it ain't over yet

the final outfield is done.

it wasnt as intensive. i can back it up with stats and data. the previous one i lost 3kg, but i only lost 1kg this time round. ok cut the boring stuff, i embarked on an amazing journey to gain back all the weight i lost and it started right after book out on friday.

aunt's birthday at imperial palace at tampines1. ok the usual stuff, but food never tasted so good after a week of abstinence.

sat was my ftt alas. yea passed with flying colours. but long way to pass the practical. went back to do admin stuff, catch up with amazing race and got changed for another wedding. another cousin wedding at marriot hotel. and guess what. the entire 10 course meal was the same as what i ate 24 hours before that. it s scary. and this time, i m eating for 3 pax portion since my table has only 8 people. at the end of it, i was sure i gained the 1kg lost PLUS gst, service charge, extra service charge, extra extra service charge etc. as for the wedding dinner, the whole thing was kinda well planned. it was contemporary, the food was good, the speeches were engaging, the entertainment was excellent. live acoustic trio performance. the guitarist is imba. ok maybe coz he has a good guitar, but he s familiar with the tabs like the back of his hand. great stuff.

anyways, was deadbeat and just died on the bed without even changing out. woke up to the charms of the morning sun rays and did more admin stuff before going out to watch harry potter. like finally. the build up to it was kinda complicated, but oh well, i think i made the best choice.

the feeling of just snuggling into a warm jacket, while roaming about the cold mall, drizzling on the outside, and buzzing with people on the inside, is just great. throw in the hot coffee and some snacks, i just went wow. had a nice jap dinner after that and just booked in. it was still a brilliant weekend, but it could have been better. it was close.

should be a short and good week coming up. good luck to those having exams!

crap, i miss tau huey and croissants.

sweet freedom

hah. it was a week to dream for.

put it in nicer terms it s called rest and recovery, or as some of my friends would say, body maintenance. hahah. ok i didnt quite rest since i sustained yet ANOTHER injury.

warmed up for cage on monday night and had cage on tuesday which we could only reach the finals but could not win it. i cant believe it. the team s really strong but we couldnt create enough and contain all their attacks. i tried my best but i was covering too much all by myself. glad that i did my part for all the defensive work, the initialization for attacks and a thumping penalty in off the post. had a great time, but screwed my right hamstring after all the work.

and so i was limping for the rest of the week. wednesday off, friday drove.

saturday was a pretty productive day. some how, i felt all happy and chirpy to wake up at 9 and left for town alone with no friends to meet, only to settle my personal stuff. it s nice because you have all the freedom in the world. i guess this is just what i need before going through another round of crap coming up this week.

been stocking up my cells with nutrients over the weekend. meaning eating like no tomorrow because i know i m gonna lose yet ANOTHER 3KG in a week like the previous time out in the field. peeps, i found the fastest and healthiest way to lose weight, just visit the wilderness.

appreciate

Hello world, i did survive the week in the end. It was really a hell of a week. Never in my life i felt so exhausted and still kept going and going. The basic instinct and nature of a human being was actually forgotten. Food and rest were of my last priority for me and the groups i took charge. And they understood and followed my lead to get things done first.

We just kept moving, it was mission after mission. I probably slept 5 hours for 5 days, and ate portions that i would usually eat for a single day only. However, all these would not be a problem on a normal day when you just sit around doing nothing. The activities kept us moving nonstop, some were even as intensive as running a marathon, some even worse. Pee was always yellow since we were always sweating, yes, sweating like a dog. Our bodies were pushed to the limits, no rest, no recovery, we kept going and going. Fatigue level rocketed sky high as each second passed. It was to the extent where you can sleep standing upright. I didn’t feel human for 5 days.

When it finally ended, we went back to greet surprises but little did i expect surprises to be as surprising as the initial surprise. Oh anyway we survived and went back for a shower. The clean cool water streamed through your hair, down the camou-ed face and the worn out body driving the dirt down the drain. It was refreshing, it reminded me how it feels to be alive, to be sanitised. It’s these little things that we take for granted every day. Sleep, food, sanitisation.

As i was walking home dressed in my uniform, with the bulky black bag of muddy clothes on my shoulder, i walked past the playground i ve been walking pass for almost all my life. The laughter and screaming of little kids enjoying their selves , the sound of the ball ramming against the void deck walls and the chirps of the birds which were bidding goodbye to the dimming sunrays. Upon hearing those, i just smiled to myself and the line came to my mind: “children having fun, while we are holding guns.” I thought, perhaps, what we are doing is indeed for a greater cause, indeed worth it afterall.

