks. The island of pulau tekong. It was tough, tougher than i thought, but i survived it and was elated during the Passing out Parade. Honoured to be in the drill squad, which came in 2nd, and as such, was in the front row of the parade. It wasn’t grand, but i guess it’s enough to mark this significant milestone of my life. Loved my section, and i’m sure my section loved me. They thought so highly of me, and i think they are the ones who got me a ticket to a ride of my lifetime. And so, i was posted to Officer Cadet School after the pop. I was all geared up and ready for the tough infantry training, the jungle confidence course in brunei, the unlimted route marches, the crazy field camps and tough mental challenges to go through. I was posted to an unusual Wing. Sierra. There were a billion regulars, mostly air force and navy sign ons. And i was kinda out of place. The 3 weeks there was quite ok, just getting used to life in Safti. However, i was tempted to sign on. I thought hard about my future during those 3 weeks, after the a level results were released. There was sort of a plan. But i consulted my parents and they said, ‘wait, don’t be hasty.’ I guess those were the wisest words i heard for a long time. I was young and naive, easily influenced, and didn’t know i was playing with probably my whole life. So i thought, yea, ok i shall listen. We’ll wait. And i waited.
On the last day in Sierra, i received the news that i was going to Air Wing. The plane has come to save my soul from torture. I was jumping for joy and telling the whole world the news. I was one lucky idiot out of how many others to be able to go to Ground Based Air Defence. And so i served my service term of 7 weeks in Air Wing OCS. I met a 26 year old uncle who talked sense and gave me precious advice. He ‘s a Mechanical Engineering grad of NTU and told me about his life, his decisions, his WRONG decisions, his regrets and mistakes. He didn’t want me to make the same mistakes and we spent one whole night talking. I probably grew 3 years older after the session. He left the Wing early since he was a non combatant and required 2 weeks less training. So i lived alone in my room for 2 weeks, settling unconventional stuff like getting a Social Night date and figuring out what to wear that won’t get me confined. The 7 weeks was bad enough with politics and stuff, i didn’t want any more crap. I realised I had so few female friends to ask and even had to turn to my motherly ‘sister’ for help. That was how desperate i was when the date drew near. And so, that s how i met a saviour in xunqi to help me out. The build up to the event was kinda hectic, but i guess everything paid off. It was expensive, but somehow worth it. Part of officership training is handling this kind of events, knowing what to do, and of course, having fun ultimately. And perhaps, it’s training to grow up, be a gentleman, and make more female friends before i start seeing guys as attractive. Social Night was a significant day of 2010.
After the 7 weeks in Safti, i left for Air Force Training Command in Paya Lebar. I can’t disclose much about training, but all i can say is that it’s tough in some ways, relax in others. 26 weeks. It wasn’t easy. But yet i pulled through again. Yes, without my knees giving way or me doing stupid things. It was a rather smooth sailing 6 months. I made a bunch of great buddies, who i believe, will be of definite help to me in future. As they call us – the scholar batch. All except me of course. The RSAF Combined Graduation Ceremony went all well, i received the sword all officers receive, got my wings to signify the Air Warfare Officer vocation, wore the No.2 ‘suit’ for the fine dining. And after all that training, i’m back in Safti, rehearsing for the finale. The commissioning parade on 15 January 2011.
That was about the entire NS life i had so far.
In between, i started to learn driving, manual, and will be taking the test on 1st March 2011. I also decided to diversify my qualifications and signed up for ACCA, of which night lessons begin next week so that i can fully utilize my time now. I guess this should be the path i’m taking afterall. Yup, it was a great year of ups and downs (as always) and this is the year i learnt the most life skills. Skills like living independently, which i m kinda loving it, social skills, time management (which still needs brushing up), DECISIVENESS which improved a lot and perhaps brotherhood..
This is the stage where i grow up, choose my path, pave it, and work towards it. I shall end this post with what i dreamt last night. It’s significant i guess, the last dream of 2010. And it woke me up at 4am, and i couldn’t sleep anymore. The details are kinda difficult to type out, but i think i can draw one conclusion from it. I think i’ve decided i should know someone better.
That’s it, folks. I don’t really like to set resolutions, so i shall keep it that way. Come what may, 2011!!
It’s the last day of the year and so, here’s an annual end of the year ‘reflection’ again! Ok, it’s more of a summary of what happened this year, as usual. I had the idea of uploading photos to mark certain significant events, but I’m too lazy to do so and I’m kinda in a rush to get out of the house. So, here it goes, a quick one I hope.
I kick started the year with an outrageous trip to Bintan, aka the Scam Island. The nasi goreng was ultimate hilarious. I really enjoyed the trip. Just a bunch of guys, childish, yet matured enough to take care of themselves, and their brothers in arms. Somehow, i hope i can go on another trip with them. We might have changed a significant lot by the end of this year, but i think the core, the character of the person will never change. If he is funny, he is funny. If he is a leader, he will always be one. And 4 of those who went are deemed leaders of this country. These are the people i can trust my life with.
And after enough fooling around in scam island, i resided in another island for 9 weeks. The island of pulau tekong. It was tough, tougher than i thought, but i survived it and was elated during the Passing out Parade. Honoured to be in the drill squad, which came in 2nd, and as such, was in the front row of the parade. It wasn’t grand, but i guess it’s enough to mark this significant milestone of my life. Loved my section, and i’m sure my section loved me. They thought so highly of me, and i think they are the ones who got me a ticket to a ride of my lifetime. And so, i was posted to Officer Cadet School after the pop. I was all geared up and ready for the tough infantry training, the jungle confidence course in brunei, the unlimted route marches, the crazy field camps and tough mental challenges to go through. I was posted to an unusual Wing. Sierra. There were a billion regulars, mostly air force and navy sign ons. And i was kinda out of place. The 3 weeks there was quite ok, just getting used to life in Safti. However, i was tempted to sign on. I thought hard about my future during those 3 weeks, after the a level results were released. There was sort of a plan. But i consulted my parents and they said, ‘wait, don’t be hasty.’ I guess those were the wisest words i heard for a long time. I was young and naive, easily influenced, and didn’t know i was playing with probably my whole life. So i thought, yea, ok i shall listen. We’ll wait. And i waited.
On the last day in Sierra, i received the news that i was going to Air Wing. The plane has come to save my soul from torture. I was jumping for joy and telling the whole world the news. I was one lucky idiot out of how many others to be able to go to Ground Based Air Defence. And so i served my service term of 7 weeks in Air Wing OCS. I met a 26 year old uncle who talked sense and gave me precious advice. He ‘s a Mechanical Engineering grad of NTU and told me about his life, his decisions, his WRONG decisions, his regrets and mistakes. He didn’t want me to make the same mistakes and we spent one whole night talking. I probably grew 3 years older after the session. He left the Wing early since he was a non combatant and required 2 weeks less training. So i lived alone in my room for 2 weeks, settling unconventional stuff like getting a Social Night date and figuring out what to wear that won’t get me confined. The 7 weeks was bad enough with politics and stuff, i didn’t want any more crap. I realised I had so few female friends to ask and even had to turn to my motherly ‘sister’ for help. That was how desperate i was when the date drew near. And so, that s how i met a saviour in xunqi to help me out. The build up to the event was kinda hectic, but i guess everything paid off. It was expensive, but somehow worth it. Part of officership training is handling this kind of events, knowing what to do, and of course, having fun ultimately. And perhaps, it’s training to grow up, be a gentleman, and make more female friends before i start seeing guys as attractive. Social Night was a significant day of 2010.
After the 7 weeks in Safti, i left for Air Force Training Command in Paya Lebar. I can’t disclose much about training, but all i can say is that it’s tough in some ways, relax in others. 26 weeks. It wasn’t easy. But yet i pulled through again. Yes, without my knees giving way or me doing stupid things. It was a rather smooth sailing 6 months. I made a bunch of great buddies, who i believe, will be of definite help to me in future. As they call us – the scholar batch. All except me of course. The RSAF Combined Graduation Ceremony went all well, i received the sword all officers receive, got my wings to signify the Air Warfare Officer vocation, wore the No.2 ‘suit’ for the fine dining. And after all that training, i’m back in Safti, rehearsing for the finale. The commissioning parade on 15 January 2011.
