Thursday, October 16, 2008

Wish come true

So, i had a wish come true. 2009 JC 2.

Hi J2.
Still with 08S19.
Hope to stick with current combi.
But, bye bye Ms. Ye. :(

Really sad. Darren said something that sort of struck me. These teachers develop feelings for our class, affection, and now they leave half way. I wonder if they know, that it s a 2 way thing. Hui Hui teared after hearing the news and i can understand it. But Ms Ye explained the reason for leaving, and it s absolutely valid and acceptable. We shouldnt hinder her career prospects. All good things come to an end isnt it? Even though this is an abrupt one.

It was a day of mixed feelings. Seeing people not able to make it up together. Sharing the joy of those who did well (those who top the cohort). Heaving a sigh of relief that we got promoted. Trying to understand those who have high expectations and far fetched ambitions. Recieving the announcement of a significant departure. Jumping around the computer. Having impromptu lame interaction session. AND. AND. AND. Having a first time.

FIRST TIME SLEEPING AT A BUS STOP.
it was for about 3 songs, which is about 15 minutes. Just sitting there, listening to my phone songs, even with the exhaust hogging around, with the traffic honking and zooming, i still managed to doze off.

IKEA 2 days in a row.
6 cups of coffee.
Meat balls.
Hot dog.
Class jersey.
Water bottle.
Shoes.
Soccer boots.
Slacking.

I think it s really back to PW and Chinese. Which i dun mind.

I was reading Econs Market Failure. And i don't understand. I really don't.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

Thank You



Why do we fall?
So that we learn to pick ourselves up.







I m really grateful. To everyone. For everything. For making today possible for me. Sometimes, when you are so busy charging into the future, seeking new things. You forget to slow down the pace, and reflect. To be thankful for those who paved your way. Those that made this day possible. Those that made you go through so much.

The encounters.
The endeavours.
The endings.

Through all these, you gain something. Something so valuable that it indeed makes you a better person, a stronger one. That something, it has a name. It's called experience.

It's only when you come to a stumbling block or a great fall that you realise you did something wrong. Or maybe. It's not you who made a mistake. But you are the one to pay for others' faults. Ultimately, you learn something. Whether consciously or subconsciously. You've gain valuable experience. And it is not something that everyone gets to enjoy the benefits of it. Some people lose their lives trying to gain that experience. They failed. But if you managed to survive through this ordeal. The experience is yours for the taking. Be glad. Be thankful.

Even though it might be heart-wrenching, or a new found torture. I want to say thank you for the experience.

I understand. I know you understand too.




Complexity isn't my name. I'm just me.

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Class outing

Hmm people or things i ve been hanging out with for the past days.



Fauna and flora. [APE and WATERLILY/OWL naptime!]



APE's play time!



See them means PW



Best Block of the Season goes to a Pin

435 Class outing yesterday.

PEOPLE: me, ming, shawn, ying lun, jun jie, elian, nicholas, yew tong, jon chen, xian fong, benedict, and an illegal immigrant called jeremy tan.

ILLEGAL ACTIVITIES ENGAGED: bridging, dai dee-ing on the floor outside a toilet, in BK, pool, making a fool of ourselves, loitering in a big pack and travelling around making irritating noises from Paradiz to Park Mall, sneaked to play pool in school name bearing clothes.

A bunch of school boys abusing a poor dog






ACTING pro



Spent 2 days in a row at PS area. Was suppose to go queensway but the pin's indiscipline had us playing soccer instead. and getting whacked by s20. abrasion on right leg was resulted after some badly timed tackle. went to PS for dinner, stinking up the whole place everywhere we went. from food court to carrefour to get TEASE, $2.80. VAlly chip.

Was glad to make a good money saving decision by not going for Sakae Dinner but BK with Jem. almost 4 times cheaper! Yea but it s good to see those retards again. See my teeth? I m smiling!

It s either FIFA or Prison Break this weekend!

But i m tired. I need to have a long deep sleep. Perhaps, that s it, that s enough. I m going to sleep.

Friday, October 10, 2008

Decipher

I just unconciously started to write a numbing thought thinking of leaving everything that you once understate, kindling no old wavered thoughts. Had a talk illicitly, lamenting over vacuous, eclectic yanks, only upon which i tentatively hark. All liberty lost? Maybe. Yet heaving eventual apparent relief that no opponent managed advancement that threatened. Escaped reality. Waited. Hoped apparent truth holds. Anticipated potential problems. Evaded nervy stares. Idyll. A momentary secret tacit. It looked like happiness abound. Never going into negotiation, going on niggardly connection. Apparently silence speaks louder. Oxymoron. Vacillating extensively. Manifest earnestly?


Honestly, it doesnt make much sense.

Tell me if it has been deciphered.

Wednesday, October 08, 2008

PW

PW PW PW. OP OP OP.

That sums up the week so far.

Monday was OP prep. I need to connect to power up.

Tuesday was PW own time own target.

Played some soccer with Ying Lun, Shawn and Yong Pin. And shawn asked me to blog that he and ying lost to me and the pin 19-10. Went to PS with them after that for CJ (carl's junior) dinner. $10.80! Ouch. At least i was starving.

Today. OP prep. nothing much interesting happened. Lunch with baby ape, godfather ape, the mother of all, ms why, waterlilly aka the owl and baby pam. SA is seriously screwed up. All kinds of weirdos. Especially the class 08s19. We have flora, fauna, infants, mutants, and a Mother of all. Ask us if you need a nick.





TAG REPLIES

LOIS - WATER soccer and SOCCER is different ok! i m just doing my job. YA LA YA LA, EVERYTHING ALSO ME.

TOOTHPICK - Yep, thanks, the recovery bar is almost full!

MANN - nah, i m slack already. should organise more stuff. Yea the mother is the real good welfare head!

SAM - there's always room for improvement!

JY - no prob. it s my job! hahaha, the secret affair is for you to guess.

DS - i m not only taking, i m grabbing care! cant afford to be sick when it s time to play. eh, i dun think anyone will go for another water soccer session. and it s so ex! 20 bucks a head, i m not sure about a body though. maybe handball/captain's ball huh. i m BUSY LATELY. very.

REUBEN - lol, what can i say but thanks. hurry end your exams and go for 435 outing this fri!

HUI HUI - you missed! hahaha!

JOLENA - LOL. what do you expect the class to do there! buy furniture for home room next year?

DEARESTS - arent we dating daily already? can we not involve culture and ancestors in our dating sessions, nah, i doubt so.

YING - just laugh.

Saturday, October 04, 2008

Water Soccer

I m sick yet once again. It s really not the norm. JC is really a test of time management. Even after exams, i m sleeping only that meagre amount. Say sayonara to my immune system.

Wednesday was pure slack. Went to IKEA and Giant tampines to soak into the shopping mood again. IKEA has this aura that just takes away all troubles, reminds of good memories and the meatballs are good. Even the coffee machine.

Thursday, PW and MT timetable. Had to rush some stuff for PW. Seems to be going on track. Better sort everything out this weekend. Had some self training and a good long chat with Xiaoping while waiting for him to find his training partner. Bathed and join PW group at KFC before leaving for Bugis Mos and eventually where else but NLB. FEEFAR after work!

Friday similar time table. Rushed Chinese HW and went for water soccer at FICO sports hub. When the first match commenced, my eyebrows were raised. 22 people were in that small space. Kicking everything else except the poor ball. We lost as expected. But nevermind. The subsequent matches got me furious. What s the activity called again? Water rugby? You d be lucky to leave the place unscathed.

The worse feeling is when you see your dear classmates being bullied and not able to do anything about it. No sportsmanship fine. But no fairplay no way. It s not an all male gala or the FIFA World Cup. Think for the girls at least. I thought all of them were equally bad but till i had a one vs one wrestling match with the Malay guy. I went in with all the anger spilling out, determined to win for the class. If being aggressive is the name of YOUR game then i ll play as you call.