I dropped my bag got changed and went for a great dinner with my family at the airport. The ambience, the food, the company, just reminded me of the times i had when i was a kid, running to the viewing gallery to see the big planes and sitting on ronald’s lap eating my Happy Meal. But that day, i strolled to the same place, with hands in my pockets and just looked on. I didn’t even glance at the planes on the other side of the glass, but i found myself sitting down on a platform, not on ronald’s lap, simply admiring my mum’s eyes, my dad’s inquisitiveness, my sisters’ liveliness. And i wondered, how things have changed, how far i’ve come. More importantly, what’s closest to my heart.

It’s amazing how tough times make you appreciate these little things, especially your loved ones and the memories that have passed and will never come back. Cherish the present ones and enjoy every moment in the future. When i finally do find the other half who i can spend the rest of my life with, who i can join the Amazing Race with, who i can lay down my life for, i know i will give nothing less than what she deserves.

class

past 2 weeks, or rather weekends have been good. the weekdays were tiring. it s so difficult to be the one organizing everyone when the egoes are so high. everyone s a leader in their own way, that s the reason why they are there. it s tough, but i managed to pull through my term and i think i did reasonably well. it was tiring and stressful at times but that s part and parcel of the 9 months i guess.

last weekend was unexpectedly fun. i expected it to be kinda mundane and considering i just had a long tiring week.. but somehow the company was good. it s really important to have the balance in a group. just like a football team. you must have different types of players to make the team tick. there must be a willing goalkeeper, a hardcore centreback, a destroyer midfielder, a creative attacking spark, a touchline hugging winger, an out and out striker. and of course a captain, a leader to make them work altogether.

back to the topic, the reason why cliques can stay together is because either everyone in the group is goddamn similar, or everyone have totally different personalities. someone has to be the crazy one to suggest ideas, someone has to be there to take the lead and enforce it usually by joining in first, and someone has to be the joker to make retarded but hilarious comments and actions. however, someone has to be the coolheaded one and make sure things go smoothly, steering the group clear of potential danger and take care of them when situations do finally arise.

it s amazing how everything falls into place nicely without the members noticing, until you sit back and analyze why things happen the way it is. and i m glad i m in such a group.

there s another group i have which i know is there, it still exists, just that i ve been neglecting for so long. everyone s really so damn busy, i cant do much now. but i do have plans. everything will be just the way it was.

this weekend, a movie and class gathering. the movie was brilliant, not the inception brilliant, but good enough after resident evil. class gathering, felt bad to arrive so late. missed out on the interaction part. it was not bad actually, the food was about right, attendance was more than expected and the host IS someone i have utmost respect and fondness of. one of the best in his line around, and a very good man. sometimes you wonder, why is he still single??

haha i guess i have a lot to rant today. it s a day of opinion, a day of words (perhaps after a week of words since i had to talk so much, there s this momentum kept going).

next week will be the week of truth. the test. dirty, smelly, uncomfortable, minimal rest, minimal food, stressed out, exhausted, pushed beyond limits, heat rash, mosquitoes, sandflies, scorching heat, freezing storms, interrogation after interrogation ... everything you can think of. all packaged into a nice parcel to be opened by us next week. i will push till my mind blanks out, till my eyes see nothing but pitch black, till my limbs cramp up, my knees scream for mercy. that s the extent i ll go, just to get pass next week, and EARN the bar come january.

falling once was painful enough, i cant afford to fall once more. pray that i do survive to tell you about the experience.

it s all in the mind.





like a fool.

physical vs mental

hmm ok.

pretty straightforward weekend.

had driving lesson on friday after bookout, cousin s wedding on saturday at hilton hotel. doubled up as the reception fella at the lobby and a photographer. pretty busy but felt that at least i was useful. spent my entire sunday settling admin stuff and studying for a theory test that went ok i guess.

i m finally done destroying my knees! completed the final test for soc with a respectable timing of 7.59. and now after physical, it s back to studying.. everything must be shoved into the space between my eyebrow and hairline. great.

personal taste

ok, it s another post of "How I Spent My Weekend".