That was about the entire NS life i had so far.
In between, i started to learn driving, manual, and will be taking the test on 1st March 2011. I also decided to diversify my qualifications and signed up for ACCA, of which night lessons begin next week so that i can fully utilize my time now. I guess this should be the path i’m taking afterall. Yup, it was a great year of ups and downs (as always) and this is the year i learnt the most life skills. Skills like living independently, which i m kinda loving it, social skills, time management (which still needs brushing up), DECISIVENESS which improved a lot and perhaps brotherhood..
This is the stage where i grow up, choose my path, pave it, and work towards it. I shall end this post with what i dreamt last night. It’s significant i guess, the last dream of 2010. And it woke me up at 4am, and i couldn’t sleep anymore. The details are kinda difficult to type out, but i think i can draw one conclusion from it. I think i’ve decided i should know someone better.
That’s it, folks. I don’t really like to set resolutions, so i shall keep it that way. Come what may, 2011!!
Friday, December 24, 2010
a mini holiday
well, i had a pretty good break i guess. it aint the best but i somehow made full use of the 2 day leave and the stay out. family chalet at aranda was not bad overall. the chalet wasnt good as i thought. it s quite old actually and has the ... chalet smell. the musky smell. anyway i went prawning in hope of putting my newly acquired skills to good use and to bring some more food to the dinner table, ok bbq pit in this case. but i failed miserably. i caught NONE. at 6pm in the evening, where the owner only releases 20kg of prawns in total two times a day, it s quite an expected outcome. which brings me to a point in business. it s really quite smart, but unethical to me. things like buffet, and prawning, or even those machines with psps, ipods amd handphones danglin at the arcades. it s a sure win. they get to control the medium. for buffets, just slow the serving process, take forever to serve and throw in the time limit, no matter how big the stomach is, it cant be filled. prawning, just have rods dipped in an empty pond! and the machines, it s programmed such that no one ever wins.
ok anyway, back to the chalet, had a fulfilling bbq without prawns, and we went for late night bowling till 1am. slept for a while before booking in. skip the boring parts. ok went back to the chalet after book out and had a simple dinner at the food court. played some mahjong before hitting the sacks earlier. went back to aftc for the last time to move our stuff to safti once more. i ll miss the place. it has been a brilliant 6 months spent at paya lebar. life was good. i m one lucky fella to be posted there for training, and to have spent it with great people and inspiring leaders.
safti. sweet old safti. memories rushed back the moment we hit the gates. i m sure i ll be black by the end of 3 weeks. evident by some sun burn after just one drill session. it s quite fun though. booked out early and met lois for movie at jp since it s her territory. i would say it s worth the money. quite a good movie.
driving today, and i mastered the highest level of the art of solitude by strolling down town all by myself. just walked and walked around orchard, mingling within the crowds, observing the changes, soaking the christmas atmosphere and just people watched. of course it would have been nice to have friends there, but i just didnt know who to ask. and so, i just had dinner and went back. it s not that sad as it seems. it s just a phase of life, where you just think.. and that s all you can do.
ok anyway, back to the chalet, had a fulfilling bbq without prawns, and we went for late night bowling till 1am. slept for a while before booking in. skip the boring parts. ok went back to the chalet after book out and had a simple dinner at the food court. played some mahjong before hitting the sacks earlier. went back to aftc for the last time to move our stuff to safti once more. i ll miss the place. it has been a brilliant 6 months spent at paya lebar. life was good. i m one lucky fella to be posted there for training, and to have spent it with great people and inspiring leaders.
safti. sweet old safti. memories rushed back the moment we hit the gates. i m sure i ll be black by the end of 3 weeks. evident by some sun burn after just one drill session. it s quite fun though. booked out early and met lois for movie at jp since it s her territory. i would say it s worth the money. quite a good movie.
driving today, and i mastered the highest level of the art of solitude by strolling down town all by myself. just walked and walked around orchard, mingling within the crowds, observing the changes, soaking the christmas atmosphere and just people watched. of course it would have been nice to have friends there, but i just didnt know who to ask. and so, i just had dinner and went back. it s not that sad as it seems. it s just a phase of life, where you just think.. and that s all you can do.
Monday, December 20, 2010
sword for life, wings to fly.
and we spent the entire week preparing for this. the graduation ceromony.
it was apparently quite a big event, considering the number of HEADS who actually bothered to attend. i was pretty amused. yep anyway i have to admit everything went very well and the organisation was really good. i received my sword at last! not to forget, the wings too! after the 26 weeks of training, it finally ended with this to mark it. but somehow i didnt really feel that ecstatic. it s like, oh ok, yea it s here. perhaps the build up to this wasnt that intense. we had so much freedom, so much time out, and even stay out. i guess this just shows how much these things are compared to time spent with my family and friends. however, i could see how proud my parents were when i received the sword. they must be thinking, yea this fella finally got something right after getting everything else wrong for 19 years. hahah. anyways, after the ceromony was fine dining which was labelled 'uncomfortable dining' by the guy sitting beside me. i m fine with fine dining. i m fine as long as the food is nice. and damn, it was great. soup was creamy, appetiser appetising, bread free flow, tenderloin brilliantly tender and pan fried. even the spirit was well mixed, ok minus the pot wine, everything was great. after the formal stuff, there was some sabo game which i shallnt disclose anything here.
sat morning was cage! played pretty well and that s all that matters since my main dudes were mostly missing. it s so difficult to organise when everyone s schedule clashes. lunch at koufu leisure park and then went for lesson and home. sun, i finally cleared up my army stuff. and played mahjong which i technically won $120, but the new rule was to divide by 10. so, i won 12 bucks. great. squeezed in time to watch despicable me on mio. yep it was quite good, but kinda like ratatouile. too similar plot.
today, i m at home thanks to the need to clear leave. and i dedicated my entire day to family. which was kinda weird. because, i ended up going to karaoke with them. hahaha. and it s not teo heng or kbox. it s civil service club! tried to get teo heng but no space, tried kbox but too ex. the club was pathetic, but cheap! $7 per hour for a room that can hold 10 people. just that it s like some nightclub type except that it s all the uncles and aunties trying to practise for Golden Hour (is that the ch8 programme?) or is it golden years. ah whatever. it s quite hilarious. teo heng s still cheaper though, since they stupidly forced us to order $3 cokes and $5 fruits. went for dinner at some tim sum place around farrer park. quite fulfilling. ok i guess thats it. MORE family time tml, at the chalet. till then, tata!
it was apparently quite a big event, considering the number of HEADS who actually bothered to attend. i was pretty amused. yep anyway i have to admit everything went very well and the organisation was really good. i received my sword at last! not to forget, the wings too! after the 26 weeks of training, it finally ended with this to mark it. but somehow i didnt really feel that ecstatic. it s like, oh ok, yea it s here. perhaps the build up to this wasnt that intense. we had so much freedom, so much time out, and even stay out. i guess this just shows how much these things are compared to time spent with my family and friends. however, i could see how proud my parents were when i received the sword. they must be thinking, yea this fella finally got something right after getting everything else wrong for 19 years. hahah. anyways, after the ceromony was fine dining which was labelled 'uncomfortable dining' by the guy sitting beside me. i m fine with fine dining. i m fine as long as the food is nice. and damn, it was great. soup was creamy, appetiser appetising, bread free flow, tenderloin brilliantly tender and pan fried. even the spirit was well mixed, ok minus the pot wine, everything was great. after the formal stuff, there was some sabo game which i shallnt disclose anything here.
sat morning was cage! played pretty well and that s all that matters since my main dudes were mostly missing. it s so difficult to organise when everyone s schedule clashes. lunch at koufu leisure park and then went for lesson and home. sun, i finally cleared up my army stuff. and played mahjong which i technically won $120, but the new rule was to divide by 10. so, i won 12 bucks. great. squeezed in time to watch despicable me on mio. yep it was quite good, but kinda like ratatouile. too similar plot.
today, i m at home thanks to the need to clear leave. and i dedicated my entire day to family. which was kinda weird. because, i ended up going to karaoke with them. hahaha. and it s not teo heng or kbox. it s civil service club! tried to get teo heng but no space, tried kbox but too ex. the club was pathetic, but cheap! $7 per hour for a room that can hold 10 people. just that it s like some nightclub type except that it s all the uncles and aunties trying to practise for Golden Hour (is that the ch8 programme?) or is it golden years. ah whatever. it s quite hilarious. teo heng s still cheaper though, since they stupidly forced us to order $3 cokes and $5 fruits. went for dinner at some tim sum place around farrer park. quite fulfilling. ok i guess thats it. MORE family time tml, at the chalet. till then, tata!