But i realised, i was in the wrong match. The guy i was up against was fair though strong. Wrong man. Even though we won that through determined play, i know i made a mistake. Yep and the following match proved it. Anyway, it s over. I dun mind being bullied but not my class. I felt it even though i wasnt the one being injured. It hurt.

Enough ranting. Time for some happy moments. Handball with the class at extra time was good. Real fun. Pure joy. Genuine laughter. Even though the splitting of teams wasnt that fair but it was quite an even match eventually. I get it.

Class outing was sort of successful but felt really guilty for not sorting out where to eat way before hand and Vannessa had to limp around with us. Should have comfirmed things with Lois before it. SORRY CLASS! Lesson learnt - should be sure of everything even though it s not my field. Banquet in the end wasnt that bad. Was thinking of sharing a tub of ice cream with the class but thought things might backfire. Macs after that, some bridge and Fifa. Nice long trip home. Actually slept all the way to Bedok. Amazing. Shows how dead beat i was.

Woke up today aching everywhere from head to toe. The soccer was really physically demanding. Countless headers, full stretch sliding tackles, pushing one another and kicking more water than the ball. Initial illness made it worse, latent heat lost caused fever. Sore throat remain, coughing persists. But i still FIFAed the whole day and was forced to snooze for a while.

Hope will recover by Mon!

Wednesday, October 01, 2008

Craziest day

Promos are over!

But i still cant see what i m posting.

Anyway 30th September 2008 is one of the craziest days of my life so far.

Ridiculously hilariously absurdly crazy.

Must mention something about promos since it s over right. Erm just hope that i can be promoted and get at least all Ds. Not dong seok. Deeeees. Forget about doing well la, promotion is more important now.

Monday, went to yong pin s house to do some PW but obviously digressed a lot as usual. Felt really sorry and guilty for not joining for 'class outing'. It was a dilemma. Did that minimal amount of work till late about 9 plus followed by a long journey home that seemed so short compared to those late Yew Tee days.

Tuesday, Chinese lesson in the morn. Pretty sian but it was quite ok. Post exams hangover. Had Macs breakfast with the usual peeps before going off to the Cage. Refreshing ball kicking time with mostly SA and RJ people. Actually SJI people. Those people whom i dun really know but i just know their name and existance. Played average. Made a couple of mistakes but made up with some noticeable defending and contribution to attacking. Cage is really just a pitch for skills, power and stamina. Yea bravery too. To stand in the route of the ball flying at 100km/h. Left the place with a bruise on right ankle and left calf strain. Sore legs were resulted from the extra time ball ramming and practice header session. Bathed and walked to Kallang Leisure Park. for ice skating. as if.

Just had lunch with the CCK gang and bridge session at KFC for about 2 hours. Then hung around Sportslink, 7-11 just talking rubbish, eating popcorn and drinking slurpee. Good times. Was suppose to go to CCK with them but i decided to go home first before meeting them again for dinner. LONG LONG LONG journey home. 16 took about an hour to reach bedok interchange. I managed to catch some sleep on the freezing bus. then took 18 for almost another hour. Next time i should just take the train. Reached home took a bath got changed and off i go, leaving the house at 8plus PM. I see people alighting the bus, rushing home and here i was boarding the bus heading to town.

Met those crazy idiots at Paragon and had Fish and Co. Sat there till they chased us out. Was trapped at Paragon since it was raining cats and dogs. And so we shared bags, shared ponchos and braved the rain to Unlucky Plaza, took the underpass to Ngee Ann City and built just one bridge on the floor outside some big brand shop when all was dim and dark, with the security guard strolling up and down. Utilised length of legs and brisked walk to MRT and was actually sweating when i reached Orchard MRT. Trained home.

Maybe it s because i havent been doing such things for so long that i feel a total stranger to these occurrances. Now i m burntout and bored. Looking forward to more post promos fun. These things dun just happen like that, it s because i sought for it.

MORE PLANNING TO DO!

OCIP
Matches
Team Chalet
Class outing
MOVIES

Friday, September 26, 2008

JOKE

WOW.

I m posting something i cant even see. Good job singnet. BRILLIANT job.

now d-gerrard.blogspot.com is an Adult Site. RESTRICTED.

what a joke.

and i cant sign in to Messenger. THANKS A TRILLION!

wl-solstice.blogspot.com and coldcriticism.blogspot.com are also ADULT SITES. LOL. havent checked out the other blogs yet. i think every site is an adult site now.

ROCK ON SINGNET FILTERING SERVICE!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

CONCENTRATE

FOCUS!

EVERYTHING ELSE CAN WAIT
JUST CONCENTRATE ON PROMOS!


(even chelsea vs man u)

i m not thinking about anything else other than B C M E GP CL.












tag replies

YING - yes. it s gonna be pure fun.

JY - thanks! you can be the 3rd welfare rep ald.

DS - please dun eat up the computer monitor!

TOOTHPICK - that was done on purpose anyway we are living in a world of fallacies! ritz carlton's simply the best!

LOIS - of course la. it s the most interesting thing that happened during the whole week other than all the late night mugging. nah LPO always has high expectations. vouchers from credit card companies la.

REUBEN - thanks thanks. you too. sure can promote one.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

Dad Birthday

HELLO!



It s LPO's birthday!

(LPO = lim pei ong aka my lao pei)




Went to Meritus Mandarin Hotel at Orchard. VOUCHER OK! Me no rich.


Sample example





Yea simply spammed the chocs on the shelf. The variety and range of chocolates is quite amusing. I was fooled by the 'white chocolate' when in fact it was a sour chocolate. First time tasting a sour choc. Anyway, overall the buffet was average and it doesnt justify the price. Lobster soup was pretty salty. Roast beef average. Ok everything s just average. Ritz Carlton s still da best!

Hmm school s as usual. Just that the days seem longer, the nights seem shorter. Everyday is a brain drain day, simply exhausted. I cant believe exercising the mind can be more tiring than exercising the body until promos is saying hi to me.

Erm what can i say... i m waving to promos too? 4 days is no joke.

I m just another zombie in school. Just for another week.

Tag replies

YING - You know who would win and who already won.

SAM - it s usually the case ma. oooh TCHOUKBALL.

LOIS - hmm true. but you know mugging isnt my cup of tea, nor milo or coffee. haha my goal in life is to get an easy job and life in future. i m that lazy.

HUI HUI - i didnt do anything. the grey clouds wont go off so easily la. it s too complex.

WEI LI - hahaha there s no way i can mug more than you. MUGGER! night study no need to sign up la, you already got your favourite free curry rice!

TOOTHPICK - impossible is nothing! therefore nothing is impossible!

ALWYN - SHIOK ah! LIVERPOOL FC for life! LFC fans are generous and kind hearted, dun worry just rip!

7 - Gee thanks!

Saturday, September 13, 2008

FINALLY

FINALLY

FINALLY

FINALLY


FINALLY THE SCOREBOARD READS:

LIVERPOOL 2 MANCHESTER UNITED 1

the moment my eyes witnessed the ball bulging the net, elation filled me completely. hahaha i cant believe i actually shouted GOAL!!! and started laughing profusely. i guess there was relief as well. the anticipation. the thought that the chance was gone when the ball rolled to the centre of the 6 yard box with no one to be seen. and FINALLY ryan babel came into the screen and swept in from dirk kuyt's cross. the kop went wild. so did i. probably ying lun too, a temporary liverpool fan.

never felt so happy in a long while. never felt so proud of my team before. a team packed with foreigners and spanish internationals. a team that had only the soul left, with the heart left on the bench injured. but i know the authentic Liverpool spirit remains strong. the one i fell in love with. the theme, 'you'll never walk alone' unites all the Liverpool faithful.

thank you Liverpool Football Club! you ve got me going and encouraged. hmm seems like it s back to mugging!

if i mug too hard i ll probably get the mugging withdrawal symptoms after the exams like previous years. but honestly, sa is pretty conducive for mugging. i wonder if i should just stay in school for the entire of next week... sleep, mug, eat, bathe, run that s all i need for this coming week. and probably that extra catalyst and motivation. haha to think it helped me smash my 2.4 record time, anything else s possible!