i didnt do much this week but somehow i felt that it was quite well spent. went for a relaxing ramen meal at Central with 2 of my closer coursemates right after bookout. we roamed about the clarke quay after that and finally settled for some kungfu bubble tea. it was a really relaxed and carefree stroll with my buddies.

spent my saturday continuing watching personal taste which i finally finished! it s one of the few dramas that i would actually watch and commend. good plot, but a little too drama. the ost is really good though. kinda hooked onto it. it s amazing how someone can change so much under the influence of someone else.

went for supper with 5 other guys and my instructor at bedok 85. it was kinda gay but ultimately it turned out quite well. chill out session, didnt regret going even though so many pang sehed. HOWEVER, i m really getting too lazy. i m eating too much and working out too little. i always want to go run or swim but my legs are screaming. sustained a new injury on the left hip flexors, and i cant seem to do any exercise. walking is already a problem. seriously, at this rate i ll end the course in a wheel chair.

went shopping with family on sun! retail therapy as people call it. even though i ll always look at the price tag before picking the item up to have a closer look, when i have an objective in mind, i ll usually complete it without hesistating when i m locked on one. i guess that s the good thing about me. i get the therapy, without busting the budget! times are bad y'know. times are ALWAYS bad (fyi hahaha)

yea that was about it, booked in early to watch liverpool lose again. i ve got nothing to say man.. it s gonna be an eventful weekend coming up, so something to look forward to!

hope you guys are doing fine, whoever reads this.

alive for a life.

it was a very tiring week. a week where i pushed myself to the limits, and beyond. i was on the verge of going down, but the only thing that prevented me from doing so was my mind. i knew i could not go down, i was almost there, and i just fought it. the sense of accomplishment was enormous. i knew for once, i did well. :)

i broke another barrier on friday. pushed till i could push no more. and the end result was worth smiling for. something i ve never achieved and i finally gotten it, the feeling was good. of course i cant just stop there, i have to better it next week.

rewards always come. sometimes you ve gotta seek them yourself. but somehow the weekend fell into place really nicely. we had another course cohesion, went for a movie after a long while - legend of the fist. good action, good company, and good popcorn! shaw s popcorn s still the most worthwhile. had a great steamboat dinner around bugis area before having frolick at tampines1. great day.

saturday was .. better. haha. ultimately, it s time spent with the closer people that seem more golden. subway lunch, teo heng, pasta mania dinner and some extras were excellent. i was dead tired at the end of the day, actually forgot that i had badminton early that morning. totally glad i organised this session.

paid off my fatigue debt on a sunday morning and woke up to a sumptous homecooked lunch followed by watching the addictive korean drama. it s really quite sweet. the type where you can go aww for some scenes.. and damn! when the bad characters plot evil deeds. hahaha. yea but the girl s actions and behaviour are really sweet.

it s been a wonderful week. cant ask for more. :D

life? get one.

basically, i have no life at the moment.

i spend my weekends
1) swimming
2) gyming
3) eating
4) sleeping
5) reading
6) watching tv

i cant believe i m actually following the korean drama on saturday nights.

chi, makan, devour and savour

i returned to camp with a fitness level equivalent to zero and jumped into an intensive activity almost immediately last week. almost died. but i didnt, and survived to go prawning aka catch prawns using a rod and bait at bottletree for mid course cohesion. can you believe it? we are half way there, HALF WAY. and the training s ending in just a few weeks, meaning the tests naturally come. anyways, prawning wasnt easy and it took an expert to come and teach us a few tips for us to catch on a consistent basis. before that, i was practically prawn feeding with the bait.

but after hooking them up, i felt sorry for them. we, humans, are banking on the lack of intelligence of animals for food. it s the cunning and merciless nature of us, to trick them, to tempt them, and to play with them. it s soooo sinful. when i pulled the prawns out, i saw them struggling, so alive, and i had to remove the hook, which often still has the bait on it. they didnt even get a last meal! how sad.

and worse, we pierce a satay stick right through them when they are still alive and kicking, and then throw them on the smoking bbq pit! burnt alive. so much for wanting to eat fresh seafood. and i had my retribution the next day - diarrhoea the whole day.

the highlight was suppose to be up next. carnivore at chijmes. really nice place, chijmes i mean. felt like a mini victorian village where people just drink and make merry behind stoned walls. great ambience. the food at carnivore was not bad too, but 45 bucks might be quite overpriced. ok maybe becuase i had too many prawns before that and didnt have much space for more meat. however, the grilled meat were skillfully cooked and seasoned, served hot and in right proportions. we were quite neglected since we were sitting inside. the meat were flying about in the open outside. it was good nevertheless.