Monday, December 13, 2010
packed like sardines
it was non stop action since book out. but i guess it s called making full use of time.
booked out and went for driving which i m quite pleased with the progress. rushed down immediately to city hall to have dinner at the garlic restaurant once again to celebrate pam s birthday. stayed till quite late and as usual had to run for the last bus.
recharged till late morning to settle some admin stuff which failed. now i gotta do it again. anyway, met huihui for a rather impromptu lunch, which was rather awesome. indulgence once in a long while. sushi tei rocks socks.
flew back home to drop my stuff, got changed, and flew back down to town, vivo to meet up with the guys for zoukout10. it wasnt THAT good. as an early bird, we went in quite early to queue for free drinks (for singtel users only) and got just a liiiiiilllllllllll tipsy. but we realised it was too early. and before the real thing started we were all totally sober. yep that was basically what happened. because nothing happens when you aint high. ok at least that s for me. 8 cups wasnt enough. and we didnt open the bottle that one guy brought.
but the music at the retro arena was not bad. at least recognisable. other than that, not my cup of tea. it was like l4d fighting zombies, getting swallowed in the crowd. so we left after finding one another AFTER getting separated in the crowd. walked all the way out to vivocity and took a cab home.
slept till 2pm and watched a mio movie before packing up and visit ngee ann poly to help my dad with some of his work. and a nice rewarding dinner at sizzler toa payoh hub. it was damn worth it. salad bar buffet. i m never going to jack s after the sizzler session.
yep so that s about it. booked in and that concluded a great weekend.
Sunday, December 05, 2010
social creatures
the freedom we have now is unbelievable. and it s just a preview of what is to come. now i understand the rationale of having the tough training, the picky system to choose the right people to take up these roles. there will be no more cats to chase the rats. the rats are trusted to do the right thing all the time. to have the discipline that was instilled and carry on upholding it.
the distinct line between trainees and instructors have been fading at an astonishing rapid rate. somehow, we are more like friends than colleagues. the transition is difficult for me, but i guess i ll have to pick up some skills to deal with that. i aint no natural.
we had late night sarpino s pizza on thursday, a crazy kampung fight, an early bookout for prata breakfast outside our 'beloved' nee soon, and a hell of a time at bottle tree park yet again. this time it wasnt prawns, it was WAR. paint war! haha it was fun, but PAINtFUL. i sustained some battle scars being a hero who charged to the frontline of exchanging fire. the paintball may be small, but it caused some serious bruising. there was blood too. but i guess it was all worth it in the spirit of fun and competiveness.
next up was LAN, just outside our future 'beloved' chong pang. it was amazingly fun, considering i m no LAN fella. it has been a long time since i touched l4d2. and it felt good to be actually one of the better ones at it that day.
after 2 hours, it was food yet again! xiao long bao buffet at crystal jade holland village once more. the good stuff came too slow! i was almost filled by the steamboat by the time our full orders came. but it was a good meal nonetheless. the end of course cohesion was a success overall.
as i was heading home at tampines interchange, i was stopped by one of those surveyors with a pen and stack of papers. being in a good mood and had lots of time to waste, i decided to listen to what she had to say. somehow, the statement made by the famous tangs plaza underpass busker struck me. he said something like this "i hope singaporeans will slow down their pace and listen." of course he was referring to his music, but i thought yea, maybe i should just slow down and see what this people want. i totally understand the sucky feeling of having millions of people zoom past you while you are trying to your job. (FLAG DAY)
so anyway, she was introducing some savings scheme for students and NSFs to save 3% of their monthly income, instead of the usual 0.01% interest when thrown into the bank. she said she would earn $0.50 if i filled the particulars form, and $1 if i followed her to her booth to collect some brochures. ok, so i being a nice soul that day, decided to help out. instead, another guy appeared at the so called 'booth' which was just an empty mcdonald s table and started to display the usual salesman behaviour - build rapport by talking about similar experiences like NS and uni, then display some professional knowledge and persuasive skills.
after trying to retort their scheme by pointing out that 3% is too little, and i could get way higher interests with my assets by other means of investment, he came up with some lame counter that i can put in lesser money with them. then i rebutted with 'what s the point in putting in so little to collect probably just $20 after 1 whole year which i might spend in a single meal??'
their jaws just dropped.
apparently, i wasnt that stupid as i looked. i asked them twice about their company but they kept shunning telling more about it.
but i didnt have enough just yet. i shot back at them with a last question. why are they targeting students and NSFs despite knowing their disposable income is so little? some hardly have $10 to save, and the amount of effort to get the large number of kids to make up for one rich working adult who can contribute so much more is tremendous.
the guy who claims he was from NBS said with an unconvincing smile that the company s aim is to help the target group. i ended the conversation with,"dun kid me, i study economics too, and i know that all commercial companies have the primary objective of making profits." and i stood up, offered a handshake and walked off. the feeling was awesomeeee.
it was obvious that they cant convince the working adults to put their money with this minnow company who might be just starting up and now they are targeting adolescents who can be easily conned into signing 25 year contracts and freezing their assets when they could be used for a better return.
from that moment, i realised the immense importance of education and financial literacy, which i guess might well be my route in future.
yesterday. driving, which went very smoothly. i m pleased with my learning pace. fighting out on the main roads was thrilling but i m glad i managed well.
headed down to 15 minutes Cafe at Lasalle College for dinner with ying, reub, shawn, tong, jer, his gf and friend. it was supposed to be a celebration for his birthday coming up next week. the place was nice but a lil too cold. jackston joined later and met up with ivan for another session of INTENSE l4d2. once again, i returned to become the noob of the group, but didnt play that badly. improving! great time spent, but ended at 1plus only to catch the night owl for an hour s ride home alone.
men - social creatures. how would i thrive without these people around me? really appreciate the company of these wonderful people in my life. even though some people simply love teasing me for apparently no reason at all. hahah. good try dudes, but nope, not true. :)
Monday, November 29, 2010
it ain't over yet
the final outfield is done.
it wasnt as intensive. i can back it up with stats and data. the previous one i lost 3kg, but i only lost 1kg this time round. ok cut the boring stuff, i embarked on an amazing journey to gain back all the weight i lost and it started right after book out on friday.
aunt's birthday at imperial palace at tampines1. ok the usual stuff, but food never tasted so good after a week of abstinence.
sat was my ftt alas. yea passed with flying colours. but long way to pass the practical. went back to do admin stuff, catch up with amazing race and got changed for another wedding. another cousin wedding at marriot hotel. and guess what. the entire 10 course meal was the same as what i ate 24 hours before that. it s scary. and this time, i m eating for 3 pax portion since my table has only 8 people. at the end of it, i was sure i gained the 1kg lost PLUS gst, service charge, extra service charge, extra extra service charge etc. as for the wedding dinner, the whole thing was kinda well planned. it was contemporary, the food was good, the speeches were engaging, the entertainment was excellent. live acoustic trio performance. the guitarist is imba. ok maybe coz he has a good guitar, but he s familiar with the tabs like the back of his hand. great stuff.
anyways, was deadbeat and just died on the bed without even changing out. woke up to the charms of the morning sun rays and did more admin stuff before going out to watch harry potter. like finally. the build up to it was kinda complicated, but oh well, i think i made the best choice.
the feeling of just snuggling into a warm jacket, while roaming about the cold mall, drizzling on the outside, and buzzing with people on the inside, is just great. throw in the hot coffee and some snacks, i just went wow. had a nice jap dinner after that and just booked in. it was still a brilliant weekend, but it could have been better. it was close.
should be a short and good week coming up. good luck to those having exams!
crap, i miss tau huey and croissants.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
sweet freedom
hah. it was a week to dream for.
put it in nicer terms it s called rest and recovery, or as some of my friends would say, body maintenance. hahah. ok i didnt quite rest since i sustained yet ANOTHER injury.