Liverpool vs Man Utd

Match Of The Day!
The Bloody Battle of the Reds

LIVERPOOL vs MANCHESTER UNITED

7.40pm.

Friday, September 12, 2008

taggies replies

taggies replies

SAM - I bet you had the $100 000 salary right! or you stole all the life tiles!

JOCELYN - After promos lor, we can play as a class. Hmm doesnt SC have a set?

YP - You also right! 'Sprained' ankle huh. Still can fight and flight.

DS - Hail hail!

JY - Mugamania ma. How to be funny about it? Anyway just feeling drained everyday.

LOIS - nah, it will be a miracle if i get As. i m sick daily. sick of school and mugging.

TOOTHPICK - welcome! seems like i need more kit kats every now and then. desperate for breaks.

HUI HUI - oil prices soaring. cannot add too much æ²¹. but will add sufficient for the engine la. thanks, you too!

YING - 2 more weeks of hell, 3 weeks to heaven.

MUGAMANIA

There s seriously a mugamania going on. In the school, in the class, everywhere. Scary to see such things happening. And the best thing to do now is simply to join the mugamania and scare everyone else. A better way than how viruses spread.

I kinda start to dislike Septembers and Octobers.
P6, pushing my head out of a manhole targetting all the top schools, boy schools and at least achieve a touching distance with my sister.
Sec 1 trying to prove that secondary school life s manageable.
Sec 2 streaming to get into the combination i wanted.
Sec 3 trying to scrape the bottom of the barrel with all the soccer, enjoying new life in long pants
Sec 4 simply pia-ing whenever possible making sure everything in the textbook is in that compact space in my skull. AND
Jc 1, salvaging all the mistakes i ve made in common test to fight to get promoted, stay in possibly the best class to be in in sa, and obtain a better looking report card.

WHEN WILL THIS EVER END?

A levels next year, sort of glad there s a 2 year academic break after that before deciding to embark on a life determining path. I have a path in mind but that path starts today. It starts IF Astroboy become my friend. Batman aint that bad, but he may not be enough to define this path.

SIGH

Enough of ranting. 13 years of continuous study - 13 out of 17. That s the Singapore education system just gotta accept it, nuff said.

Thursday was pretty fine. GP presentation was amazingly smooth. PE was chook? throok? chuke? ball i think chuke ball. Haha i gotta agree with zhengda that a chess game is more exciting. Ok maybe not. Maybe the court s too crowded or no interception makes it a super dead game. But it was probably a good game for the girls to have a laugh seeing me miss countless times. Actually it was 4 times only. I just cant seem to have a proper feel of the ball, it s not heavy, not light just weird. A full power shot doesnt gurantee an accurate shot. Anyway i gave up shooting.

Went for math remedial. Differentiation questions were pretty difficult. Was lost easily maybe coz Gabs kept ka jiaoing me with the integration questions. Clarified those doubts with Tim after the whole thing. It was just a session of 'OHH i see.. 'Anyway i figured out i shouldnt spend so much time on integration, since it s only 10 marks. Overall it was a good day, started well ended well.

Today, assembly was inspirational. Video about a baby called Joel (jewel) was involved in a murder planned accident and he was burned 80% (lol except diapers). Lost his fingers, toes and was disfigured. However, the way he views life is really touching. He s wise, considerate, matured, magnanimous. Even with his disabilities, he s still happily married.

We should be contented with what we have.
Hatred only brings about misery.

How true. A pure heart of gold is what matters most. Physical appearance is just superficial.

PE was cancelled. But i still ran 2.4km. Personal best 9.40. I could have pushed harder towards the end but i m contented with this.

Math after school again. Wasnt as productive but still, it was better than nothing. Simply brain-drained. Went out for dinner with family to AMK hub and some grocery shopping. Nice relaxation that i sorely missed. Finally some family bonding after a long time. Refreshing despite being dead tired.



Smiling all da way. And it s that gaze again.

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

Survival

I m simply glad to survive through today. Migraine served me well the whole day. Thanks a lot. But i wont need your service anymore. Please scram, save me from some torture.

When i wake up tomorrow, i hope not to see, eh no, feel you again.

Going through 3 tutorials was mind blowing. Writing an essay was pure torture. At least there are still people around who pulled me through.

"Should i stay or should i go?" and Serangoon Gardens podcast. Gee thanks. (That s genuine)

Monday, September 08, 2008

So it shall be

So it shall be.

I m just rotting my life away. Maybe i m trying, trying too hard. (No copyright violation of Empty because i changed a word.) So much to do, but the motivation isnt there. I spent so much time on it, but i wonder how much i ll get in return. But I know for sure it s contributing to more stress and fatigue.

If i m graded on effort now, i should get an A. Compare it to the time before CTs.

Ironically, we Josephians say this so often during prayer, even i can recite it to you.

teach me to be generous
teach me to serve you as you deserve
to give and not to count the cost
to fight and not to heed the wounds
to toil and not to seek for rest
to labour and not to seek reward
except that of knowing that i do your will

how difficult is that to achieve. Morning prayers in SJI are so meaningful yet i never cherished. how i miss those days..

Even though my quote of the day is

"I never fail to fail,"

my quote of the day for tomorrow is still

"Come what may."
For i shall not collapse even if the last man falls. A pillar of strength? nah, more of a last choice desperate help option.

just wanna say even if the sky falls, i m still here. I m not a man for myself, but a man for others..

Sunday, September 07, 2008

End of Sept Hols

A blink of the eye and ta ta September hols.

All i have been doing is just staring at the notes all over again with nothing going in. And trying to complete all my overdue tutorials. Boring boring boring. Sick of being stuck at home.

I still gotta revise my Arenes first, then finish the tutorial. And start on Hydroxy tutorial. Before that i still gotta stare at Chem bonding to fully understand what s going on in these bleddy compounds to give them their properties. Never fully grasp the Chem Bonding concepts.

Bio, havent started on anything. Gotta read Campbell for stem cells and human genome then do the tutorial. Better do something for Maclaurin s too. Obviously there wont be anytime for econs. Gotta dig out some time and mood to read everything from Cost of Production to understand why on Earth the curve (or rather line) looks like that on the graph.

2 WEEKS! scary.

Hahaha and i was playing the game of Life with my sis that night. That shows how bored i was.



Oh and i was a hopeless doctor drawing a salary of $70 000 living in some house that cost $140 000 in a place with tornadoes. How cool is that.

Ohh lots of tags to reply..

SAM - haha you seem to be the most loyal fan of mine tagging straight after i post. Hmm ok i should start experimenting with the other fonts to find out which is the smallest.

YING - in the end also didnt meet to study. maybe one of these days then.

JOLENA - hahaha true but a stove still needs a spark to light up and feel warm.

REUBEN - DON'T TEMPT ME!!! i had to go through so much withdrawal symptoms when those writers went on strike, not gonna start just before promos. 3 WEEKS!

HUI HUI - yea gotta endure through everything ahead. gotta befriend 'Peseverance'. really dangerous to leave my phone lying around.

LOIS - hmm i prefer adidas.. Impossible is nothing. Just do it sounds reckless. FPSP s still not comfirmed though. thanks anw.

JOCELYN - nah it s not amazing. it s only 2 megapix? haha and you should keep your stuff with yourself if not it will suffer the same fate as my phone, especially with these curious classmates around. thanks for well wishes, not comfirmed though!

CASSIE - awesome as in i did 'some' work or FPSP or i found a solution to stress? haha i assume it s FPSP but no gurantee going aussie yet. Realised still gotta go through another round of evaluation in australia. But i m satisfied with a top 5!

DS - hmm yea i m just happy we got through to top 5 even without completing step 5. told ya i had stomachache rite and i didnt expect anyone i know to stroll pass.