left slightly earlier to meet up with family at city square farrer park where they had putien buffet dinner to celebrate my dad s birthday. was too stuffed to stuff more. couldnt even down a slice of cake when we got home.

spent the whole saturday diarrhoea-ing, but still managed to squeeze some time out to gym in a bid to get my fitness back. sunday was just slacking at home watching the phillipine drama series! lol. it was like 4 hours?? had dinner, booked in early and missed THE MATCH. liverpool lost but at least with dignity. my blood s always red. the free spirited and devil-free shade of red.

YNWA.

SICK

it was a short week last week since it was family day last thursday, we were allowed to book out on a wednesday, and go to the zoo on thursday. i guess the pics on fb are self explanatory. it was quite interesting to visit the zoo after 10 donkey years. yea the last time i went there was to do my Young Zoologist Badge, like WOW ttm. anyway, the zoo s still the zoo, and i agree it s kinda gay to be looking at animals with a bunch of guys who would only think of ways to disturb the poor animals, or crack a joke out of anything. we would spend 1 minute at each attraction and walk away almost immediately. hahaha. guys are just guys.

i started to feel the symptoms that day and i knew i was going down. it s always the same, sore throat, the occasional and untimely sneeze and slight cough. you can feel it. and it sucks.

but i managed to hold it off for awhile, actually managed to have lunch with lois, gab, pin, ho and teo. burger at cine before resident evil late in the afternoon. it was quite bad. it gave me a prison break feel with wentworth miller in it, but damn fake. the calefares always die. how sad man. bumped into dr. jerome and caught up with him. could smell the freedom just by talking to him. the difference between someone deferring and someone in the thick of sewage.

broke up after the movie and had dinner with gab at hot tomatoes which is still reasonable in my opinion. bumped into ian chai who s gonna pop on the floating platform. and then went to walk walk, "retail therapy". nothing much.

saturday.. oh couldnt take it when i woke up. just went straight to polyclinic and i was excused from army half marathon. crap, missed such a big event. took the medicine, almost died on the bed, before waking up feeling kinda ok to go for class gathering at ms ye s house. queued for hokkien mee at bedok corner but was not complaining since i knew that was the norm, and arrived quite late. the atmosphere was quite dead and i couldnt add more life since i was already dying. i guess too many were absent. finally touched mahjong after quite some time but there wasnt much incentive to play properly (since no money involved!). just kept blocking.

otherwise, it was somewhat nice to see the class after quite some time and that night seemed a tad too short.

sunday, virus hit full blast and i just lay dead. went to doc for mc and he wanted to jab me since i was burning. 38.7. and i spent the next 2 days suffering in the spikes of the merciless virus. how to go back training like that??

found 2 pics in my phone. it was hui hui s birthday celeb at swensons.







pictures will be quite rare from now. gone were the days..





the gaze.

a beautiful mess

i've been eating a lot. a lot. a hell lot.

had a xiao long bao buffet last week after bookout with my coursemates and instructors. partly to celebrate eugene's birthday and partly as a cohesion. it was quite a good session, and we ate till we almost exploded. i probably downed 30 baskets of xlb s all by myself in just over an hour, not to forget there was still the steamboat. crystal jade will close down if people like me patronise daily man. went back only to drop dead on my bed yet again. it s just the friday norm, after soc in the morning and another physically demanding thing in the afternoon.

went for a swim on sun followed by another buffet at sakura downtown east before booking in right away. the quality wasnt there, and the singaporean spirit was clearly portrayed there and then. i m never going back there again, especially since with the same cost, i can go for a hotel buffet. which i think, it ll be quite some time before i get the craving again. totally stuffed after last week.

this week, fri, aunt treated to imperial palace at tampines1. she ordered something like a 12 course meal, even better than a wedding dinner. the food was good but it was like another grenade in my stomach.

ah take a break from food, took my btt (FINALLY) on sat after waiting for like 3 months? passed it and i m gonna wait for another 3 months just to take ftt. crazy crazy wait.