warmed up for cage on monday night and had cage on tuesday which we could only reach the finals but could not win it. i cant believe it. the team s really strong but we couldnt create enough and contain all their attacks. i tried my best but i was covering too much all by myself. glad that i did my part for all the defensive work, the initialization for attacks and a thumping penalty in off the post. had a great time, but screwed my right hamstring after all the work.
and so i was limping for the rest of the week. wednesday off, friday drove.
saturday was a pretty productive day. some how, i felt all happy and chirpy to wake up at 9 and left for town alone with no friends to meet, only to settle my personal stuff. it s nice because you have all the freedom in the world. i guess this is just what i need before going through another round of crap coming up this week.
been stocking up my cells with nutrients over the weekend. meaning eating like no tomorrow because i know i m gonna lose yet ANOTHER 3KG in a week like the previous time out in the field. peeps, i found the fastest and healthiest way to lose weight, just visit the wilderness.
put it in nicer terms it s called rest and recovery, or as some of my friends would say, body maintenance. hahah. ok i didnt quite rest since i sustained yet ANOTHER injury.
warmed up for cage on monday night and had cage on tuesday which we could only reach the finals but could not win it. i cant believe it. the team s really strong but we couldnt create enough and contain all their attacks. i tried my best but i was covering too much all by myself. glad that i did my part for all the defensive work, the initialization for attacks and a thumping penalty in off the post. had a great time, but screwed my right hamstring after all the work.
and so i was limping for the rest of the week. wednesday off, friday drove.
saturday was a pretty productive day. some how, i felt all happy and chirpy to wake up at 9 and left for town alone with no friends to meet, only to settle my personal stuff. it s nice because you have all the freedom in the world. i guess this is just what i need before going through another round of crap coming up this week.
been stocking up my cells with nutrients over the weekend. meaning eating like no tomorrow because i know i m gonna lose yet ANOTHER 3KG in a week like the previous time out in the field. peeps, i found the fastest and healthiest way to lose weight, just visit the wilderness.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
appreciate
Hello world, i did survive the week in the end. It was really a hell of a week. Never in my life i felt so exhausted and still kept going and going. The basic instinct and nature of a human being was actually forgotten. Food and rest were of my last priority for me and the groups i took charge. And they understood and followed my lead to get things done first.
We just kept moving, it was mission after mission. I probably slept 5 hours for 5 days, and ate portions that i would usually eat for a single day only. However, all these would not be a problem on a normal day when you just sit around doing nothing. The activities kept us moving nonstop, some were even as intensive as running a marathon, some even worse. Pee was always yellow since we were always sweating, yes, sweating like a dog. Our bodies were pushed to the limits, no rest, no recovery, we kept going and going. Fatigue level rocketed sky high as each second passed. It was to the extent where you can sleep standing upright. I didn’t feel human for 5 days.
When it finally ended, we went back to greet surprises but little did i expect surprises to be as surprising as the initial surprise. Oh anyway we survived and went back for a shower. The clean cool water streamed through your hair, down the camou-ed face and the worn out body driving the dirt down the drain. It was refreshing, it reminded me how it feels to be alive, to be sanitised. It’s these little things that we take for granted every day. Sleep, food, sanitisation.
As i was walking home dressed in my uniform, with the bulky black bag of muddy clothes on my shoulder, i walked past the playground i ve been walking pass for almost all my life. The laughter and screaming of little kids enjoying their selves , the sound of the ball ramming against the void deck walls and the chirps of the birds which were bidding goodbye to the dimming sunrays. Upon hearing those, i just smiled to myself and the line came to my mind: “children having fun, while we are holding guns.” I thought, perhaps, what we are doing is indeed for a greater cause, indeed worth it afterall.
I dropped my bag got changed and went for a great dinner with my family at the airport. The ambience, the food, the company, just reminded me of the times i had when i was a kid, running to the viewing gallery to see the big planes and sitting on ronald’s lap eating my Happy Meal. But that day, i strolled to the same place, with hands in my pockets and just looked on. I didn’t even glance at the planes on the other side of the glass, but i found myself sitting down on a platform, not on ronald’s lap, simply admiring my mum’s eyes, my dad’s inquisitiveness, my sisters’ liveliness. And i wondered, how things have changed, how far i’ve come. More importantly, what’s closest to my heart.
It’s amazing how tough times make you appreciate these little things, especially your loved ones and the memories that have passed and will never come back. Cherish the present ones and enjoy every moment in the future. When i finally do find the other half who i can spend the rest of my life with, who i can join the Amazing Race with, who i can lay down my life for, i know i will give nothing less than what she deserves.
We just kept moving, it was mission after mission. I probably slept 5 hours for 5 days, and ate portions that i would usually eat for a single day only. However, all these would not be a problem on a normal day when you just sit around doing nothing. The activities kept us moving nonstop, some were even as intensive as running a marathon, some even worse. Pee was always yellow since we were always sweating, yes, sweating like a dog. Our bodies were pushed to the limits, no rest, no recovery, we kept going and going. Fatigue level rocketed sky high as each second passed. It was to the extent where you can sleep standing upright. I didn’t feel human for 5 days.
When it finally ended, we went back to greet surprises but little did i expect surprises to be as surprising as the initial surprise. Oh anyway we survived and went back for a shower. The clean cool water streamed through your hair, down the camou-ed face and the worn out body driving the dirt down the drain. It was refreshing, it reminded me how it feels to be alive, to be sanitised. It’s these little things that we take for granted every day. Sleep, food, sanitisation.
As i was walking home dressed in my uniform, with the bulky black bag of muddy clothes on my shoulder, i walked past the playground i ve been walking pass for almost all my life. The laughter and screaming of little kids enjoying their selves , the sound of the ball ramming against the void deck walls and the chirps of the birds which were bidding goodbye to the dimming sunrays. Upon hearing those, i just smiled to myself and the line came to my mind: “children having fun, while we are holding guns.” I thought, perhaps, what we are doing is indeed for a greater cause, indeed worth it afterall.
I dropped my bag got changed and went for a great dinner with my family at the airport. The ambience, the food, the company, just reminded me of the times i had when i was a kid, running to the viewing gallery to see the big planes and sitting on ronald’s lap eating my Happy Meal. But that day, i strolled to the same place, with hands in my pockets and just looked on. I didn’t even glance at the planes on the other side of the glass, but i found myself sitting down on a platform, not on ronald’s lap, simply admiring my mum’s eyes, my dad’s inquisitiveness, my sisters’ liveliness. And i wondered, how things have changed, how far i’ve come. More importantly, what’s closest to my heart.
It’s amazing how tough times make you appreciate these little things, especially your loved ones and the memories that have passed and will never come back. Cherish the present ones and enjoy every moment in the future. When i finally do find the other half who i can spend the rest of my life with, who i can join the Amazing Race with, who i can lay down my life for, i know i will give nothing less than what she deserves.
Saturday, November 06, 2010
class
past 2 weeks, or rather weekends have been good. the weekdays were tiring. it s so difficult to be the one organizing everyone when the egoes are so high. everyone s a leader in their own way, that s the reason why they are there. it s tough, but i managed to pull through my term and i think i did reasonably well. it was tiring and stressful at times but that s part and parcel of the 9 months i guess.
last weekend was unexpectedly fun. i expected it to be kinda mundane and considering i just had a long tiring week.. but somehow the company was good. it s really important to have the balance in a group. just like a football team. you must have different types of players to make the team tick. there must be a willing goalkeeper, a hardcore centreback, a destroyer midfielder, a creative attacking spark, a touchline hugging winger, an out and out striker. and of course a captain, a leader to make them work altogether.
back to the topic, the reason why cliques can stay together is because either everyone in the group is goddamn similar, or everyone have totally different personalities. someone has to be the crazy one to suggest ideas, someone has to be there to take the lead and enforce it usually by joining in first, and someone has to be the joker to make retarded but hilarious comments and actions. however, someone has to be the coolheaded one and make sure things go smoothly, steering the group clear of potential danger and take care of them when situations do finally arise.
it s amazing how everything falls into place nicely without the members noticing, until you sit back and analyze why things happen the way it is. and i m glad i m in such a group.