Thursday, September 04, 2008

Mixed Feelings

I'm so proud of myself when i look at the state of my room now. 3 fat files with dividers, another 3 smaller files due to the teachers' requirements. And i got lists of topics for every subject, which will soon turn into formula lists. Sorted out everything till 3 am plus. But still managed to roll out of bed to do some work in school at 7.

I figured out i should complete all my homework first instead of mugging wholesale now.



>>>Dun get it wrong, this i not an advertisement for Nike.

Basically spent the morning doing GP at level 3 toilet block. It s one of the most conducive places to study, one of my favs. The toilet s there, water cooler, and natural air con. And there s occasional piano music coming from the 'starbuck like cafe'. Apart from some stares from cleaners and some people having lessons going to the toilet, and a Timothy walking past without saying hi, it was a peaceful morning. Benches are good because you can lie down and take a power nap or do some sit ups to chase away a stomachache. Supposed to run, but the heavens opened.

Overall it was a day of mixed feelings. Timo messaged me that we got through to the next round of FPSP, top 5 in Singapore. That means we are going to Australia! The paper says 17 October is the competition date, and that will clash with PW sessions and Chinese intensive lessons.



>>> I found this in my phone.

Honestly i'm shocked that we got through. I guess credit has to go to Wei Li, for his step 6. My only contribution was the drawings for that step which was quite rushed but at least i practised for it ok. Just awaiting the evaluation done by the judges.

I know what it meant, but do you really want me to say it? I can, if you want. I was thinking of the sentence the whole day and it sure wiped out a number of brain cells looking out for hidden meanings, just like an extended GP comprehension. In the end i think i got it, but it s difficult to response. It's understood.

I guess the next time i mug, i should really bring my charger along. Battery almost went flat in a few hours. With the songs playing, the only button i pressed was the one with the vertical equal sign. Never the one with the square.

Quote of the day


"Priority. 4 weeks. Gimme that."




Thinking never halts. Stress accompanies it. Solution= sleep.

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

September Holidays

I m distracted.

I wonder if songs are keeping me focussed or making me drift. Maybe i think too much. Should just forget about everything and concentrate on the content in the book. But these songs just keep playing in my head especially certain parts:

Blind- Lifehouse
After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But i couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That i loved you more that you'll ever know

Like A Knife - Secondhand Serenade
Stay with me
Or watch me bleed
I need you just to breathe

What About Now - Chris Daughtry
What about now?
What about today?
What if you're making me all that i was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late.
What about now?

Now that we're here
Now that we've come this far
Just hold on
There is nothing to fear
For i am right beside you
For all my life
I am yours


Sing to the tune!

The weather is really screwed. Raining non-stop in September? That s depriving me of my long runs. And making me freeze in the early morning. But strangely, i feel warm just being reminded of that frag... smell.

Lessons yesterday, barely survived through. PWed till late at Macs. Finished my dinner at home at 1am. PERSONAL BEST. Snoozed and had a hard time getting out of bed for econs. Took train instead to paya lebar coz i know i ll definitely be late if i took 8. And cabbed to sch from there. It was sheer enlightenment when i flagged down a Merc cab and a smiling journey because the cabbie was so friendly and injected bursts of genuine laughter. He introduced a new short cut route to me from paya lebar to school that made me seem like total noob in the area. Haha but it was a pleasant journey and i didnt feel a pinch at all spending 7 dollars with this fella. In the end i managed to reach the classroom in time for lesson.


Quote of these 2 days:


'I'm afraid of falling into a deep dungeon when i'm on the other end of
your mesmerizing gaze.'





I'm just testing out how small these fonts can go.
But i realise it's not that minute afterall.
Smile. :D

Sunday, August 31, 2008

Tag replies

Haha, ok here comes the routine tag replies to my loyal fans.

HUI HUI - er, ok makes sense too since i see you peeps about half a day every weekday. I should stare at the ball for the other half of the day. yea, i m definitely sleeping more now, really need it.

YING - haha yea, sorta miss the olumpigs now. and i remember our pact that was suppose to be fulfilled last year. i dun mind pushing to 4 years time! thanks for concern, feeling never better now. there are other things for me to ponder about.

CASSIE - wont die la. no one i know who sat for a piano exam failed. dun worry you wont be the first even if it s 9/11 or 11/9 or 1/19, just keep practising!

LOIS - yea, you said reduced. it still cant be solved. whoa, if some PAP member sees this, you d better hide in Potong Pasir forever! haha. better stop bridging for the time being. it s too hazardous.

JOLENA - ... ... that rhymes too.

JING YAN - Welcome to my fan club!

SAM - if i reply to your tag, and you reply to this tag, by the end of the year, we ll still be talking about my sweat.

JEREMY- me dun get what you talking. CJ s good, SA s too.

Bored

I m bored.

There s really nothing to do at home. It s either the computer, the tv, or the radio for entertainment. Nothing to do online, nothing to watch on tv, same old songs to listen on the radio or the amplifier.

At least i m starting on some work. (Emphasizing 'some')

Haha, and i did something stupid. Maybe it was inevitable but it was clumsy of me considering the fact that i m usually cautious. Nevermind that, it s the truth anyway.

Oh how trapped i am at home that i ran out of things to blog about. Soccer? Liverpool playing Aston Villa in a few minutes, hope i ll be able to catch it on livefooty.

There s this thing buzzing around me the whole day, is it an insect or just imaginary, or am i going bonkers? Hmm no, I m just making it sound stupid i m not gonna chase after some small insect everywhere. Yep, that s it. :D

Friday, August 29, 2008

EXHAUSTED

i m typing this with my eyes half opened, as it has always been for the past week. Simply exhausted. Include a burnt out after soccer today.

Shall quickly give a summary of the week.

Mon, erm. what happened?

Tue, oh service learning. Lessons after lessons. Macs breakfast was something new.

Wed, early dismissal. ocip. ran 2.4km. lousy timing.

Thur, wet day. long tiring day. math remedial. touch rugby, plaza sing.

Fri, teachers day, concert, sji, ccab, serene centre.

That s about it. just add the word FATIGUE to every day this week and it completes the equation. Mind saying yes, body saying no, pimples saying hello. My brain says endure, my body dying. Made a final push to end term 3. But disappointingly.

Started the term strongly, completing work, knowing my stuff, finally getting some positive results. But it all died down when the term wore on. Fatigue kicked in.

Having a mixture of feelings now. I m pretty neutral about SA s teachers day. Went to school late and had a bad stomach just as what i told wei li i should have to miss the aces day dance. But it turned out to be fun as what the others said. Concert was quite ok at first but got boring as it dragged on. Passed the gifts to the teachers. I know how happy they are to receive such things. Especially in front of the other teachers. It shows many things.

Went back to SJI. Just met up with the 435 gang, and migrated to CCAB for soccer. A bit of drama unfolded when the ball was pierced by the plant. But overall it went well. I played well. But could have done better. Defended and attacked. One man defence and managed to keep out several comfirmed goal chances, stood my ground and halted Nabhan too many times for his liking. Did some dribbling but lost out in the end. Wasted another glorious chance to score from Christ free kick. Really honoured to play along his side and have him on my team. Such a good player.

Ying lun told me something that made me quite sad. I could really feel my heart sink. But i know it was always a possibility and it didnt matter to me that much. All i can say is that they really made a huge loss. Not that i m saying i m a gem, but i m confident of what i am able to do and make a difference. If the emphasis is on something else, which i believe is equally important, then it comprimises what s truly the objective of it. I have no answer to such rash decisions, in fact i m clueless. But if that is what s wanted, then i accept it. Ultimately, it has been merely a bonus all along and i didnt expect much. This is where my pessimistic thoughts come in handy. They cushioned the impact. The expectations were low. The impact was just as low. I just wish to say good luck. And sorry to those who had high expectations for me. I ve let you down.

On a happier note, Macs at serene centre was pretty fun. It just took away all my negative thoughts and enjoyed myself building bridges and the company of the good ol' buddies. Just wanna thank you guys for bring so much joy and laughter to my life.