headed down to city hall to meet up with ying lun, guan ming and jackston to jalan jalan before walking in circles trying to find raffles place. there s so many new things popping out in town and i had no clue until yesterday. it was an eye opener. suddenly singapore seem so big! ended up at raffles place and met up with reuben and his friends and went to marina promontory for Chunk Fest 2010. quite disappointed because 1. it s not free. 2. there was no atmosphere. 3. i spent $9 for 2 scoops when i could have bought a whole tub with that money. damn.

cruised around before finally deciding to eat at plaza sing, manhattan fish market. going to ps brought back many good memories. 1 year ago i was probably there for a movie, eating the indonesian food at the food court or bolognaise at pasta mania in sa uniform. anw, went home earlier since the rest were going for a party and i wasnt invited... :( haha jk jk, was quite tired after waking up early. usually sat is a day to sleep in and just rot at home, ok to recover from the whole week.

today, went for a swim again at civil service club changi and had a good and reasonable meal at the restaurant there before booking in. that s about it, life s been pretty much slow pace. it must speed up!!!


short week coming up!

a mountain

mixed. i dunno whether to be happy or sad.

i returned to the arms of my loved ones last friday, feeling the warmth and togetherness, especially a dinner right after bookout at IKEA. it s always IKEA. i sat at the dining table, sometimes feeling like as if there s so much to say but in the end realising there s nothing to say.

after pondering on it for some time, i think i know what i wanted to say, now that i m typing this not from home. here it goes: i just wanna say i love all of them and am very grateful for everything they have done for me, being always there for me. even though every week i go home to be a nuisance to everyone (hahaha) the activities and events will always be build with respect to my schedule. today, i walk up the stairs, look down the corridor and feel this sense of emptiness. it s so quiet and eerie, with the occasional rain drop, the cool breeze blowing. i am reminded who are the ones that are ranked number 1 in my heart and it is in these times that they come to my mind first.

i slacked for the whole saturday, parking in front of the tv to watch the YOG and then decided to go for a swim. my dad offered to sent me to safra just as i was getting ready to take public transport. this is the time when the sound effect comes in : awwwwww.......

haha, but seriously, i m thankful for such great parents. my dad who drops all his work to send me back to camp and my mum who ll always prepare my book in stuff before anything else if i need and to my sisters who just irritate me all day long, asking me to spend money on them. yea i will, eventually, just not unnecessary money.

i feel sorry, and upset with myself. for not studying hard enough for the test today even though i spent the whole sunday on it, and for not really understanding my friends, exactly how they feel or what they are thinking. i simply assumed everyone s busy with their lives and we should just take a break. but when in fact, i have friends who are dying of boredom and loneliness, to revive that sense of belonging once more, to bring back the good old times. i am grateful for such friends. you know who you are. i ll make things happen, dun worry.

maybe life aint that bad afterall. sometimes, you just gotta push yourself harder, for the sake of a better tomorrow.

hi, i'm bored, and very boring.

interesting week. tough but rewarding.

training was good, apart from some side effects. and my liver worked hard on thurs.

anyways, met up with the usual peeps on fri immediately after bookout to shop for yong pin s present. thanks to the mad rush to get out, i was in uniform and my phone was dying. before i manage to read the sms from huihui, it conked out. and so, i was stranded in raffles city, LOST once again. ah ok here s an interesting story:

i remember when i was about 5 or 6, i was lost there too. as a really kaypoh kid, i was looking at some kiddy performance schedule and when i turned back, everyone disappeared!! i remained calm and searched level 1 and b1 but couldnt find the adults. then i started to panic and the sour sour taste (yknow the taste prior to crying) started to overwhelm me. but as a good kid, i always had one 10cent coin and one 20cent coin in my little pocket and my aunt made sure we remembered all the crucial numbers, like 999, 995, the home number and her hp number. so i went to the nearest payphone to try and make a call. BUT i was too short!! i had to jump and hit the handset down before i can make a call. yep and i managed to get though and waited at the same place where they lost me. i think i cried like a baby when i met them again! hahaha! that s lost and found case 1.

now, fast forward probably 14 years, i was lost again, in the same place. no form of communication tool. not a single 10cent or 20cent coin. not a single PHONE NUMBER i can remember! hahahaha. i was dead. at least the sour sour taste wasnt there. luckily for me, my phone was good enough to let me switch it on and glance at huihui s number which i chanted for the next 15 minutes, just to embed it in my memory. i tried all the free hotel phones, but obviously cant. went to the swissotel and fairmount concierge but they were too busy with yog to care about me. so i went to raffles city concierge and asked politely for usage of their phone. yep and i was found again! lost and found case 2.