there s another group i have which i know is there, it still exists, just that i ve been neglecting for so long. everyone s really so damn busy, i cant do much now. but i do have plans. everything will be just the way it was.
this weekend, a movie and class gathering. the movie was brilliant, not the inception brilliant, but good enough after resident evil. class gathering, felt bad to arrive so late. missed out on the interaction part. it was not bad actually, the food was about right, attendance was more than expected and the host IS someone i have utmost respect and fondness of. one of the best in his line around, and a very good man. sometimes you wonder, why is he still single??
haha i guess i have a lot to rant today. it s a day of opinion, a day of words (perhaps after a week of words since i had to talk so much, there s this momentum kept going).
next week will be the week of truth. the test. dirty, smelly, uncomfortable, minimal rest, minimal food, stressed out, exhausted, pushed beyond limits, heat rash, mosquitoes, sandflies, scorching heat, freezing storms, interrogation after interrogation ... everything you can think of. all packaged into a nice parcel to be opened by us next week. i will push till my mind blanks out, till my eyes see nothing but pitch black, till my limbs cramp up, my knees scream for mercy. that s the extent i ll go, just to get pass next week, and EARN the bar come january.
falling once was painful enough, i cant afford to fall once more. pray that i do survive to tell you about the experience.
it s all in the mind.
like a fool.
last weekend was unexpectedly fun. i expected it to be kinda mundane and considering i just had a long tiring week.. but somehow the company was good. it s really important to have the balance in a group. just like a football team. you must have different types of players to make the team tick. there must be a willing goalkeeper, a hardcore centreback, a destroyer midfielder, a creative attacking spark, a touchline hugging winger, an out and out striker. and of course a captain, a leader to make them work altogether.
back to the topic, the reason why cliques can stay together is because either everyone in the group is goddamn similar, or everyone have totally different personalities. someone has to be the crazy one to suggest ideas, someone has to be there to take the lead and enforce it usually by joining in first, and someone has to be the joker to make retarded but hilarious comments and actions. however, someone has to be the coolheaded one and make sure things go smoothly, steering the group clear of potential danger and take care of them when situations do finally arise.
it s amazing how everything falls into place nicely without the members noticing, until you sit back and analyze why things happen the way it is. and i m glad i m in such a group.
there s another group i have which i know is there, it still exists, just that i ve been neglecting for so long. everyone s really so damn busy, i cant do much now. but i do have plans. everything will be just the way it was.
this weekend, a movie and class gathering. the movie was brilliant, not the inception brilliant, but good enough after resident evil. class gathering, felt bad to arrive so late. missed out on the interaction part. it was not bad actually, the food was about right, attendance was more than expected and the host IS someone i have utmost respect and fondness of. one of the best in his line around, and a very good man. sometimes you wonder, why is he still single??
haha i guess i have a lot to rant today. it s a day of opinion, a day of words (perhaps after a week of words since i had to talk so much, there s this momentum kept going).
next week will be the week of truth. the test. dirty, smelly, uncomfortable, minimal rest, minimal food, stressed out, exhausted, pushed beyond limits, heat rash, mosquitoes, sandflies, scorching heat, freezing storms, interrogation after interrogation ... everything you can think of. all packaged into a nice parcel to be opened by us next week. i will push till my mind blanks out, till my eyes see nothing but pitch black, till my limbs cramp up, my knees scream for mercy. that s the extent i ll go, just to get pass next week, and EARN the bar come january.
falling once was painful enough, i cant afford to fall once more. pray that i do survive to tell you about the experience.
it s all in the mind.
like a fool.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
physical vs mental
hmm ok.
pretty straightforward weekend.
had driving lesson on friday after bookout, cousin s wedding on saturday at hilton hotel. doubled up as the reception fella at the lobby and a photographer. pretty busy but felt that at least i was useful. spent my entire sunday settling admin stuff and studying for a theory test that went ok i guess.
i m finally done destroying my knees! completed the final test for soc with a respectable timing of 7.59. and now after physical, it s back to studying.. everything must be shoved into the space between my eyebrow and hairline. great.
pretty straightforward weekend.
had driving lesson on friday after bookout, cousin s wedding on saturday at hilton hotel. doubled up as the reception fella at the lobby and a photographer. pretty busy but felt that at least i was useful. spent my entire sunday settling admin stuff and studying for a theory test that went ok i guess.
i m finally done destroying my knees! completed the final test for soc with a respectable timing of 7.59. and now after physical, it s back to studying.. everything must be shoved into the space between my eyebrow and hairline. great.
Monday, October 18, 2010
personal taste
ok, it s another post of "How I Spent My Weekend".
i didnt do much this week but somehow i felt that it was quite well spent. went for a relaxing ramen meal at Central with 2 of my closer coursemates right after bookout. we roamed about the clarke quay after that and finally settled for some kungfu bubble tea. it was a really relaxed and carefree stroll with my buddies.
spent my saturday continuing watching personal taste which i finally finished! it s one of the few dramas that i would actually watch and commend. good plot, but a little too drama. the ost is really good though. kinda hooked onto it. it s amazing how someone can change so much under the influence of someone else.
went for supper with 5 other guys and my instructor at bedok 85. it was kinda gay but ultimately it turned out quite well. chill out session, didnt regret going even though so many pang sehed. HOWEVER, i m really getting too lazy. i m eating too much and working out too little. i always want to go run or swim but my legs are screaming. sustained a new injury on the left hip flexors, and i cant seem to do any exercise. walking is already a problem. seriously, at this rate i ll end the course in a wheel chair.
went shopping with family on sun! retail therapy as people call it. even though i ll always look at the price tag before picking the item up to have a closer look, when i have an objective in mind, i ll usually complete it without hesistating when i m locked on one. i guess that s the good thing about me. i get the therapy, without busting the budget! times are bad y'know. times are ALWAYS bad (fyi hahaha)
yea that was about it, booked in early to watch liverpool lose again. i ve got nothing to say man.. it s gonna be an eventful weekend coming up, so something to look forward to!
hope you guys are doing fine, whoever reads this.
i didnt do much this week but somehow i felt that it was quite well spent. went for a relaxing ramen meal at Central with 2 of my closer coursemates right after bookout. we roamed about the clarke quay after that and finally settled for some kungfu bubble tea. it was a really relaxed and carefree stroll with my buddies.
spent my saturday continuing watching personal taste which i finally finished! it s one of the few dramas that i would actually watch and commend. good plot, but a little too drama. the ost is really good though. kinda hooked onto it. it s amazing how someone can change so much under the influence of someone else.
went for supper with 5 other guys and my instructor at bedok 85. it was kinda gay but ultimately it turned out quite well. chill out session, didnt regret going even though so many pang sehed. HOWEVER, i m really getting too lazy. i m eating too much and working out too little. i always want to go run or swim but my legs are screaming. sustained a new injury on the left hip flexors, and i cant seem to do any exercise. walking is already a problem. seriously, at this rate i ll end the course in a wheel chair.
went shopping with family on sun! retail therapy as people call it. even though i ll always look at the price tag before picking the item up to have a closer look, when i have an objective in mind, i ll usually complete it without hesistating when i m locked on one. i guess that s the good thing about me. i get the therapy, without busting the budget! times are bad y'know. times are ALWAYS bad (fyi hahaha)
yea that was about it, booked in early to watch liverpool lose again. i ve got nothing to say man.. it s gonna be an eventful weekend coming up, so something to look forward to!
hope you guys are doing fine, whoever reads this.