And wanna add that the interaction s good. Brought to a new level. I m truly happy. It s pretty clear i guess. I have been picking out what s been dropped. It isnt easy you know! I guess it s never easy for anyone.

Keep going!

Mugging week ahead! Getting into the mood!

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Tag replies

Tag replies:

TIM- my life revolves around a ball, what else can you expect? OCIP is progressing silently, let s be encouraged by that. you are doing great, thanks for all the overtime work. remember 11 september. and remember to rest, dun die!

JOLENA - so? so? that means i m too HAWT!

YING - MUG MUG MUG!

LOIS - MUG MUG MUG! the only acceptable bridge is bridging lectures.

SHAWN - good but beatable.

CASSIE - buy more! then we can have more 12.34 countdowns!

SAM - you should be honoured! heh.

Heavy

Photo vomitting time, i just realised i still have some pics from the soccer match 2 weeks ago in my phone.






I think i ll get a Predator.

Last Sat, went to Suntec City coz mum wanted to catch the French Spiderman scaling the building. So i actually stood there for more than an hour watching the joker climb up tile after tile. The video i took was so boring that i think you ll fall asleep before he even reach the 2nd storey.

The emcee of the event was trying his best to entertain the crowd with his constant rumbling about the kids on the stage pulling his belt, taking off his pants blah blah blah. But at least it he did his job to entertain the crowd. The initial winner of the lucky draw was dumb enough to disappear from the venue and he lost the car. Some other woman won it after a redraw. Went for dinner at Ichiban, enjoying the laser works and songs at the same time while eating. Just feels so good to be in touch with the world once again.

Sunday, mug day.

Monday, Monday blues.

Tuesday, Chinese test. For the first time i got a 72 and hit the top. Miracles do happen. I thought i ll just fill up all the slots for the bottom for every subject. I should have remained as a mugger at CJ, answering every question the teacher ask, doing all tutorials, sitting up STRAIGHT and listening attentively and do notes during lectures. Being branded as a nerd isnt that bad afterall. Coming to SA broke my momentum. SIGH.

GP MSA in the afternoon. ok this time i ll just fail. Summary was bad, AQ was worse. Did some work at Tau Huey's after that.

Wednesday, service learning preparation. The class ( cassie, jocelyn, jing yan, jolena) did the booklet. Felt quite bad not doing anything apart for some pathetic cutting. But i realised i couldnt do much coz i wasnt there for the part 1 session when most of the class went. I could only comment on the performance by the kiddos which i witnessed. Anyways, enjoyed every moment at Tau Huey's after that with timo, cassie and lois. Even though it was mostly criticising and making a joke out of the optical illusion pyjamas.

Thursday, GP debate. Screwed up pretty badly. I wasnt prepared. Cooked up several last minute points and obviously there was no flow. I think i ll have to redo another presentation. PE was tag rugby. Quite fun, but i still find it kinda retarded. Had self training after school at first with Gabs, just ran 6 rounds starting from lane 1 to 6. Kept a constant pace for Gabs. Had some soccer with Shawn and Benjamin. Wasted a glorious chance with a header. Brilliant cross from Ben but i let him down when the ball came into contact with the wrong part of my head. Wasted.

Ying Lun came and had track self training together with Xiao Ping. 300m sprints in 55 sec. Pretty fun in fact. Rain came and had to stop, so did stationary exercises instead.

Friday, PE, Ho didnt come. Had basketball. Sorry to the girls who had to bring home some of my precious sweat. Did quite a lot of running so inevitably will sweat. Sprinted after that.

Chem SPA was ok. Vomitted almost everything from the notes.
Econs was draggy. Just glad that i had food. Honey waffle and cookies. heh.
Math remedial was average. But revision for MD and MI was really important.

Today, met up with Ying Lun at Tau Huey's for some mugging in the morning. It wasnt very good but cleared some doubts and had immediate answers to questions, so it was quite effective in a way. Macs for lunch (bad for health and wallet) then went to school for the National Song Writing Competition. Quite a waste time. The turnup rate was quite pathetic too. Yep and the SCGS girl is the only one who deserves to win.




>>> The event ended off with a cannot-be-anymore-cornier-and-disgusting bye bye song. To think it s a national schools event and with the Lee composer brothers present.

Ying Lun s quote of the day: "My class is like global warming, the problem cannot be solved."

Continued with some mugging at Tau Huey's before going to Broadway for dinner and some Olumpigs treat. Another long trip home got me thinking. I'm thinking.

Currently, i m feeling sore. Inside out. Everything s so heavy. I literally cant breathe. My mind is filled with one thought for the whole day. I think i fell. Real hard.

Mind in a whirl, heart in a stir.

Make it obvious or keep it as oblivious?

They rhyme... just like with my life.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

Ups and Downs

Yesterday was a day that ended on a high for me. Track and SC vs Teachers, full pitch match. Started as CB, cleared my lines, did my passing well - long and short, throw ins, made some runs and even attacked. Neutralised the teachers pretty well. At least speed was of some use for the match. Ended the match as a CM, did plenty of running up and down up and down up and down. CM is fun, but tiring. Loved to alternate between attack and defence. Launched several counters, had wing play, pulled the strings, box offence, clearance header. In short, it was one of the better performances ever. Made no mistakes. heh.

But my studs are gonna spoil soon. i think it might be the last time i wear this pair of boots. Coz the next time i play would most likely be after promos, that is after 7 weeks. By then i know i ll be so happy then i ll go buy another pair. This is called 'giving in to temptation and a moment of HIGHness'.

Anyway, i m happy with my performance yesterday, even though i know others who didnt enjoy it not to mention the word happy.

Today, school was pretty slack. Fridays are the best day of the week. Assembly, math, PE, break, bio, break, pw, chem. Compared to MONDAYS. argg. But it just feels empty and weird today. Probably due to the absentees. or maybe i m just tired. Softball, average. The only highlight was when i caught Fly Ball which i didnt realise till seconds the next batter changed. Nah still cant bat for nuts. And we gonna have interclass.. s17 s good.

Math remedial was pretty productive, actually sat and did work with all the noises and distractions. The breeze was good. Loved it totally. Felt in comfort but empty.

ok i m tired. time to sleep. nitez.

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Moments

Ying Lun is right, damn the Olympics. I just wasted my whole day watching sport after sport, havent even started doing any work. SIGH.

Ok i m gonna get the Secondhand Serenade album, the songs are good, hope it doesnt cost a bomb.

Got this stinging backache since the start of the week and it got worse after the match. It could have been the collision with Brandon or Ruddy for the header. Now my hamstring and groin aches as well, didnt stretch and warm up but still played for 90 minutes. Hope it recovers by Thursday, match against the teachers! Really gotta win this if not i will never get into the mood to study for promos. Thought hard about the match yesterday.

Arg and my wisdom tooth is irritating. Guess i m getting wiser by the day as it pushes out more. Consult me for problems! I ll give you a wise answer.

Missing those moments, can't wait for more...

Tags replies:

Hui hui - Yea i think i prefer sunsets to sun rises, it marks the start of a vibrant night. I m as nocturnal as Wei Li. ok not so. You just have to say "No trump" to Cassie to make her happy.

Jolena - SO doesnt sound nice.. i prefer RE. MI and DO are pretty good too. Add them to your posts!

Lois - No retarded hui hui pic in my phone. It was deleted. Haha i didnt seduce wei li, he auto come one.

Cassie - Haha quite true, it s the only phone that is 'turnable'. The others are mostly 'slidable' or 'flippable'. Hahaha now i m so fascinated with the word turnable (if it is a word at all!)

Match against CJC

Match against CJC soccer team today.

Lost 2-1.

Here's some pics.



>>> Jeremy before the match stealing my water. Like this shot i took.



>>> All depressed



>>> Ying, the solo shot you always wanted.



>>> And the team shot that we always wanted. But never complete. And it s still not complete. From front left to right: Shawn, Ting Soon, Ming, Me, Christ, Jeremy, Ying Lun, Zi Xiang, Bo Yang, Jun Jie. Missing: Lucas, Andy, Benedict, Wei ian, Reuben, Jethro, Ryan.