that was a bit of drama. but it s good, it makes you feel alive. situations, problems and more importantly, find the damn solution.

ok, and we travelled to marina for dinner at Changing Appetite which i had a really well prepared creamy sphagghetti with chicken and mushroom. it s like heaven after 11 hellish meals. enjoyed the time walking about, sitting at starbucks, playing some lame game and a late journey home.

had a FANTASTIC 12 hour sleep. it s the type of sleep you wake up and feel like doing a triatholon. nah but everywhere was still quite sore. watched 2 movies in the afternoon before going down to vivo to meet up for yong pin s birthday. decided on King Louis. nice place. good ambience, good food, and good price. the package was the real deal man. but the extra beer killed it off. $10 bucks extra!!! but in the end, i guess it was all worth it. brilliant night. moved to tiong bahru to present the present and finally went home again to catch chelsea thrash west brom 6-0.

badminton today, washed the car, and simply slacked. i need this rest for another hectic week coming up. ok that s about it. tata!

galore

hello world! i cant remember where i stopped. i just know it was long long ago. but there s nothing much to update anyway. was quite busy for last weekend, studying for tests, doing admin stuff etc. oh oh, yea, i did went out. had a great buffet at Marriot Hotel i think after bookout on 30th. the quality of the food was good but not much variety. but still good overall!

there was a live range held over the following week and i couldnt get what i wanted. stupid mistakes cost you dearly. haiya, so i guess i was quite emo for that period. yea, but i think i ve gotten over it. thursday was half day! went home straight and headed down to vivo with family. nah, i didnt had buffet, but dinner was as good as buffet. indulged in the flavours of sinagpore at food republic. chicken wing, satay, beef hor fun, popiah, hokkien mee, char kway teow, ice kachang etc. just ate till perchar! never knew i missed singapore food that much even though i never left! went window shopping with the females as usual and my mum will try to teach me fashion. which always fail miserably. i m just a simple person trying to lead a simple life man!

anyways, the walkabout was good, even though i spent most of the times in tangs, f21, topshop, those shops that sell heels higher than ice kachang and many more. was dead tired and conked out on the way home. spent saturday and sunday with family. sunday playing badminton as usual and ran to Giant from the CC for lunch and stank up the whole place doing grocery shopping. went back, mahjong with granny and watched something decent on tv. it was about sun wukong speaking english.

yep, but monday was the fun day. met up with huihui for lunch and then lois to sing song, relieve stress. it was quite impromptu but some things dun need much planning. just go with the flow and everything will turn out great. and so, went in sian again, but at least it s a short week!

rough and tough

past week wasnt smooth sailing. but pretty eventful.

we started a new phase. and the real thing started. but before that, i couldnt resist playing street during one of the nights and got whacked in the face by an arm while defending a shot. some part of my tongue was bitten off.

woke up the next day with a bad sore throat. so my entire mouth was killing me. but i still went gyming and resulted in soreness in every inch of muscle. the chin up regime started and my arms were about to explode. but then came the freak incident bayonet to stab my dear right palm 2cm deep. perhaps even deeper. no stitches required since the palm auto closes when left on its own. and so, i became a left hander since that day.

yep that just added to my list of injuries sustained over my very loooongg 19years. i m not careless, i m just plain stupid.

booked out and watched sorcerer's apprentice. it was an okay movie, the only thing that left an impact was the onerepublic song. secrets. i m hooked to it.

met up with reuben and gang after that at tcc clarke quay to chit chat till they chased us out close to 1am. it was not bad a ketchup session. had to take the nightrider home though. banged my head continuously on the window and seat until everyone behind me was laughing like mad. was dead tired that day. reached home close to 3 and slept till 2 the next day.

slacked at home till at night and went out for inception with ying and gang. brilliant show. no wonder it s movie of the year contender. managed to catch the last train home.

today, suppose to have a table outing but only 5 could go. in the end the 4 of us guys went to taka to walk and wisma to sit at starbucks. ok la, it was still not bad. the place brought back many good memories. and i had espresso frap finally in like 2 years! but that just reminded me how much i ve splurged for the past few days. still gotta pay for things in camp! going broke.

that s about it, gotta book in soon..

good week

feeling a lot better over the past week.