Sunday, October 10, 2010
alive for a life.
it was a very tiring week. a week where i pushed myself to the limits, and beyond. i was on the verge of going down, but the only thing that prevented me from doing so was my mind. i knew i could not go down, i was almost there, and i just fought it. the sense of accomplishment was enormous. i knew for once, i did well. :)
i broke another barrier on friday. pushed till i could push no more. and the end result was worth smiling for. something i ve never achieved and i finally gotten it, the feeling was good. of course i cant just stop there, i have to better it next week.
rewards always come. sometimes you ve gotta seek them yourself. but somehow the weekend fell into place really nicely. we had another course cohesion, went for a movie after a long while - legend of the fist. good action, good company, and good popcorn! shaw s popcorn s still the most worthwhile. had a great steamboat dinner around bugis area before having frolick at tampines1. great day.
saturday was .. better. haha. ultimately, it s time spent with the closer people that seem more golden. subway lunch, teo heng, pasta mania dinner and some extras were excellent. i was dead tired at the end of the day, actually forgot that i had badminton early that morning. totally glad i organised this session.
paid off my fatigue debt on a sunday morning and woke up to a sumptous homecooked lunch followed by watching the addictive korean drama. it s really quite sweet. the type where you can go aww for some scenes.. and damn! when the bad characters plot evil deeds. hahaha. yea but the girl s actions and behaviour are really sweet.
it s been a wonderful week. cant ask for more. :D
i broke another barrier on friday. pushed till i could push no more. and the end result was worth smiling for. something i ve never achieved and i finally gotten it, the feeling was good. of course i cant just stop there, i have to better it next week.
rewards always come. sometimes you ve gotta seek them yourself. but somehow the weekend fell into place really nicely. we had another course cohesion, went for a movie after a long while - legend of the fist. good action, good company, and good popcorn! shaw s popcorn s still the most worthwhile. had a great steamboat dinner around bugis area before having frolick at tampines1. great day.
saturday was .. better. haha. ultimately, it s time spent with the closer people that seem more golden. subway lunch, teo heng, pasta mania dinner and some extras were excellent. i was dead tired at the end of the day, actually forgot that i had badminton early that morning. totally glad i organised this session.
paid off my fatigue debt on a sunday morning and woke up to a sumptous homecooked lunch followed by watching the addictive korean drama. it s really quite sweet. the type where you can go aww for some scenes.. and damn! when the bad characters plot evil deeds. hahaha. yea but the girl s actions and behaviour are really sweet.
it s been a wonderful week. cant ask for more. :D
Sunday, October 03, 2010
life? get one.
basically, i have no life at the moment.
i spend my weekends
1) swimming
2) gyming
3) eating
4) sleeping
5) reading
6) watching tv
i cant believe i m actually following the korean drama on saturday nights.
i spend my weekends
1) swimming
2) gyming
3) eating
4) sleeping
5) reading
6) watching tv
i cant believe i m actually following the korean drama on saturday nights.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
chi, makan, devour and savour
i returned to camp with a fitness level equivalent to zero and jumped into an intensive activity almost immediately last week. almost died. but i didnt, and survived to go prawning aka catch prawns using a rod and bait at bottletree for mid course cohesion. can you believe it? we are half way there, HALF WAY. and the training s ending in just a few weeks, meaning the tests naturally come. anyways, prawning wasnt easy and it took an expert to come and teach us a few tips for us to catch on a consistent basis. before that, i was practically prawn feeding with the bait.
but after hooking them up, i felt sorry for them. we, humans, are banking on the lack of intelligence of animals for food. it s the cunning and merciless nature of us, to trick them, to tempt them, and to play with them. it s soooo sinful. when i pulled the prawns out, i saw them struggling, so alive, and i had to remove the hook, which often still has the bait on it. they didnt even get a last meal! how sad.
and worse, we pierce a satay stick right through them when they are still alive and kicking, and then throw them on the smoking bbq pit! burnt alive. so much for wanting to eat fresh seafood. and i had my retribution the next day - diarrhoea the whole day.
the highlight was suppose to be up next. carnivore at chijmes. really nice place, chijmes i mean. felt like a mini victorian village where people just drink and make merry behind stoned walls. great ambience. the food at carnivore was not bad too, but 45 bucks might be quite overpriced. ok maybe becuase i had too many prawns before that and didnt have much space for more meat. however, the grilled meat were skillfully cooked and seasoned, served hot and in right proportions. we were quite neglected since we were sitting inside. the meat were flying about in the open outside. it was good nevertheless.
left slightly earlier to meet up with family at city square farrer park where they had putien buffet dinner to celebrate my dad s birthday. was too stuffed to stuff more. couldnt even down a slice of cake when we got home.
spent the whole saturday diarrhoea-ing, but still managed to squeeze some time out to gym in a bid to get my fitness back. sunday was just slacking at home watching the phillipine drama series! lol. it was like 4 hours?? had dinner, booked in early and missed THE MATCH. liverpool lost but at least with dignity. my blood s always red. the free spirited and devil-free shade of red.
YNWA.
but after hooking them up, i felt sorry for them. we, humans, are banking on the lack of intelligence of animals for food. it s the cunning and merciless nature of us, to trick them, to tempt them, and to play with them. it s soooo sinful. when i pulled the prawns out, i saw them struggling, so alive, and i had to remove the hook, which often still has the bait on it. they didnt even get a last meal! how sad.
and worse, we pierce a satay stick right through them when they are still alive and kicking, and then throw them on the smoking bbq pit! burnt alive. so much for wanting to eat fresh seafood. and i had my retribution the next day - diarrhoea the whole day.
the highlight was suppose to be up next. carnivore at chijmes. really nice place, chijmes i mean. felt like a mini victorian village where people just drink and make merry behind stoned walls. great ambience. the food at carnivore was not bad too, but 45 bucks might be quite overpriced. ok maybe becuase i had too many prawns before that and didnt have much space for more meat. however, the grilled meat were skillfully cooked and seasoned, served hot and in right proportions. we were quite neglected since we were sitting inside. the meat were flying about in the open outside. it was good nevertheless.
left slightly earlier to meet up with family at city square farrer park where they had putien buffet dinner to celebrate my dad s birthday. was too stuffed to stuff more. couldnt even down a slice of cake when we got home.
spent the whole saturday diarrhoea-ing, but still managed to squeeze some time out to gym in a bid to get my fitness back. sunday was just slacking at home watching the phillipine drama series! lol. it was like 4 hours?? had dinner, booked in early and missed THE MATCH. liverpool lost but at least with dignity. my blood s always red. the free spirited and devil-free shade of red.
YNWA.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
SICK
it was a short week last week since it was family day last thursday, we were allowed to book out on a wednesday, and go to the zoo on thursday. i guess the pics on fb are self explanatory. it was quite interesting to visit the zoo after 10 donkey years. yea the last time i went there was to do my Young Zoologist Badge, like WOW ttm. anyway, the zoo s still the zoo, and i agree it s kinda gay to be looking at animals with a bunch of guys who would only think of ways to disturb the poor animals, or crack a joke out of anything. we would spend 1 minute at each attraction and walk away almost immediately. hahaha. guys are just guys.
i started to feel the symptoms that day and i knew i was going down. it s always the same, sore throat, the occasional and untimely sneeze and slight cough. you can feel it. and it sucks.
but i managed to hold it off for awhile, actually managed to have lunch with lois, gab, pin, ho and teo. burger at cine before resident evil late in the afternoon. it was quite bad. it gave me a prison break feel with wentworth miller in it, but damn fake. the calefares always die. how sad man. bumped into dr. jerome and caught up with him. could smell the freedom just by talking to him. the difference between someone deferring and someone in the thick of sewage.
broke up after the movie and had dinner with gab at hot tomatoes which is still reasonable in my opinion. bumped into ian chai who s gonna pop on the floating platform. and then went to walk walk, "retail therapy". nothing much.
saturday.. oh couldnt take it when i woke up. just went straight to polyclinic and i was excused from army half marathon. crap, missed such a big event. took the medicine, almost died on the bed, before waking up feeling kinda ok to go for class gathering at ms ye s house. queued for hokkien mee at bedok corner but was not complaining since i knew that was the norm, and arrived quite late. the atmosphere was quite dead and i couldnt add more life since i was already dying. i guess too many were absent. finally touched mahjong after quite some time but there wasnt much incentive to play properly (since no money involved!). just kept blocking.
otherwise, it was somewhat nice to see the class after quite some time and that night seemed a tad too short.
sunday, virus hit full blast and i just lay dead. went to doc for mc and he wanted to jab me since i was burning. 38.7. and i spent the next 2 days suffering in the spikes of the merciless virus. how to go back training like that??
found 2 pics in my phone. it was hui hui s birthday celeb at swensons.
pictures will be quite rare from now. gone were the days..
the gaze.
i started to feel the symptoms that day and i knew i was going down. it s always the same, sore throat, the occasional and untimely sneeze and slight cough. you can feel it. and it sucks.