Hmm i m quite sad about what happened today. Even though i played quite well, we lost, and Bo Yang's leaving the team.

The defence today was strong. I loved the way how we complemented one another, maybe Afiq was quite the odd one out coz he never played with us before, but it was still good. I did plenty of running, touched the ball quite often, missed only one header. Maybe the throw in killed my game. Really SORRY ming for throwing to you at that height, i miss calculated the expected bounce as well. The ball was suppose to bounce once, and at most to knee level for easy control. But the ground was hard and dry, no grass, so it bounced to Ming's head and Brandon robbed him. Sigh.

I m glad though that i m becoming a lot better. From a paranoid noob with no technical skills at all, to someone who can at least hold, pass, pump, and do some essential tricks. I feel more natural and comfortable at right back, the position i ve played so far ever since i started. There s hardly any competition for that position because only 2 right backs in the world score goals regualarly, and they are Daniel Alves and Sergio Ramos. Even they dun score many actually. People just want to score goals, want to attack. They never see the art of defending, to do the dirty job.

I ve grown to be more brave, because i know my body is stronger, pain is no obstacle. Clearing headers and last ditch blocks are painful to most, but if you dun do it, i dun do it, then who's gonna do it? Just a moment of pain won't kill, but a moment of cowardly thought is fatal.

Went up against Ruddy today. He was arguably the best player in SJI, adjectives include unstoppable. I managed to halt him several times, out pace, out jump and out smart him. He s still human afterall. All i needed was just composure. I know experience counts too. i need more games under my belt, to be exposed to more situations, to learn to cope with them.

Jeremy wanted me to support the RM more, but how was i suppose to support? With Bo Yang going up so often, Ming was stranded at the back alone so many times. And i dun have that boundless energy to run up and down the flank every time, sometimes for nothing, or just to serve as a distraction to pull away one defender.

Going against Arnold was challenging, coz he was always cutting in and when ever he advances, the full back runs up. So i have to decide whether to stick to him or follow the overlapping run. But i think i made the right decisions mostly and pressured him and committed myself, managed to win a couple of tackles.

Ok anyway i m feeling really tired now. Soccer aint easy. It s not all about physical strength and technical skills, but the brains to think and of course the name of the game is to pass.

Friday, August 08, 2008

Happy Week

Ok, whatever pictures that are found in my phone are up here.




>>> Even Wei Li cant resist my gay attraction

Tue was Chem Lecture test, by now i ve known the result which is 15.5 out of 25. To be honest, for the mistakes i made, it s quite a good result. Didnt think of a better way to do qn 2 and forgot totally about bolzman. (hahaha, i dun even know if it s spelt like that)

Wed, 2 more lecture tests. Bio and econs. Fell asleep the night before, hardly even covered anything. Just had to make do with what i revised on Sunday. Hardly even touched econs, only galnced through last minute. Anw dun think will do well. These tests are really important, since i screwed up CTs, so i cant afford any slip ups, OR.. i ll be roasted

OCIP moving pretty well, just need to call up one person, proposal s pretty good so far, but still room for improvement.

Thursday, PE was some scolding session. Dunno what s his problem. Anw captain s ball s fun because i ve got a more advanced role. Thanks Darren for doing the dirty job this time. In fact i was playing in my best position, the DM, so it s FUN, no more monkeying.

After bio pract, had some discussion for ocip and also the national day costume thingy. Badminton was fun. hahah yep Tim, sji guys are naughty! Left school in the rain, tau hueyed, built bridges and went home.







Today, National Day celeb! It was mainly just 2 hours plus in the hall trying to fix the costume and listening to saints idols singing. Yea just a slack day. Went to kitchen after that to celebrate August kiddos, Diana and Yong Pin. It was pretty simple, it s difficult to organise something sophisicated when there s so many things happening at the same time. Busy busy busy.

Had some fun in the kitchen, then left for Broadway (not the one in America, the one in PP) for lunch with Yong Pin, Zheng Da, Darren, Tim, Cassie, Jolena, Lois and Wei Li. Dunno why felt so tired and managed to sleep when the place s so hot and had a mixture of all kinds of food plus oil smell. Ate Lois' leftovers coz i couldnt decide what to eat, was too lazy to go buy and could save money at the same time. Survivors were Tim, Cassie, Jo, Lois and Wei Li.

Tim and Jo went to mug at Esplanade (ask them for details if you are curious). heh. While the rest of us went to Queenstown to meet Gabs after his A star interview at Buona Vista. Bussed to Queensway, looked around, shoes, jerseys, batons.

Moved to ikea, gabs and wei li ate hot dog and ice cream, i saved money. I m really proud of myself, i survived on only $5 for 2 days!!!! Usually it s at least $7 for 2 normal school days but i managed to scrimp and save (unconciously) even when i went out for 2 consecutive days. ok gotta thank cassie for setting an example and influencing to save money.

Had more fun time at the ikea cafe and left after some happenings. Trained home after that. It was a good day.







>>> My phone is really that fascinating.








>>> It was just a nice sunset again on the bus home. That s a kite btw.

K match tml, gotta go sleep early! Fell alsp while watching the Olympics opening ceromony, just couldnt keep my eyes open.

Test on Tue! Mug mug mug!

Tuesday, August 05, 2008

Unwell

Unwell - Matchbox Twenty




Just the song for me now.



Unwell

All day staring at the ceiling
Making friends with shadows on my wall
All night hearing voices telling me
That I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like
Im headed for a breakdown
And I dont know why

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be...me

Im talking to myself in public
Dodging glances on the train
And I know, I know theyve all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think there must be something wrong with me
Out of all the hours thinking
Somehow Ive lost my mind

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of meIm not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Ive been talking in my sleep
Pretty soon theyll come to get me
Yeah, theyre taking me away

But Im not crazy, Im just a little unwell
I know right now you cant tell
But stay awhile and maybe then youll see
A different side of me
Im not crazy, Im just a little impaired
I know right now you dont care
But soon enough youre gonna think of me
And how I used to beYeah, how I used to be
How I used to be
Well, Im just a little unwell
How I used to be
How I used to be
Im just a little unwell

Saturday, August 02, 2008

Tag replies

First and foremost, i would like to brag about a feat that i ve achieved. and that is ... *drumroll*

THE VIRUS YOU PEOPLE ARE GETTING WAS FROM ME!!!!

HaHaHaHaHAHAHhahahah! i m sadistic.

Thank you for being such kind customers and recieve whatever i give. 'it is in giving that we receive'!

Ok cut the crap, many sorries to all the unlucky folks who kena-ed the coughing, fluing, fevering. I should have quarantined myself at the Sahara Desert. SA is now a sick bay!

Anyways, i got my retribution and am BURNT once again. feeling damn hot now, and i need to sleep. So, i ll just quickly reply you loyal folks' tags now!


Sam - Hey! You again! Haha, soft ball is the no-brainer substitute for captain s ball. Please dun play soft ball for PE again, i rather play capt ball!

Mann - Yea i hope to get well soon, the cough is killing me! At least more people are suffering with me now! hahaha.

Hui Hui - Why you always like to say 'okay okay or k' har?

Reuben - HEY GAY PARTNER! You better come for match on National Day!

Ying - Yea, farewell was good. We split the job quite well and it all turned out pretty nice just a little awkward to sit around in the cafe saying nothing. As for the interview, i ll just say Come What May.

Lois - Aiya now not cool ald, there are still smarter people out there who are called 'inventors'. Dun worry la, i wont think till explode, still gotta go sleep and dream of more PW ideas. People tear up the pic you still fix it back, aiyo. Anw i m just hoping that those 2 people dun chance upon this blog.

Not Dinnering at Home Week

I was thinking what should i title this post. And after some thinking, i came up with 'Not Dinnering at Home Week'. Yep this is the week that i spent tons on food and all the miscellaneous stuff.