actually, i looked back at the previous post and i cant justify what i posted. i cant remember why i was THAT sad or emo. maybe it was the early book in that caused the sian-ess and the feeling was exaggerated. yea i was unhappy about some stuff last week, dun ask me what because i cant put it into words.

anyways, i m happy this week because my effort paid off for ippt. havent ran for about a month and took an ippt. the result was - cannot jump, cannot run. trained hard for the next ippt and retained my gold and ahem some incentives. :D

had a good nights out on wednesday, accompanying my family.

the feeling of going shopping right after booking out on friday is awesome. not so much about the shopping, but just going out to walk, see and feel the world, and with having good company for dinner and just talking. it s nice.

and singing songs on saturday! celebrated huihui s birthday, with her not knowing it, since she ll never agree to it. songs, they facilitate the release of perhaps tension, or unhappiness within and bring fun and laughter when it s sung in a funny way. hahah especially when you cant really sing. laughing at yourself, laughing at your friend or just laughing at laughter. it s pure joy. dinner and had an interesting chat after that. it s seriously becoming a habit man. haha. good fun good company.

and doing stupid things at the garden festival at suntec on sunday with family was somehow becoming quite hard to come by. it was quite tiring to pose at every flower and leaf and cover 2 levels of plants! conked out on the way home. but it was fun to be someone not really yourself around people you know too well. you just do and say stupid things and the reaction will be totally unexpected.

ok i think i shall stop here and go to sleep soon!

till next week, tata.

stress

can you imagine, despite putting in the effort, failure still haunts you, as if it's fate.
can you imagine, every action you make, every word you speak, someone s scrutinizing, waiting to pounce.
can you imagine, living in a world that offers no room for error.

how would you feel?


anyways, i had fish and co and marche this weekend as input, but not much output. that means i m gonna die on wednesday. how to run??

sent sam off at the airport on sat. sincerely hope she does well in aussie!

that s about it.





i don't feel right.

thurs, fri, sat, sun

nothing much happened for the rest of the days. but still, the holiday is passable. speaking of holidays, i happen to flip through the forum that day and some mother was complaining about the schools eating up the school holidays. she even threw in the definition of holiday to argue. and if all goes well, i think she ll win. why didnt she start fighting a few years earlier man.

anyways, back to my mundane life. i watched ANOTHER movie on thurs. ip man 3. it wasnt as good as the first 2 but ok, good to watch. i cant believe they reused the same actor for a different role. that s damn cheapskate.

fri. oh it was supposed to be a family day. there was some plans to bbq but in the end NATO. (no action talk only) so we ended up visiting Marina Bay Sands. to be honest, the place is quite impressive. the architecture and the view. it gained some plus points whenever a cool breeze blew, coz it rained that morning. but many shops aint opened yet. all big names. just walked around, checked out the toilet at Paiza, the hotel. yea not bad. haha.

oh there s the YOG park also. they are doing some preparation for the opening ceromony i guess. and just across, they are preparing the road for the F1 coming up. singapore s damn busy.

anyways, we went back to marina square for dinner. so to make up for the failed bbq, we had yuki yaki. it was quite enjoyable for once. started inventing new dishes with whatever was provided. and of course, stomach was filled to the brim. shopped around for furniture and groceries at curry4 after that. it was quite a good day.

saturday. spent the whole day packing my stuff, getting ready to move house. from jurong, to paya lebar. the things are getting more and more. last time it was only BMT stuff. now there s BMT + OCS stuff. then next time, i will have BMT + OCS + AFTC stuff to bring home and to probably chong pang camp.

and i finally went to exercise! damn lazy. swam at safra for about an hour, felt good.

ok i m finally finally finally starting to learn a new skill, procrastinate too much. and IT is fun. but need lots of practise. till next week, tata.

an almost perfect day

who cares about monday and tuesday when you ve got wednesday!

seriously, i cant remember what happened on monday and tuesday if you ask me now. yea, right now. ok lemme think.

oooo kkk.

monday. met up with huihui at changi international airport for mcdonald s breakfast at 10plus. then sam joined. and gabriel joined. then logs joined from a silkair plane. so the mainpoint was my SPINACH, which never came. instead, we had chicken and very nice mash potatoes and fries. quite a worthy trade. yep so anw, babarella came back with lots of mosquito bites which was kinda expected, slightly worse than coming back from pulau ubin aka the mosquito and sanflies breeding island. after much scratching, we packed her in a taxi and splitted up.