but i managed to hold it off for awhile, actually managed to have lunch with lois, gab, pin, ho and teo. burger at cine before resident evil late in the afternoon. it was quite bad. it gave me a prison break feel with wentworth miller in it, but damn fake. the calefares always die. how sad man. bumped into dr. jerome and caught up with him. could smell the freedom just by talking to him. the difference between someone deferring and someone in the thick of sewage.
broke up after the movie and had dinner with gab at hot tomatoes which is still reasonable in my opinion. bumped into ian chai who s gonna pop on the floating platform. and then went to walk walk, "retail therapy". nothing much.
saturday.. oh couldnt take it when i woke up. just went straight to polyclinic and i was excused from army half marathon. crap, missed such a big event. took the medicine, almost died on the bed, before waking up feeling kinda ok to go for class gathering at ms ye s house. queued for hokkien mee at bedok corner but was not complaining since i knew that was the norm, and arrived quite late. the atmosphere was quite dead and i couldnt add more life since i was already dying. i guess too many were absent. finally touched mahjong after quite some time but there wasnt much incentive to play properly (since no money involved!). just kept blocking.
otherwise, it was somewhat nice to see the class after quite some time and that night seemed a tad too short.
sunday, virus hit full blast and i just lay dead. went to doc for mc and he wanted to jab me since i was burning. 38.7. and i spent the next 2 days suffering in the spikes of the merciless virus. how to go back training like that??
found 2 pics in my phone. it was hui hui s birthday celeb at swensons.
pictures will be quite rare from now. gone were the days..
the gaze.
Sunday, September 05, 2010
a beautiful mess
i've been eating a lot. a lot. a hell lot.
had a xiao long bao buffet last week after bookout with my coursemates and instructors. partly to celebrate eugene's birthday and partly as a cohesion. it was quite a good session, and we ate till we almost exploded. i probably downed 30 baskets of xlb s all by myself in just over an hour, not to forget there was still the steamboat. crystal jade will close down if people like me patronise daily man. went back only to drop dead on my bed yet again. it s just the friday norm, after soc in the morning and another physically demanding thing in the afternoon.
went for a swim on sun followed by another buffet at sakura downtown east before booking in right away. the quality wasnt there, and the singaporean spirit was clearly portrayed there and then. i m never going back there again, especially since with the same cost, i can go for a hotel buffet. which i think, it ll be quite some time before i get the craving again. totally stuffed after last week.
this week, fri, aunt treated to imperial palace at tampines1. she ordered something like a 12 course meal, even better than a wedding dinner. the food was good but it was like another grenade in my stomach.
ah take a break from food, took my btt (FINALLY) on sat after waiting for like 3 months? passed it and i m gonna wait for another 3 months just to take ftt. crazy crazy wait.
headed down to city hall to meet up with ying lun, guan ming and jackston to jalan jalan before walking in circles trying to find raffles place. there s so many new things popping out in town and i had no clue until yesterday. it was an eye opener. suddenly singapore seem so big! ended up at raffles place and met up with reuben and his friends and went to marina promontory for Chunk Fest 2010. quite disappointed because 1. it s not free. 2. there was no atmosphere. 3. i spent $9 for 2 scoops when i could have bought a whole tub with that money. damn.
cruised around before finally deciding to eat at plaza sing, manhattan fish market. going to ps brought back many good memories. 1 year ago i was probably there for a movie, eating the indonesian food at the food court or bolognaise at pasta mania in sa uniform. anw, went home earlier since the rest were going for a party and i wasnt invited... :( haha jk jk, was quite tired after waking up early. usually sat is a day to sleep in and just rot at home, ok to recover from the whole week.
today, went for a swim again at civil service club changi and had a good and reasonable meal at the restaurant there before booking in. that s about it, life s been pretty much slow pace. it must speed up!!!
short week coming up!
had a xiao long bao buffet last week after bookout with my coursemates and instructors. partly to celebrate eugene's birthday and partly as a cohesion. it was quite a good session, and we ate till we almost exploded. i probably downed 30 baskets of xlb s all by myself in just over an hour, not to forget there was still the steamboat. crystal jade will close down if people like me patronise daily man. went back only to drop dead on my bed yet again. it s just the friday norm, after soc in the morning and another physically demanding thing in the afternoon.
went for a swim on sun followed by another buffet at sakura downtown east before booking in right away. the quality wasnt there, and the singaporean spirit was clearly portrayed there and then. i m never going back there again, especially since with the same cost, i can go for a hotel buffet. which i think, it ll be quite some time before i get the craving again. totally stuffed after last week.
this week, fri, aunt treated to imperial palace at tampines1. she ordered something like a 12 course meal, even better than a wedding dinner. the food was good but it was like another grenade in my stomach.
ah take a break from food, took my btt (FINALLY) on sat after waiting for like 3 months? passed it and i m gonna wait for another 3 months just to take ftt. crazy crazy wait.
headed down to city hall to meet up with ying lun, guan ming and jackston to jalan jalan before walking in circles trying to find raffles place. there s so many new things popping out in town and i had no clue until yesterday. it was an eye opener. suddenly singapore seem so big! ended up at raffles place and met up with reuben and his friends and went to marina promontory for Chunk Fest 2010. quite disappointed because 1. it s not free. 2. there was no atmosphere. 3. i spent $9 for 2 scoops when i could have bought a whole tub with that money. damn.
cruised around before finally deciding to eat at plaza sing, manhattan fish market. going to ps brought back many good memories. 1 year ago i was probably there for a movie, eating the indonesian food at the food court or bolognaise at pasta mania in sa uniform. anw, went home earlier since the rest were going for a party and i wasnt invited... :( haha jk jk, was quite tired after waking up early. usually sat is a day to sleep in and just rot at home, ok to recover from the whole week.
today, went for a swim again at civil service club changi and had a good and reasonable meal at the restaurant there before booking in. that s about it, life s been pretty much slow pace. it must speed up!!!
short week coming up!
Monday, August 23, 2010
a mountain
mixed. i dunno whether to be happy or sad.
i returned to the arms of my loved ones last friday, feeling the warmth and togetherness, especially a dinner right after bookout at IKEA. it s always IKEA. i sat at the dining table, sometimes feeling like as if there s so much to say but in the end realising there s nothing to say.
after pondering on it for some time, i think i know what i wanted to say, now that i m typing this not from home. here it goes: i just wanna say i love all of them and am very grateful for everything they have done for me, being always there for me. even though every week i go home to be a nuisance to everyone (hahaha) the activities and events will always be build with respect to my schedule. today, i walk up the stairs, look down the corridor and feel this sense of emptiness. it s so quiet and eerie, with the occasional rain drop, the cool breeze blowing. i am reminded who are the ones that are ranked number 1 in my heart and it is in these times that they come to my mind first.
i slacked for the whole saturday, parking in front of the tv to watch the YOG and then decided to go for a swim. my dad offered to sent me to safra just as i was getting ready to take public transport. this is the time when the sound effect comes in : awwwwww.......
haha, but seriously, i m thankful for such great parents. my dad who drops all his work to send me back to camp and my mum who ll always prepare my book in stuff before anything else if i need and to my sisters who just irritate me all day long, asking me to spend money on them. yea i will, eventually, just not unnecessary money.
i feel sorry, and upset with myself. for not studying hard enough for the test today even though i spent the whole sunday on it, and for not really understanding my friends, exactly how they feel or what they are thinking. i simply assumed everyone s busy with their lives and we should just take a break. but when in fact, i have friends who are dying of boredom and loneliness, to revive that sense of belonging once more, to bring back the good old times. i am grateful for such friends. you know who you are. i ll make things happen, dun worry.
maybe life aint that bad afterall. sometimes, you just gotta push yourself harder, for the sake of a better tomorrow.
i returned to the arms of my loved ones last friday, feeling the warmth and togetherness, especially a dinner right after bookout at IKEA. it s always IKEA. i sat at the dining table, sometimes feeling like as if there s so much to say but in the end realising there s nothing to say.