Monday, LTA Learning Journey. Lessons ended at 12, journey started at 3. Left school for Land Transport Authority at Little India. It was a pretty refreshing experience, havent had this type of 'excursions' for a long time. Flew back to school for training after that. Long run half an hour. It was one of the worst runs, phlegm choking, couldnt breathe, but i endured through it.




>>> The sunset was exceptionally beautiful that day after training.


Tuesday, Kueh Chang Day! Went to Kim Choo at East Coast Road for some Peranakan session, but it was merely just a mini class outing. Not the whole class but it was still pretty fun, just eating and slacking. Flew down to the PS to find a card for Weng's farewell and met ying lun there. Had dinner at Food Court and migrated to the Cathay.



>>> Trade mark B & J shot

Had the Adidas 20% voucher from sundown marathon, and the condition is to only buy things from the adidas shop there so after approval from shawn, we got a soccer ball. A clean one.

Wednesday, half the class missing due to leadership thingy.



>>>Mann's masterpiece on my Math lecture book


>>> Lois's masterpiece on a table in the ME class

Did some open house stuff after school and realised i had to go home to get the Rapture ticket and flew home late. Took a bath, changed and chionged out. Only realised that i didnt bring the ticket afterall when i reached the MRT. SO i had to fly all the way back to get it and finally meeting the rest at City Hall. Samantha, Vanessa, Lois, Gabriel.

Rapture was pretty good. Can tell the amount of effort they put in. Great job dancers. [the guys are really overused]


>>> Ok, i found this in my phone.

Thursday, training and Weng s farewell.





>>> RETARDS!

Had a little surprise for weng, eluded him to my locker where his gift is.



>>> GAYS!



Farewell was pretty successful. Food, drinks, gift, card, 'performance', taupok, mash, hugs and surprises. Hoped he appreciated what we did. This sets a higher standard for the J2 farewell...


Friday, Parent teacher meeting. It wasnt that bad. Anw i didnt expect it to be bad.

Saturday, OPEN HOUSE.

Went to school at 7 plus and studied a little but slept a whole lot till 9.30. The breeze was really soothing and comfortable at the 3rd level. I was just shagged anw, rushed some track stuff at night and the whole week s lack of sleep. I think the tests this week were pretty ok for me, i could do most of it. Had exco interview today. Really got me pondering.

Since everyone s emoing, i should add an emo pic too.

Haha! Not emo enough right. Sunsets fascinate me. The long dark shadows, orange and red, just so warm and cosy.

Gotta study! 3 tests coming up, but I m still pondering..

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Tags replies.

Ok i shall mass reply tags here, coz i realise it s quite difficult and inappropriate to reply on your tagboards.

Jolena - Yep i did indicate my presence! Go check all your comments! Gaying is my speciality, sorry i cant stop that!

Hui Hui - Yep i do update when i feel like and have something to say. Thx for the concern for my illness. Regarding what happened, i know you ll understand.

Lois - Nah, Cedar is. They are bonded as a school. St. Margs is bonded by cliques. and yep, i m on the road to recovery.

Ds - One day, one fine day, and i hope that day when we see the sunset together, we ll be on that Cambodian beach you were talking about. I hope you are managing well on your own recently for OCIP, these are some things i cant help you if Ms Ye demands that you do it.

Mann - HELLO! you really do like giving nicknames to people huh!

WL - Downhill is more thrilling! Like on a slide. But if you go down too quickly, your butt will hurt, so i think we shld climb up instead!

Jocelyn - Haha yea. I m feeling better. Thanks!

Cassie - Nah, you did well, what matters is that you ve tried your best. Same goes for today.

Ying - It aint stupid answers, it s da truth! Haha yea and i admit your PW is worse off.

Sam - Yep, i m sure it ll be resolved. Thx for encouragement!

Weekends

The week s been pretty emo.

I just wanna recover from this illness, finish everything that i need to and just sleep. Had a long sleep last night but was one of fragments. Fatigue s taking it s toll. Still tired. I m sort of looking forward to this coming week. EVERY DAY s something new.

Monday - LTA learning journey
Tuesday- Kueh Chang Chinese Cultural
Wednesday - Rapture
Thursday - Weng s farewell
Friday- THE MOST EXCITING - Parent Teacher Meeting

The most happening week ever, every day gonna be back home late. And the following week is test after test. Oh how screwed can i be.


Anyway back to the usual "WHAT I DID THIS WEEK LISTING"

Wednesday, hui hui s birthday. Sort of celebrated with a small cake lois bought and gave the present. It was just a mini celeb in a classroom.

Thursday, PE was soccer, played pretty well just that i scored an own goal. Deflected the ball past Tim when i misjudged and miskicked i think Gabriel s shot. Otherwise, i would say i did what i could to save my team defended and created chances. Linked quite well with some other class guy, Brandon. he s pretty good, nice late run to score from my corner. At least i m proud to say i passed to every team mate before but almost gave Jolena a concussion. haha. Sorry about that! Didnt see you coming.




>>> This is what i find in my phone when it s left to some one else s care.

Training after school was quite slack. Did exercises, lunges, squats, hamstring, crunches, core, and a bit of running. Training hard! Discussed about the farewell stuff till late.

Friday, even more slack. PE captains ball. Fun class time. Although i must say i m quite sick of always being the one jumping up and down. It s the most difficult job on the court. It s even more difficult than being a goalkeeper. Decisions have to be made within split seconds, whether to jump or not to jump whether to move or not to move whether to charge or not to charge. And the main thing is whether to go for it or not to go for it. There are shots that are impossible to save unless you get physical and really snatch the ball out of the captains hands. But you must risk injuring your self or the captain, that is the biggest decision to make, to concede or risk injury. There are so many times i just let my opponent score and feel bad about it but come to think of it, that s the right choice to make.

Anyway, i dun wanna be defender again!!

Had math remedial after sch at the canteen. It was a good session actually, good weather, good revision.

Left for Dhobby Ghaut after that. Went to zap up the last 2 best tics for The Dark Knight at the Cathay 8.30pm. Then walked around, had a light but expensive dinner. A hot dog that cost $5.80 and a Taiwan snack that cost $3.50. DAMN SCARY. Almost 10 bucks gone like that.
Migrated to Ben and Jerry s to do some Math before Ying Lun came and spent some 6 bucks on Waffle and ice cream. Saw Ian Chai there, changed a lot. Haha and i met Jason and Ms Tan too. I think some church outing and they watched the same movie as us.



>>> The Grand Cathay. Really gigantic.

The Dark Knight was good. It was just abit long, but other wise i find it really thrilling. It s a lot different from the first movie, this one s more realistic i would say. I think it s the setting. The first one was more of the Studio production. This one, they really acted out on real streets and there was more action. Joker was fantastic. Batman s voice was manipulated for sure. Harvey Dan is the most merciless one. And they shouldnt have changed Rachel to Princess Lea. Please, she doesnt suit this movie.

Saturday, CCAB. Not a good turn up rate. Only Wesley, Ryan, Ying, JJ, Ming, Me, Shawn, Jon Chen. But it was still pretty fun. Ball ramming was great. I felt so liberal for once in many months. Played average. But i m happy that i m calmer with the ball now and making lesser mistakes. Yay. Headers are getting better but still need to work on accuracy.

But i m disappointed. Why? Because i actually put sun block (FIRST TIME) before the session and i still got BURNT! argg. nvm, at least this time, everyone was burnt! haha!
Left the place for Holland V lunch with JJ, Ming and Ying.



>>> See, when my phone is left to the care of others, this is what i find in my Image Gallery. JJ and Ming, fun dudes.

Holland V Food Junction. Ate some black pepper beef rice that cost $5.30!!! plus drink $1.50. and more drinks at CCAB, omg i m really spending like mad. No good, i have to control the spending. Anw bridge session with the 3 was fun. Ming rocks to the core. Bussed to Dhobby Ghaut with him playing Worms on my phone. Fun time. Supposed to have PW but i didnt even know a thing. No time, no meeting place. Only about 3 plus then i realise it s national library and reached there about 5 plus. Whatever it is, it wasnt a good session. Back to work!