met up with family at a really weird place. farrer park city square. never been there before. but it s really nice and spacious with big name shops that sadly no one frequents. it would be a good hangout to be honest. had pizza for dinner and i actually bought a pair of jeans. it s like a miracle. a new piece of clothing that doesnt originate from SAF hanging in my closet in this period. wow.

tuesday. oh. aunt treated swensons and haagen daz. i was stuffed. should seriously start exercising man.

wednesday. aha. brilliant day. the reason why i m typing at this time, because i dun wanna forget this feeling and exactly what i thought.

collected certs back in sa. felt a little nostalgia. ok not that i had a lot of happy memories in school, but when i saw the pitch, i recalled how i was strutting during the track + sc vs teachers match. how the sun was setting at that moment, giving the oranje hue. and the red track that i ran like a dog 3 times a week. check the ground and you can find my sweat still there. the blue basketball court, the place we played our class captain ball. the canteen where i gobbled my favourite chicken rice and BANANA MILK. aww. the lecture theatres. damn, i kinda miss the bio lectures. the cc where i slept like crazy. hahaha. oh the TOILET! where i spend much of the time standing in front of the fan because it s only fan that can be fixed!

haiya, but you go back, think of all the great times, only to receive something that doesnt make you feel great. i dunno how to put it. but unfortunately, even if i turn back time 1 year ago, i would still do the same, because i ve done my best in the time i had. j1 killed everything. that s the reason why i keep telling my juniors to go study whenever i see them. especially ryan. i must save private ryan!

back to reality. and some fun. we migrated to marina square kbox to relive an illegal session 2 years ago, about the same time. it was fun. even though i cant sing. i managed to make some noises that some how resembled some music, i hope. hah! yea gotta agree with gay, it was abit too short.

travelled back to tampines to watch TWO movies in a row at gv with aunt and sis. TOY STORY 3. the front was kinda slow, but everything fell nicely in the end. it s worthy of probably a 4.5 star. there was this particular scene when the boy finally decided to give away his toys. and i had to hold back some tears then - because i understood how he felt. i can decide to act MAN and laugh it off but learning to confront the feeling requires some real courage. it s about how you become attached to the items that helped you grow up, spend your precious childhood, and how you finally outgrow them. we were all kids. we played with toys, ran around the house like no one s business, role played and rolled all over the floor, and i have to say i had fun doing those lame stuff and i loved my toys. it was the only time of carefree and letting loose.

there was this point the boy made that struck me: the toys, they will always be there for you.

it s not all about the toys. it s about how WE should be like the toys, how we should be there for one another in times of need and be the pillar or crying shoulder for the people around you. especially since now we (ok maybe just me) i dun talk to toys anymore, i talk to people. i dunno about you, but i had a reasonably good childhood, so i felt it.

next up was KARATE KID. 2 hour 20 min. worth it. a good ending, but it was all expected. perhaps the way the good guy won was eye catching, and that s why it s good. hahah but it kinda got me a little hyped up to do some BCCT aka basic close combat training. i was looking forward to Intermediate CCT in army ocs but now... air force. nope. anyway the movie was cool.

yep that s it. a day of entertainment. brilliant day. this is block leave. :D

a chapter concluded.

there goes another phase. i ve completed somewhat, another bmt.

here s the breakdown:

6 feb 10 +
9 weeks bmt in tekong
1 week block leave
19 april 10 +
2 weeks clm in safti ocs
7 weeks afst in safti ocs
1 week block leave

soon to come:
28 june 10 +
26 weeks afpt in aftc
3 weeks joint term in safti ocs

= COMMISSIONING

ok, that s being positive, and STILL assuming, my knee doesnt give way, i dun do stupid things, and i dun have baygon sprayed all over me.

looking back, it has been 20 weeks in NS! that s an astonishing approximate 5 months. i dunno whether i can declare "time flew" because it didnt quite fly by THAT quickly. it required some amount of praying that the day ends faster, some gritting of the teeth, some trembling of the limbs and quite a significant amount of merrymaking. hahaha. it has been significant.

the last week in safti was er... erm... not so challenging. social night on friday and it was okay. rounded up the term with the closer friends i made in afst, which werent that many, but i m prepared to form some covalent bonds with the gbad guys.

all i m doing now is slacking. so, ask me out next week, before i start to rot at home!


enjoy life people!