after pondering on it for some time, i think i know what i wanted to say, now that i m typing this not from home. here it goes: i just wanna say i love all of them and am very grateful for everything they have done for me, being always there for me. even though every week i go home to be a nuisance to everyone (hahaha) the activities and events will always be build with respect to my schedule. today, i walk up the stairs, look down the corridor and feel this sense of emptiness. it s so quiet and eerie, with the occasional rain drop, the cool breeze blowing. i am reminded who are the ones that are ranked number 1 in my heart and it is in these times that they come to my mind first.
i slacked for the whole saturday, parking in front of the tv to watch the YOG and then decided to go for a swim. my dad offered to sent me to safra just as i was getting ready to take public transport. this is the time when the sound effect comes in : awwwwww.......
haha, but seriously, i m thankful for such great parents. my dad who drops all his work to send me back to camp and my mum who ll always prepare my book in stuff before anything else if i need and to my sisters who just irritate me all day long, asking me to spend money on them. yea i will, eventually, just not unnecessary money.
i feel sorry, and upset with myself. for not studying hard enough for the test today even though i spent the whole sunday on it, and for not really understanding my friends, exactly how they feel or what they are thinking. i simply assumed everyone s busy with their lives and we should just take a break. but when in fact, i have friends who are dying of boredom and loneliness, to revive that sense of belonging once more, to bring back the good old times. i am grateful for such friends. you know who you are. i ll make things happen, dun worry.
maybe life aint that bad afterall. sometimes, you just gotta push yourself harder, for the sake of a better tomorrow.
Sunday, August 15, 2010
hi, i'm bored, and very boring.
interesting week. tough but rewarding.
training was good, apart from some side effects. and my liver worked hard on thurs.
anyways, met up with the usual peeps on fri immediately after bookout to shop for yong pin s present. thanks to the mad rush to get out, i was in uniform and my phone was dying. before i manage to read the sms from huihui, it conked out. and so, i was stranded in raffles city, LOST once again. ah ok here s an interesting story:
i remember when i was about 5 or 6, i was lost there too. as a really kaypoh kid, i was looking at some kiddy performance schedule and when i turned back, everyone disappeared!! i remained calm and searched level 1 and b1 but couldnt find the adults. then i started to panic and the sour sour taste (yknow the taste prior to crying) started to overwhelm me. but as a good kid, i always had one 10cent coin and one 20cent coin in my little pocket and my aunt made sure we remembered all the crucial numbers, like 999, 995, the home number and her hp number. so i went to the nearest payphone to try and make a call. BUT i was too short!! i had to jump and hit the handset down before i can make a call. yep and i managed to get though and waited at the same place where they lost me. i think i cried like a baby when i met them again! hahaha! that s lost and found case 1.
now, fast forward probably 14 years, i was lost again, in the same place. no form of communication tool. not a single 10cent or 20cent coin. not a single PHONE NUMBER i can remember! hahahaha. i was dead. at least the sour sour taste wasnt there. luckily for me, my phone was good enough to let me switch it on and glance at huihui s number which i chanted for the next 15 minutes, just to embed it in my memory. i tried all the free hotel phones, but obviously cant. went to the swissotel and fairmount concierge but they were too busy with yog to care about me. so i went to raffles city concierge and asked politely for usage of their phone. yep and i was found again! lost and found case 2.
that was a bit of drama. but it s good, it makes you feel alive. situations, problems and more importantly, find the damn solution.
ok, and we travelled to marina for dinner at Changing Appetite which i had a really well prepared creamy sphagghetti with chicken and mushroom. it s like heaven after 11 hellish meals. enjoyed the time walking about, sitting at starbucks, playing some lame game and a late journey home.
had a FANTASTIC 12 hour sleep. it s the type of sleep you wake up and feel like doing a triatholon. nah but everywhere was still quite sore. watched 2 movies in the afternoon before going down to vivo to meet up for yong pin s birthday. decided on King Louis. nice place. good ambience, good food, and good price. the package was the real deal man. but the extra beer killed it off. $10 bucks extra!!! but in the end, i guess it was all worth it. brilliant night. moved to tiong bahru to present the present and finally went home again to catch chelsea thrash west brom 6-0.
badminton today, washed the car, and simply slacked. i need this rest for another hectic week coming up. ok that s about it. tata!
training was good, apart from some side effects. and my liver worked hard on thurs.
anyways, met up with the usual peeps on fri immediately after bookout to shop for yong pin s present. thanks to the mad rush to get out, i was in uniform and my phone was dying. before i manage to read the sms from huihui, it conked out. and so, i was stranded in raffles city, LOST once again. ah ok here s an interesting story:
i remember when i was about 5 or 6, i was lost there too. as a really kaypoh kid, i was looking at some kiddy performance schedule and when i turned back, everyone disappeared!! i remained calm and searched level 1 and b1 but couldnt find the adults. then i started to panic and the sour sour taste (yknow the taste prior to crying) started to overwhelm me. but as a good kid, i always had one 10cent coin and one 20cent coin in my little pocket and my aunt made sure we remembered all the crucial numbers, like 999, 995, the home number and her hp number. so i went to the nearest payphone to try and make a call. BUT i was too short!! i had to jump and hit the handset down before i can make a call. yep and i managed to get though and waited at the same place where they lost me. i think i cried like a baby when i met them again! hahaha! that s lost and found case 1.
now, fast forward probably 14 years, i was lost again, in the same place. no form of communication tool. not a single 10cent or 20cent coin. not a single PHONE NUMBER i can remember! hahahaha. i was dead. at least the sour sour taste wasnt there. luckily for me, my phone was good enough to let me switch it on and glance at huihui s number which i chanted for the next 15 minutes, just to embed it in my memory. i tried all the free hotel phones, but obviously cant. went to the swissotel and fairmount concierge but they were too busy with yog to care about me. so i went to raffles city concierge and asked politely for usage of their phone. yep and i was found again! lost and found case 2.
that was a bit of drama. but it s good, it makes you feel alive. situations, problems and more importantly, find the damn solution.
ok, and we travelled to marina for dinner at Changing Appetite which i had a really well prepared creamy sphagghetti with chicken and mushroom. it s like heaven after 11 hellish meals. enjoyed the time walking about, sitting at starbucks, playing some lame game and a late journey home.
had a FANTASTIC 12 hour sleep. it s the type of sleep you wake up and feel like doing a triatholon. nah but everywhere was still quite sore. watched 2 movies in the afternoon before going down to vivo to meet up for yong pin s birthday. decided on King Louis. nice place. good ambience, good food, and good price. the package was the real deal man. but the extra beer killed it off. $10 bucks extra!!! but in the end, i guess it was all worth it. brilliant night. moved to tiong bahru to present the present and finally went home again to catch chelsea thrash west brom 6-0.
badminton today, washed the car, and simply slacked. i need this rest for another hectic week coming up. ok that s about it. tata!
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
galore
hello world! i cant remember where i stopped. i just know it was long long ago. but there s nothing much to update anyway. was quite busy for last weekend, studying for tests, doing admin stuff etc. oh oh, yea, i did went out. had a great buffet at Marriot Hotel i think after bookout on 30th. the quality of the food was good but not much variety. but still good overall!
there was a live range held over the following week and i couldnt get what i wanted. stupid mistakes cost you dearly. haiya, so i guess i was quite emo for that period. yea, but i think i ve gotten over it. thursday was half day! went home straight and headed down to vivo with family. nah, i didnt had buffet, but dinner was as good as buffet. indulged in the flavours of sinagpore at food republic. chicken wing, satay, beef hor fun, popiah, hokkien mee, char kway teow, ice kachang etc. just ate till perchar! never knew i missed singapore food that much even though i never left! went window shopping with the females as usual and my mum will try to teach me fashion. which always fail miserably. i m just a simple person trying to lead a simple life man!
anyways, the walkabout was good, even though i spent most of the times in tangs, f21, topshop, those shops that sell heels higher than ice kachang and many more. was dead tired and conked out on the way home. spent saturday and sunday with family. sunday playing badminton as usual and ran to Giant from the CC for lunch and stank up the whole place doing grocery shopping. went back, mahjong with granny and watched something decent on tv. it was about sun wukong speaking english.
yep, but monday was the fun day. met up with huihui for lunch and then lois to sing song, relieve stress. it was quite impromptu but some things dun need much planning. just go with the flow and everything will turn out great. and so, went in sian again, but at least it s a short week!
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