PW problem

Sometimes, the best solution to a problem is to just do nothing.

When emotions are running high, when millions of thoughts are racing through the brain, when the heart is feeling so sore, when the eyes are filled with misery and perhaps anger, when the tongue lost it s ability to wag, when the ear distorts everything it receives...

THE BEST SOLUTION TO A PROBLEM IS TO JUST DO NOTHING.

Nothing. Simply nothing. Additional words could be the fuel to the fire. Attempts to resolve could escalate the problem. Whatever efforts would be just redundant. and i have to emphasize that this is at the spur of the moment.

It doesnt solve the problem totally, but it s the best alternative for the time being. It allows parties to cool down, think rationally, remove as much anger and resentment as possible, and a logical and practical solution will come eventually.

It may seem that i dun care, but what you see is not what you get. But dun worry something has to be done, i wont let this be a hindrance to our goal. It was a badly organised session, with no exact time and no precise objectives, we were just a headless chicken. Honestly, more need to be done individually before meeting, it is impossible to have 32 fingers and 8 thumbs on 1 keyboard. Better planning is needed considering time is an essence now.

No point playing the blame game now, but we all know who s the culprit. Roar! 'pridefully'

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Troubled

Feeling troubled lately. Maybe it s the virus? Coughing like mad, throat burning, head spinning, always tired. Missed sch on mon because of that. as i m typing, i m coughing..

I forgot the feeling of being sick since i havent fell ill since er.. early last year? still human afterall. no matter how much care you take, these things just strike.

and i hate the feeling of being sick, cant do anything properly, miss out on so much etc. must recover fast! sat CCAB!! finally, after so long.

i think the biggest thing bugging me now is track. till now i m not sure exactly what s the problem. whether i make it to exco? whether the people in the exco deserve it? whether track will improve with our batch? whether i should join Sprints instead and abandon Distance?

so many problems, and no answers.

i m sort of glad FPSP is taking the back seat for the time being. even though it s fun doing and i dun mind going for another competition. can we qualify?

PW, WR isnt that good, thousands of appendix. so what if we have 60 over pages, the real report aint much of substance, must really put in effort to think and type. Just rushed through the first draft. Still have so much to do, brochure, poster, video, transcipt, post survey, website.

OCIP, i m confident it ll go through with our back up plan. just the parents. coz with the back up, cost isnt a worry anymore. and please Thai troops, just get the hell out of there.

Bio field trip, i think i m not going definitely. with so many things going on at the same time, and the research thingy dun really appeal to me.

Work shadowing aka stalking, Gabs bugging me to submit the form with him, but with such disgusting CT results, i doubt they ll even look at the form. And it might clash with OCIP. no good.

Last but never least, academics. Bad, i m not on track.

Is my life really going downhill? that s another question to be answered.

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Tagged

Just remember Jolena tagged me to do this. See, i m so sporting! (right...)

1)how old did you wish you were?
> 0 years old, free and easy with no worries!

2) where were you when 911 happened?
> At home watching some drama and my mum just switched to CNA and i had no choice but to watch the second plane crash into the other building.

3) what do you do when vending machine steals your money?
> LOL. Laugh it off. Really. Last monday, when i threw in 1.40 into the vending machine outside SA's Chapel at the CC, wanting to buy 100 plus, some other lemon drink fell out even when i didnt select any drink. I guess i must really pray harder next time before buying a drink at the chapel.

4) do you count yourself kind?
> hmm, i try not to kill, not to steal, not to swear but i dun think i m very kind to the environment with my green house gases.

5) if you had to get a tatoo, where would it be?
> Er, on my hair? So that if i m not happy with it, i can just cut it off.

6) if you could be fluent in any other language, what would it be?
>French. and maybe German, so i can find out if Lyrad is really a German girl's name.

7) do you know your neighbours?
>Not really, but i know the one next door is a Japanese woman and Malaysian man, while the one at the lobby is a chain smoker.

8) what do you consider a vacation?
>Going overseas without any work. Just play play play.

9) do you follow your horoscope?
> Nah cant be bothered. Even if i bother to read, i ll just freak out and forget it because it s so horrifying.

10) would you move for the person you love?
> Move? Move house?

11) are you touchy feely?
> Yea i ve got a sense of touch.

12) do you believe that opposites attract?
> If not what, i m not gay ok, eh maybe with ying lun and timo only. hmm maybe gabs too, er yong pin a bit? oh ya, reuben! All the while..

13) dream job?
> Proffesional football player.

14) favorite channels?
> Media corp only provide those few pathetic channels, what answers can i provide? Suria? Vasantham? Or TV 1?

15) favorite place to go on weekends?
> the seaside.

16) showers or baths?
> baths. what s the point of going in dirty and coming out still dirty.

17) do you paint your nails?
>when accidents happen during art projects.

18) do you trust people easily?
>if they trust me.

19) what are your phobias?
>so far none.

20) do you want kids?
>yep, i wanna show my dad how to be the ideal father.

21) do you keep a handwritten journal?
>used to, nong nong ago.

22) where would you rather be right now?
>enjoying the sunset with that someone.

23) who makes you feel warm and fuzzy?
> my pillow.

24) heavy or light sleeper?
> one that weighs A TON.

25) are you paranoid?
> nah.

26) are you impatient?
> nah.

27) who can you relate to?
> nah. ooops. can t use the same answer. dang. gabs? ying lun?

28) how do you feel about interracial couples?
>that would mean the Singapore Government is overdoing it s job on the promoting multiracial project.

29) have you been burned by love?
> if you consider the Sun as my lover. It has burnt me over and over again, next time dun bother asking why i m so red.

30) what's your favorite pick-up line?
> " Oooh, you smell good!" hahaha i think we ve got a winner.

31) what's your main ringtone on your mobile?
> mostly vibration noises but it s the Boston piano part on the weekends.

32) what were you doing at midnight last night?
> Getting ready to oink.

33) what did the last text on your cellphone say?
> Mum Hp: 'Toa Payoh NTUC.'

34) whose bed did you sleep in last night?
> Steven Gerrard's. Dumb question, obviously mine la.

35) what color shirt are you wearing?
> White.

36) most recent movie you watched?
> Hitman. shh dun tell anyone i downloaded it.

37) name three things you have on you at all times.
> 2 eye balls, 1 brain, and a skull. crap, that s 4 things. ok take away one eye ball.

38) what color are your bedsheets?
> blue blue blue.

39) how much cash do you have on you right now?
>Kosong.

40) what is your favorite part of the chicken?
> lol. the ovary? it makes eggs you know!

41) what's your favorite town/city?
> Probably Queensland. it s so carefree as far as i know. Maybe New Zealand.

42) i cant wait till...?
> I learn to drive! So i can stop taking buses and MRT.

43) what did you have for dinner last night?
> A typical home cooked meal. Rice, veg, meat, egg, soup.

44) do you own a gun?
> Cheeky question. Depends on what gun you refering to. xD Yea i have a toy gun under my bed.

45) what do you prefer to drink in the morning?
> Hot tea.

46) where do you think you'll be in 10 years time?
> Didnt i answer this before? I think i ll still be in Singapore, slogging it out, trying to earn more $$$

47) last thing you ate?
> Donut factory's oreo donut.

48) what songs do you sing in the toilet?
> Majulah Singapura (rock version) and the Pledge (rap version featuring Timbaland)

49) last thing that made you laugh?
> LOL. My own lame sense of humour. hahahaha.

50) worst injury you've ever had?
> Right ankle TRIPLE sprain.

51) does someone have a crush on you?
> Yea about 30 people. Those bleddy sec 2s taupoked me. Crushing my rib cage.

52) what's your favorite candy?
> Hmm, it has to be Hichew Grape.

53) what song do you want played at your funeral?
> Our Lives - The Calling or maybe something sadder so more will cry for me, ah.. Canon in D - Johann Pachelbel

54) four random people to do this:
> Do this if you are random enough. :D